1lonelyalchemist

[1lonelyalchemist]

I can give you about ten reasons why I hate her.

Firstly, as I'm sure you know, she's so selfish.

And she doesn't have much..  I mean, she has no social skills.

She tries to win at everything...Her useless competitive spirit...

She picks a fight with everyone.

And she's stubborn. She's self-centered person who has to do whatever she wants, no matter what.

And she has no sense of romance at all.

She always has important stuff to do. I hate that she only thinks about herself.

And the other thing I hate is that only I know a side of Yeonsu which nobody else knows. She showed this side of her only to me. So I couldn't help but love her.

And the ninth reason. She makes me love her, but then when I think I can't be happier, she takes me to the highest place, and she pushes me off the cliff in the cruelest way possible.

The tenth and the last reason. She erased me from her life so quickly.

- Our Beloved Summer-

[1lonelyalchemist]

Cha Se-gye. No matter what happens to us in the future, just remember this one thing. That I truly hold you in my heart. I will take that with me wherever I go. And with that one memory, I will flourish and not wither away. Promise me.

[1lonelyalchemist]

This man is hopeless. A foolish man who cannot even apologize properly. A bull-headed lone wolf who only cares about himself. Shameless enough to sell his conscience for money. There are countless reasons I must not fall for this man. But there is just one reason why I have.

-My Royal Nemesis-

[1lonelyalchemist]

I'm not sorry at all. If I had to go back, I would still chase after you like a madman. I'd do something foolish and blow up at you again. Even if you're disappointed in me, as long as you're okey, I'll be relieved. I'm really sorry for being like this. But I can't help it. This is how I truly feel. So I'm warning you. Listen carefully to what I'm about to say. I'm about to do something, so if you want to run, now's your chance. I'll give you three seconds.

-My Royal Nemesis-

[1lonelyalchemist]

If I swallow these words again, I think I'll regret it deeply. All of it was my blessing. From the moment I first saw you, every step you took towards me, even the footsteps that hesitated and turned back after my countless rejections, every single one of them, it was my blessing.

-To My Beloved Thief-

[1lonelyalchemist]

No, you don't know. You know nothing. Hong Eun Jo. I hate dreaming the same dream as you. I despise today that must be endured, their tomorrow, and this very moment. A man with small ambitions. You may be disappointed, but it can't be helped. Now, I confess. My dream has always been you.

-To My Beloved Thief-

[1lonelyalchemist]

Whims? You are right. As you said, I grew up without watching my step or holding back. I admit my rambling was a confession that didn't consider the others and a love without respect. I wasn't even curious about the gap you mentioned. Because I didn't need to know. I don't want to pretend I understand now. But, even for someone of my status, it takes dozens, hundreds of rehearsals before appearing before the women he loves, each step heavy and hesitant. People usually call that courage, you know. How cold of you.

-To My Beloved Thief-

[1lonelyalchemist]

Alright. I'll be honest. You're right. It was that night. That was the night I agreed to a marriage like most in Joseon, one befitting my status. For me, wealth, success, honor, family and even myself. Of all the things the world deems important, I believed love had the least do with me. But that night, deciding on marriage, I asked myself for the first time. "What if I've let something important slip away?" That question made me uneasy. I felt unhappy too. That's when I saw you. Seeing a man waiting for me for over four hours, I felt like I'd become the protagonist in an old folktale. That's all. Runnig away from reality and rushing to you, blinded by self-pity, spilling my misery to a strange man on a whim. And now, I don't want to be trapped in a fairy tale.

-To My Beloved Thief-

[1lonelyalchemist]

[1lonelyalchemist]

Nan-young. I wanted to wrap you up in light. I didn't want you to see even a trace of the shadows inside me. Could a nobody like me dare to want someone as special as you? I told myself to put an end to it. But every morning, I'd wake up and look for a traces of you. You taught me every day that light and shadows are inseparable. That without the shadows, you cannot embrace the light. Please. Please. Waiting indefinitely, honestly, sometimes, it hurts a quite a bit. But if there's anything as certain as pain, it's that I'll never give up on you. So please, don't give up on me either. At the end of this wait, come back and save me. I sorry for taking so long.

-Lost in Starlight-

[1lonelyalchemist]

Jay, it's me, Nan-  young. You know what? When I was young, I never carried an umbrella with me. But I never got caught in the rain. Because dad always came to meet me. He always looking up at the sky, so he must've developed a sixth sense for predicting rain. Maybe I've gotten used to it. Even now, I still don't carry an umbrella. But you know what? The day you first said my name. That day was the first time I'd shared an umbrella as an adult. It's also the day I fell for you. If you're watching this, it probably means something unfortunate has happened. Jay, the funny thing is, instead of following the same path, you might go in another direction and find an oasis. That's what you are to me. You lead me onto a path more than beautiful than I could have ever imagined. It'll we tough, but Jay, I hope you won't stay sad for too long. Live without regrets and be yourself. With your own voice. Live a beautiful life. Don't forget, Jay. Out here in space, there's someone who's always rooting for you.

-Lost in Starlight-

[qvotable]

I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.

Paulo Coelho; The Alchemist

[1lonelyalchemist]

[1lonelyalchemist]

Dear Jiwon, I put a curse on you. I pray you will be unhappy for the rest of your life. When you're walking, I hope you trip over every third step. I hope you're rejected by every collage you apply to. I hope you're bored and lonely with no friends. I hope you're always sick with a cold. But no matter how much I curse you, it doesn't assuage my anger in the slightest. To be honest, I miss you so much. So someday, even if you're beset with all the bad luck and unhappiness in the world, come back to me, Jiwon.

-Love Your Enemy-

[1lonelyalchemist]

Because I like him. I liked him because he never cared about anything as long as he had me. He really used to smile as if he had it all. How could my 18 years old self not have liked Seok Jiwon? He left me back then. And the end is sight now as well. I like him again. That's just how things turned out.

-Love Your Enemy-

[1lonelyalchemist]

Memories are unstable because some memories are remembered by only one person.

-Serendipity's Embrace-

[1lonelyalchemist]

When you call out "Kang Hoo Young", my heart beats so fast it aches. It beat so fast I got worried it would beat out of my chest. I don't know when it started. I just found myself waiting for you to call my name. That's when I knew. "I see. I must like her."

-Serendipity's Embrace-