Whereabouts

Cha. 90s. I like sleeping and reading. 

[victoria-pedretti]

Ryan Gosling as Ryland Grace PROJECT HAIL MARY 2026 — dir. Phil Lord and Christopher Miller

[remanence-of-love]

[irishangeleyes2nd]

❤️

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]

[1maginarylines]

It's March 1st. It's been a long time since I last posted something on this blog. Back then, my Papa was in pain, but we did not know that it was his cancer coming back. In August, a few weeks after my birthday, my Papa unexpectedly passed away. He was not able to eat and drink, swallowing was such a pain, he had to have a peg tube. One day, he just didn't wake up... we rode the ambulance and he was quickly intubated. I was told he wasn't in a good situation. I saw him wake up in the afternoon, so I was relieved. Past 10 PM, I went back home. I was at ease. The next day, I went back to the hospital. I was in a cab when my Mama texted me that the doctors are asking about our next step. Whether we'll have Papa resuscitated or not. Mama said we won't... we had Papa transferred to a private room with all the machines needed because the ICUs were full. Another day passed, and after Papa's siblings all visited and left, Papa started to decline. His heart beat was going slower and slower until it stopped. Remembering the days he was in pain and the final days in the hospital until his funeral pains me still. It's only been 6 months and a few days... it truly still scares and pains me. But I am trying to manage my thoughts better and try to think of the better days, where he was healthy and happy. I love you, Papa. I miss you everyday. When your smile and the mundane things and our memories at home pop up in my mind, it feels like you're with me. It's like you're visiting me.

[quotefeeling]

“Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.”

— Carl Jung

[xoxochb]

the look of love

[1maginarylines]

I’m in my era where fancy teacups, flatwares, and plates entice me. They’re so exquisite, but they’re too expensive for me too. 😅

I should hold myself and buy only a few at a time. It’s not like I have several mouths to drink from those teacups. I should be smarter and be more disciplined… it is indeed true that managing money involves emotions. 😭😂

[1maginarylines]

I want to go to Vienna and attend a ball too. 🥹

I have never attended ball. No prom, no graduation ball. I think having the chance to attend a ball in Vienna would be great experience. 😆

[sophsun1]

Titanic (1997) dir. James Cameron

[1maginarylines]

Wow, I want to learn making ravioli 😋

[1maginarylines]

250406 Sunday

Started my day reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer instead of doomscrolling

I read over a hundred pages. Finally! I'm so happy. I hope I get to read and write more this year!

Attended my first Japanese N5 class and our sensei is amicable

Did not stay on social media for hours (this is really today's win)

Went out on a Sunday! Supported local shops:

Ate Korean barbecue (samgyupsal) at the new restaurant near our house with my brother and our cousin (ate)

Bought coffee at a local coffee shop near our house. It's been around for some time already but it's my first time there! They have affordable coffee and their place is decent so I'm planning to hangout there some time to read. Finally found a third place near our place!)

Finished our laundry and hang them up on the rooftop instead of by the window haha

Reached almost 5k steps

[metamorphesque]

"Crime and Punishment", Fyodor Dostoevsky (translated by Constance Garnett)

[1maginarylines]

241226

Christmas flew by. I was stressing out about my pending tasks at work on Monday, December 23, and now it's already Thursday, December 26... It was raining the past two days so it wasn't really Christmassy.

But then, I thought to myself this morning, that it may not have been an 'ideal' Christmas, where everything looked or felt cozy and festive, but it's a quiet and peaceful one. I have my family with me. We are well and safe. We are comfortable at home. We have food on the table. It's great to realize how blessed we are to enjoy these simple and mundane things.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

[1maginarylines]

241222

I can't believe it's already December 22. I was just in Tokyo in the last week of November and now the year is coming to a close. I haven't finished a lot of tasks at work still, though. I can't let my tasks finish me. I have to be the one finishing them!

Oh, I started watching Sex and the City last night btw. I am watching it for the first time. It came out when I was not even a first grader. I wouldn't have understood a thing even if I watched it then. Also too inappropriate for a child's eyes. I believe I'm around the age of the characters now and it's amazing that the script and experiences of the characters are almost the same with our reality today. Guess we need to laugh it out sometimes too!

[quotefeeling]

“Learn to say no without explaining yourself.”

— Unknown

[theambitiouswoman]

[conscious-alignment-deactivated]