▬𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝘰𝘶𝘵.

oc . closed rp . literate . nsfw

[2056ju]

when the party’s over.

[2056ju]

sian:

sian takes a couple of seconds to explore ju’s upper chest, fingertips barely grazing over his collarbones before the hunger kicks in again. the hand that still lays in ju’s neck grips on a little tighter, lips leaving a trial of kisses down ju’s jaw and neck before settling on a patch of skin he remembers being particularly touchy.

Right at this moment, there’s nothing else in Hyeonju’s mind other than Sian. Ah, how much he’s wanted to have the younger in his hands like that again, and this time being even better than the first time --- he’s sober, he’s fully conscious of his actions. And he can’t help but smile in the kiss when Sian pulls him against the desk again, where he leans on and pulls the younger even closer to his body. His arms make their way around Sian’s small frame and keep both bodies pressed together, with no intentions of pulling them apart. 

He chuckles after he hears Sian complain about his tie and he interrupts the kiss just slightly so he speaks, “Don’t worry, I got that.” His voice is soft and quiet when he says that, and he doesn’t waste time to press their lips back together like they were before. He enjoys the feeling of the other male’s touch on his collarbones though, it sends soft little shivers down his spine and he tightens his hold onto Sian’s waist, pressing his fingertips into the fabric on Sian’s shirt as an encouragement to keep going, and so the other male does: the kisses he trails on Ju’s neck only make him shiver some more, and a low chuckle escapes from his parted lips when the younger male stops by a sensitive spot --- something Sian was probably very proud of finding.

But eventually, the commander moves his hands from the younger man’s waist and starts undoing Sian’s tie as well, making sure to unbutton his shirt all the way down until he’s able to pull the piece of clothing off of Sian’s body. The shirt falls to the floor and Hyeonju forgets about it immediately, as he brushes his fingertips all the way down Sian’s chest and abdomen until his hands are back on the other’s waist, and he goes back to holding the younger tight and close to him, but this time he digs his fingertips directly against Sian’s skin. Might redden up later.

“Sian,” he mumbles, leaning in to place a little kiss to the other’s cheek, and then another, and one to the corner of his lips. “Let me kiss you.”

[2056ju]

noeul:

“hold on– who are you?” noeul finally crosses his arms, a (fake) stern look in his face. was he being convincing? was this working? was he going to get his ass kicked? will he be able to return to his mother with the promise of overthrowing the elite? “i’m not supposed to let anyone in, y’know. you’re going to have to…uh…” his voice shrinks, becoming almost inaudible. “…leave.”

the boy pops another candy in his mouth, this time the size of a mint, but the taste of awfully over-glucosed, artificial pineapple. perhaps he should’ve offered it to the stranger– noeul wasn’t the greatest of businessmen, clearly.

If there is one thing Hyeonju can assume about the boy is that he is a terrible, terrible actor. It’s hard to take him seriously, and the commanding officer feels bad for feeling the urge to laugh at how hard the younger boy is trying to explain himself. Hyeonju is not dumb, he’s dealt with so many types of people in his job in the military, he knows when a person is lying or not --- and the way the boy is stuttering, the way he’s acting, everything screams PANIC.

The kid’s attempt of not looking and sounding like a deer in headlights has failed miserably.

“New assistant,” the oldest of the two finally says, he raises an eyebrow and crosses his arms. “Funny, I think Mr. Lee would have told me about his new assistant when he asked me to meet him in his office room.” Hyeonju takes a few steps closer to the boy and looks down at him, making sure to put on his most intimidating facial expression to pressure the other even more. “I’m Park Hyeonju, the army’s commanding officer. You boss asked me to come here for a meeting, I can’t leave. I spoke directly with him, kid.”

This time a frown takes place on his forehead, he looks way too serious and his voice also sounds a lot firmer when he speaks. “Now who are you? What’s your name, huh? And you better tell me the truth.”

[2056ju]

here comes the storm.

[2056ju]

sian‌:

“i’m not leaving,” it’s not like he can with the storm that is raging outside anyway, “i just need a drink.” his voice sounds thick under the pressure of his own emotion, eyes still focused on the door that would allow his escape. during this whole encounter, sian hasn’t looked at ju once and he will continue to refuse so. he doesn’t want ju to mistake his welling tears for blame.

he flees out of the bedroom, in search for some relief in the form of whiskey. the power’s out, living room basking in darkness but sian finds the liquor cabinet on automatic pilot. he pours himself a glass, one he immediately downs as he stares out of the window, wondering if it would have felt any differently if he were to be standing in the middle of it.

The kiss Sian deposits on the back of his hand almost calms Hyeonju down for a moment, if it wasn’t for the fact that the younger man also pulled himself away from his arms and created a distance between their bodies again. Ju looks at Sian with sad eyes and tries to say something, tries to say anything that could possibly make the other stay, but his mind goes blank when he hears the loud and terrifying sound of lightning --- he was so distracted by Sian’s presence, so drowned into their time together, he didn’t even notice the storm.

Nature had such good timing.

The entire apartment is dark, and it doesn’t help the oldest of the two at the moment: he is so lost, so confused and so desperate to find a way to get out of that situation, the blackout only leaves him more disoriented.

At some point, though, the commanding officer breathes deeply and walks out of the bedroom, looking around and squinting his eyes in an attempt to find Sian in the middle of the pitch dark apartment. And when his eyes finally find the younger, he takes wider steps to get to the other man.

“Sian,” he says, reaching for the bottle of whiskey that Sian managed to find and putting it back inside the cabinet. “Tell me what’s wrong... Tell me what you’re feeling, please. And stop drinking, we’ve drank enough. Please, Si, tell me.”

[2056ju]

here comes the storm.

— starter for @sian2056​ ♥

He watches Sian get out of the bed and he starts to panic, Hyeonju immediately moves his body out of the bed as well and he rushes to put on some pants on, and he quickly makes his way towards the younger male before he manages to leave the bedroom. Ju wraps his arms tight around Sian’s body, hugging the smaller man from behind and keeping them as close as possible. He buries his face against Sian’s shoulder and breathes deep, closing his eyes tight as he curses him in his head. He can’t believe he has upset Sian again, he can’t believe he’s making Sian cry, probably not for the first and he hates himself for that.

“No, no, no! Sian, wait... I’m sorry, Si. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you... I didn’t mean to hurt you. Please, don’t leave. Don’t leave now. Please. Please.”

[2056ju]

"did i pressure you too much the first time? were you not ready yet? is that why you... i mean why her?"

— drunk honesty meme!

He has the younger man laying on his chest, and his hand slowly plays with Sian’s hair when he hears the sudden question. He definitely isn’t expecting for something like that, but well... after an entire bottle of wine, he couldn’t expect anything from the other or even himself. But Hyeonju stays silent for a moment, he doesn’t move an inch but he keeps running his fingers through the soft strands of Sian’s messy hair. 

Eventually, he moves a bit closer to the other and wraps his arms around the smaller body, bringing it closer to his own --- warm and comfortable, as if they were molded for each other. He leans in closer and presses a soft and gentle kiss to the younger’s forehead, and brings one of his hands up to move some hair away from Sian’s face. And he can’t hold back the smile that forms on his lips when his eyes meet the other’s.

“No, baby.” He says, almost in a whisper, not able to take his eyes off of his beloved’s face. “You didn’t pressure me, I wanted to do what we did. Maybe... I wasn’t ready, maybe I would have enjoyed it more if I was sober, but I don’t regret anything. And... her. I---- I was in denial, Si. That’s the reason why I was with her... I was trying to repress my feelings, and that was the worst thing I could have ever done. I’m so sorry...”

[2056ju]

"are you a snitch? can't be--are you?"

— drunk honesty meme!

Hyeonju frowns after listening to the younger boy’s question, and he can’t help the small smirk that spreads on his lips when he notices the hesitation in Noeul’s face and voice --- clearly scared, and as much as Hyeonju doesn’t like being feared, seeing the other react that way to his presence does make the commanding officer feel powerful.

He chuckles, crosses his arms and turns to face the boy properly, he crosses his arms and squints at the other, looking even more intimidating with that posture, as if his military uniform and his face weren’t enough to frighten the younger boy.

“Why are you asking, boy?” He asks and steps closer. “Are you afraid that I’m gonna tell Sian about your gaming marathon on his desktop? You know, you should respect your boss, Noeul... I might let you get out of this situation this time, and keep my mouth shut---- but if I hear that you’ve disrespected Mr. Lee again, I will have to do something about it. Understand?”

[2056ju]

who was the last person you said i love you to?

— drunk honesty meme!

"Eunjae,” he says without hesitation, nodding his head a few times as he looks at the woman. That is definitely not a difficult question to answer, once it hasn’t been a long time since he had said ‘I love you’ to his brother, earlier that night. “I called him and we had an emo moment, we cried and I said I love him. He was also drunk, that’s why we both cried...”

[2056ju]

"did the army give you any weird habits?"

— drunk honesty meme!

Ah, if there is one thing the military service has done to Hyeonju, it’s to give him strange habits. He sighs just thinking about everything that has changed in his life ever since he joined the army, in fact, ever since he started training to be part of the army --- it started very early in the teen years, when his father would wake him up earlier in the morning for physical training. That has been something he can’t get rid of now, no matter how much he tries to sleep in on his days off.

He brings his hand up to brush his fingers through his hair, taking the strands from off his forehead when he thinks of what he’d choose to tell her... There are so many things! He can’t list it all, but he manages to think of some more noticeable habit to share with the scientist.

“Um... Waking up at 5 in the morning is definitely something I can’t quit doing, not only because I have to be at the military base at 6, but also because it’s very difficult to fall back asleep after so many years waking up at the same hour every day. I can’t sleep in later not even in my days off... I also got used to living with only the necessary, once you can’t really carry a lot of stuff when you’re in service, or in the field. And I have become a lot more paranoid---- just so you know, I get really anxious when I’m not wearing my identification tag. It just... doesn’t feel right.”

[2056ju]

"would you like to have your lover's eyes gauged out or your brother's guts inside out? just asking... for my to-do list."

— drunk honesty meme!

Oh, that question. Hyeonju is so drunk at the moment, he has so many bottles of soju around him, he doesn’t even take the other man seriously. He frowns at Kiyoung, clears his throat and carelessly brushes his fingers through his hair to take the strands away from his forehead. Then, all he does is reach for one of the empty bottles he has over his table and point it towards the older man. 

“You wanna know what I want?” He asks, his voice a little bit too loud due to all the alcohol in his system. “I want you to take this bottle and shove it up your ass! And then repeat with all these other bottles... Let’s see how many you can handle, you asshole.”

[2056ju]

"how long is it going to take this time? before you change your mind again?"

— drunk honesty meme!

He’s waking Sian back to his apartment building when the question is made, leaving Hyeonju staring at Sian with wide eyes. 

It’s the end of their date already, and that question is definitely not something he’s expecting to hear at this point. It doesn’t feel right, not when Ju is holding Sian’s hand so tight and walking so close next to him. But the commanding officer doesn’t let go of the other, he doesn’t distance himself, if anything he only tightens his grip on the other’s hand. 

“I won’t change my mind.” His voice sound firm when he speaks, and a slight frown form on his forehead when he looks down at his feet, lips pursed into a pout as he sulks. He doesn’t like that. He knows Sian doesn’t have any reason to trust him a hundred percent after how Ju reacted to their first night together --- but fuck, he’s trying. He’s doing his best to accept who he truly is, but it’s not as easy as it seems.

It’s a slow process.

“Trust me, Sian. I know exactly who I am now.” His hold on the younger’s hand tightens a bit more. “Please, don’t doubt of me like that... I know I’m not the best person to be asking that after what happened to us before, but trust me.”

[2056ju]

"weren't you ever... tired? tired of taking care of everything, tired of having me stuck to your back?"

— drunk honesty meme!

This time, Hyeonju can’t help the frown that forms on his forehead when he turns to look at Eunjae again, a clear sign of disbelief due to the complete nonsense that had just left Eunjae’s mouth. Hyeonju holds himself back not to reach over and tug on his brother’s ear, so he never even thinks about something like that again --- but he knows they’re both drunk, and he knows very well how your mind sometimes goes to very dark places when you’re not sober.

Instead, he gives Eunjae a hard nudge on his arm, hard enough to cause a bit of momentary pain.

“What the fuck are you talking about, Eunjae--- I know you’re drunk but, come on, that’s a bit too much. Give me your bottle--- you’re not drinking anymore. Give me.” And he manages to take the bottle of beer from his brother’s hands, putting it away from him and just then he turns to face Eunjae properly. 

Hyeonju grabs his hands and makes the younger look at him in the eyes, his expression is serious and intense. He looks like he’s about to give Eunjae a lecture, like when they were younger.

“No. I was never tired. I would do everything all over again if I had to, without having to think twice. I actually don’t even think I did enough... I could have been so much better to you, Jae.”

[2056ju]

"hyung, why don't you care about yourself? don't you know how much you mean to us?"

— drunk honesty meme!

He freezes after listening to his brother’s question, and he doesn’t dare to look at Eunjae when he finds himself without an answer that would comfort or satisfy the younger man — not that there is anything that would satisfy Eunjae at this point, he knows Hyeonju better than anyone else and wouldn’t accept his excuses. 

Not that he could come up with anything good enough at the moment, not after sharing a beer or two with the younger. Maybe three.

The oldest of the Park brothers takes a deep breath and runs his fingers through his hair, brushing the strands back, and just then he finally looks at the other. But he doesn’t speak yet, still looking for the ‘right’ words, those that wouldn’t worry Eunjae even more than he already is worried.

“Jae, I— it’s not that I don’t care about myself.” He says, shaking his head a few times trying to convince the other. “I just… put the ones I love before me. Your safety and your well-being are way up above mine. I will be fine as long as I know that you are fine. I don’t mind getting a bruise or a scratch knowing that you are going to be intact, safe and sound and without a single trauma. I know you worry and that I mean so much to you, but that won’t stop me from protecting you in any way I can.”

[2056ju]

"did you really never realize i had the biggest crush on you during high school?" (drunk meme)

— drunk honesty meme!

It’s the first time he takes Sian somewhere for a date, and the place he has chosen is a place where he knows people wouldn’t recognize them, differently from the center of the city where everybody would spot them and make a fuss about their encounter --- what could the commanding officer and the CEO of Damsu be doing together in a restaurant? All smiley and touchy? Hyeonju refuses to put Sian and himself in a situation like that.

The small and simple restaurant, located in a neighborhood much poorer than Ju and Sian are used to, it isn’t even as bad as it looks. The oldest of the men has been there before with fellow military colleagues, and he has a vivid memory of the food being fantastic --- the fish they served was truly fresh, and cultured in the right conditions by the owners of the little restaurant ( they have to treat it right, once the small business is their only income in the current situation ).

But the quality of the wine they were drinking definitely doesn’t meet up with the quality of the fish, and perhaps that’s the reason why they are already so drunk after just a couple of glasses of the beverage. It resulted in random questions, sudden and loud bursts of laughter, careless hands reaching for one another, and some very honest responses... They definitely need something like that.

And Sian’s question brings a bright smile to Hyeonju’s lips, his cheeks already reddish from the alcohol and also from the moment itself --- he has been so flustered around Sian in the past few weeks they’ve been spending together, it isn’t something you see often from the oldest of the two.

“I swear I didn’t,” he starts. “I had no idea, Sian... I was always so busy, I had a thousand things in my mind and I didn’t even notice the most obvious things. Even if you were like, all over me... I probably wouldn’t have noticed. And considering I wasn’t aware of myself at the time, I also have no idea what my reaction would have been back then. I’m sorry for not noticing... And I’m sorry if I was ever rude to you or something, I was already so stressed back then.”

[2056ju]

🥂 "do you think... if we'd actually be straight – would we really have fallen in love?"

— drunk honesty meme!

Hyeonju can’t help but look at the woman next to him with raised eyebrows, due to the nature of her question: it is not something he would ever expect to hear from Sujin, it is something that has never crossed his mind after their break up and the fact that she brings the topic on surprises him. It doesn’t bother him though, it doesn’t even make him uncomfortable --- they have spent so much time together, they have known each other intimately enough to be able to say anything they want to each other, and for this reason, he allows a small smile to form on his lips when he thinks of an answer, his voice sounds gentle and quite low when he speaks.

“From how things were in our relationship, I think we would. You were a great girlfriend, Sujin... A girlfriend that was definitely more of a friend than a partner, and I think that’s why I enjoyed our time together so much. Even if... it didn’t end up as we thought it would, as we expected it would, I think it was necessary. And speaking for myself, if I were straight, I think I would have fallen for you.”

[2056ju]

don’t tell.

— starter for @ares2056

He arrives at the place of their meeting a little bit later than they had planned due to a bad encounter on his way out of the military base, but it’s not late enough to have him worried. He walks into the bar and immediately spots Ares sitting on a desk far from the entrance, and he calmly walks towards him. 

Hyeonju looks a lot better than when he left his job, he had passed by his apartment to take a shower and change into clean, casual clothes --- he wouldn’t show up in his dirty uniform, but the expression on his face was still tense, as if something really bad had happened earlier that day. And it did, and that is part of the reason why he wanted to meet with Ares in the first place. But he still manages to offer the other male a smile when he takes a seat across of him.

“Hi, Ares. I’m sorry for being late, I had some... problems at the base.” He says and takes a deep breath, brushing his fingers through his hair when he leans back against his chair. “I hope I didn’t leave you waiting for too long... How have you been?”

[2056ju]

license to kill.

— starter for @kiyoung2056

The last thing he does before he leaves the military base is to wave goodbye to the soldier in the watchtower, a small smile on his lips as he makes his way past the gates, but once he finds himself outside, his head immediately lowers and his gaze falls to the floor. The smile is no longer on his lips as he walks towards the parking lot, just now realizing how dirty and disgusting his boots look already --- he remembers washing that same pair of boots just the last weekend, how did it get so dirty in just a few days? But then again, his entire uniform was already dirty as fuck in only one day of usage.

Ah, he really can’t wait to get home and take a cold shower --- the few minutes he stays under then sunlight are enough to make his skin burn and his eyes hurt, too much light not to be wearing sunglasses and he happens to have forgotten his at home. But he does ignore the unbearable sensation of being cooked alive into all of those layers of clothes that consist in his uniform when he sees a strange figure standing by his car.

Hyeonju stops walking when he’s still some good meters away from the person itself --- far enough for the stranger not to see him just yet, but enough for him to start to realize that this stranger... might not really be a stranger. 

He brings his hand to his hip just to make sure he’s prepared for whatever situation is about to happen, feeling the handgun very well secured in his belt holster. After some seconds, the commanding officer takes a deep breath and fixes the cap on top of his head as he starts walking towards his vehicle again, slightly nervous while he gets closer and closer to the man he can already recognize.

“Kiyoung,” he says once he’s standing near the older male, tightening his grip on the bag he’s been carrying the entire time --- more dirty clothes in its interior, but that’s not important. “What are you doing here?”

[sian2056-blog]

a little party never killed nobody

[2056ju]

eunjae:

sian:

( … )

“either way, i’m glad to hear you’re both enjoying the party. i know some of these people can be a bit much to deal with so please go for a refill whenever you need to. all this champagne is not going to drink itself.” he laughs, hand patting down on eunjae’s back to reinforce the joke.

“if there is anything else you need,” sian makes sure to glance in ju’s direction right when those words slip out of his mouth, teeth biting down on his bottom lip a little, “don’t hesitate to look for me.”

   another laugh to complement the other’s fall from his lips, and even if it’s not completely genuine, it is good enough to fool. eunjae is a very good actor, after all, this is what he does for a living. “absolutely — yet again, we promise not to cause any mayhem. free champagne can be a dangerous medium.” he points out, smiling at the offer, even though something in sian’s words bothers him almost irrationally. there is no need to look behind the words, but that added to how nervous ju is, he can’t help it.

   then again, he goes for the appropriate answer as he speaks. “we will, sian — thank you for the invite once again.”

It’s nothing new for Hyeonju that Eunjae would notice the way he’s acting. The younger of the Park brothers knows him more than anyone else, it has always been like that --- Eunjae could read Ju like a children’s book, clearly and with no effort. And that makes it even worse for him, that makes him feel even more nervous and even more awkward, because he knows he can’t hide anything from Eunjae. And the way Sian talks to him, stares at him and acts towards him... It only increases the feeling of being out of place.

But he keeps a smile on his face, remaining silent every time the other two male speak to each other. Hyeonju doesn’t need to be even more obvious, and he feels like he’s going to stutter and get lost in his words if he ever opens his mouth to say anything --- so he just watches and smiles, like he has no idea what to do in a situation like that, which is the reality.

He takes a sip from the drink Sian had brought him, and looks away after he listens to what Sian says --- and not just that, but also the way the CEO of Damsu bites his lip after saying those words. It’s clear they’re directed at Hyeonju, and he’s hoping Eunjae didn’t notice it. The last thing Ju wants is to have to explain why Sian was being so flirty towards him like that.

But once he notices his brother thanking the other man for being invited to the party, Ju can’t help but let a wider smile spread through his lips when he bows his head and joins his brother. “Thank you for the invite, Mr. Lee. It’s a great party.”