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zanderlefevre:
That’s a childish way to deal with your problems
Call me a child all you want its not going to change the fact that I'm staying home. Sometimes people have to avoid their issues for a day before confronting them.
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Fuck it...
zanderlefevre:
That’s a childish way to deal with your problems
Call me a child all you want its not going to change the fact that I'm staying home. Sometimes people have to avoid their issues for a day before confronting them.
Fuck it...
zanderlefevre:
Can you just.. not. Can you please stop bringing everyone down? All you are doing is being dramatic dude. I come on here to have fun and make friends. And then there you are complaining about someone looking at you the wrong way. I figured an ex con would be a bit tougher than you are.
Can you please not try to tell me how to live my life? You wanna come on here and make friends, fine. I'm complaining about people fucking jumping down my throat everytime i say something wrong and I'm sick of it. So if i want to come on here and talk about being pissed off thats my prerogative. If people don't like what I say they have every physical ability to, oh my god...whats the phrase? Oh yeah! Scroll past it.
and I'm plenty tough. You don't know shit about what goes on inside my head so don't fucking go there.
Ugh...
zanderlefevre:
Being a good friend is a good start. Good luck with that, Zander.
Which is exactly what I'm doing already. Why does your face look like you;re trying not to laugh at me?
On this day in history: mundanity, and terror, and food, and love, and trees.||Zander and OPEN
Zan sat on his front porch with a 26 of rum and thoughts of hatred for himself. He glared at the grass and thought of how much he hated the fact that basically everything he ever said was ignored or taken the wrong way. He didn't want to admit who he had feelings for but it seemed like he didn't have to. People made that assumption all by themselves. At this point he had a different hatred of the world than he usually did. this wasn't depression or anxiety. This was just raw anger at people.
He took a long swig of rum and sighed heavily. Yes, he had feelings for Grady. Was he about to sabotage that relationship? NO! Grady was his friend and Zan knew the other man loves Lori.
"God i hate people sometimes." He leaned against the wall and took off his leg, feeling a soft form rubs against his stump. Bomi came and rested on his lap. Zan stroked her back. "At least you don't think i'm that kind of guy..."
He glared at the driveway and thought he saw someone walking towards him. He closed his eyes and sighed.
Fuck it...||PRIVATE
zanderlefevre:
Well..if you need to talk, I’m always here for a friend in need.
Well...the thing is. There are parts of what they're saying that is correct. I have feelings for this person.... But they all think I want to ruin his current relationship or they're saying he should end what hes doing or whatever and thats so fucking wrong. I don't want anything like that to happen.... I want him to be happy. That all. I don't want him to break up with anyone or get mad or whatever. People have apparently assumed shit that isn't right and.....its fucked up. I'm so done with people taking the things i say out of context, Atlas...
Fuck it...
zanderlefevre:
Are you alright Zander?
Nope. Don't want to give people the wrong idea more than i already have.
Fuck it...
Staying home today, sorry.
Not going to work, not leaving my room because fuck if i walk the wrong way someone is taking it away from the point.
Its strange how words can be taken out of context
zanderlefevre:
What’s up, Z?
Oh, you know... the usual. People taking what i say wrong and assuming that because I want to help my friend they think I'm gonna jump in his damn bed. I'm not that kind of guy even if there are feelings there on my end. He is in a damn relationship currently! I am not about to try and sabotage that!
Its strange how words can be taken out of context
Especially when it was supposed to be simply a conversation between friends. Thank you all for assuming.
Okay so you assume that because I don't want to see Grady hurting...because he's my friend and he's obviously upset and missing her and I know what that feels like.... you think i'm gonna sleep with him? I don't understand your logic, Anon.
Ugh...
zanderlefevre:
I’m happy
Thats great.
By the way I heard about what happened... uhm... are you okay?
Ugh...
zanderlefevre:
Not everything has to blossom into some kind of romance. You can care about someone else and let it be platonic. Solid friendships are usually better than any kind of romantic relationship. It’s the confidentiality and good times without physical intimacy and fear of losing it all after an argument about something mundane. I’m sure you know all about that from your latest breakup. Falling fast and hard hurts.
I know... Its never easy... Its...probably best for me to just keep doing what I'm doing... Being a good friend...
Ugh...
zanderlefevre:
Is this platonic or…?
I can’t give you legitimate advice about feelings since there’s a chemical imbalance in my brain, but I’ll listen.
I don't know...right now he knows me as his friend and thats it...I think. And hes currently in a relationship, even though she isn't around very often and hes obviously hurting. I just.... all i want to do is make it better.... for me its more than just a friendship.... But for him we're just best friends.... I... I don't think he feels the same way but I almost wish he did. But if he doesn't i don't want to force anything on him because I care about him. I just don't want him to hurt anymore...