these bitches wont even pay rent!

too many guys up in here. what the hell. and why are there so many horsegirls

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

hiiii better and more concise and less dread-filled intro post (written by 🍈) (the host) (this was the previous one. my (🍡) ass was NOT having a good time)

maybe i'll edit this later to be Nicer-Looking. but dont hold out hope for that bc thats tiring

- we dont have a name for our system (not rn at least) i just call them names like "the peanut gallery" because its funny

- syscourse stance for anyone who cares: DO WHATEVER YOU WANT it doesnt affect me! be endo be willo be whatever! the worst crime you can commit in syscourse is being mean and i am NOT going to jail today

- uh what else

- oh right. call me whatever you want i dont care, and any pronouns are fine really, pronouns differ between headmates but they/them is a safe bet

- ok cool QUICK LIST OF US REALLY NOT SUBSTANTIAL WHATEVER here's a link to the better list which i'll totally forget

- 🍈 [name redacted] 〜 host, funnyguy

- 🪻 rika 〜 cohost (maybe?), Thing-Doer (fictive of Rika Furude)

- 🍡 mimi 〜 little (what else do i put here) (fictive)

- 🌾 Kazuaki 〜 professional sleepyguy. the yawnerrr (introject of Kazuaki Nanaki)

- 🎐 [no name yet] 〜 he's just here. very polite and well-behaved little guy (fictive)

- 💫 siffrin 〜 also just here (siffrin isat fictive)

im sure there are more of us but they dont often post i think so im not adding them. also yeah yeah lot of fictves i know

OH RIGHT I FORGOT yeah this is a sideblog not our main. if you want our main you can ask im just makin it hard to find so my friends wont know

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

LET ME OUT OF THE TORMENT NEXUSSSSSS

[changelingcoded]

[chimeramode]

there seems to be just a huge niche of people online that really need/would greatly benefit from the framework of plurality but are afraid to claim it. which i understand because me too i doubt it for myself a lot. but i think there are a lot of us who don't really meet the criteria for DID or OSDD yet would still benefit from viewing ourselves as actually multiple selves. and perhaps a substantial number of us will later find out they meet the criteria for a diagnosis about it but i think we need to be less caught up on "do i meet this criteria" and instead focus on "what will be helpful to me". which may include resources for people with DID/OSDD, or may not.

[somethingsystem]

hindsight is so funny like yeah hi my name is john singlet you can tell im john singlet because i have no sense of identity, no consistent gender pronouns or name, no consistent interests tastes or artstyle, am constantly forgetting things or dropping activities after getting "bored" midway through, randomly remember traumatic memories and then forget them again, sometimes feel symptoms of certain disorders much more or less, and regularly hold full conversations with fictional characters mentally. sometimes i think "man itd make so much sense if i was a system" which is very bad to think and just cannot ever be true because i don't notice hard walls of amnesia where i abruptly cannot remember anything and i don't ever find myself in the middle of nowhere with no recollection of how i got there. im sure if i just keep trying to construct a solid personality one day it won't sometimes feel completely suffocating 👍

[windywindow]

polyfrag too

hi system post expect more

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

my parents have been doing this bullshit where i cant have any screens in my room at night not wven a phone, and its been a problem for us because we need a phone to remember stuff or we'll forget because System, and for some reason the family therapist agrees i dont really need to have a phone in my room

i cant use a notepad or whatever because i have too much to write down and writing gets tiring for us quickly and typing is much more sustainable. and also this rule (which has been happening for 9 months so far) has made us split i wanna say 15 new alters so far. not fragments, full Guys. this is perhaps not a very good and helpful rule

the rule was actually originally implemented to help w my sleep schedule (which was bad because some of us didnt want to exist or front around our parents or when they were awake at all) and it just made it worse (because the issue is that the "family bullshit"-handling parts are different than the "life stuff"-handling parts and the few "actually maybe good stuff"-handling parts that we have, so now the guys they wanted to see more of are super unwilling to front)

also the therapist doesnt seem to quite understabd any of our system stuff. she said like "i wanna get to the [alter/part] that's so against these rules" like honey no. thats all of us. you're pushing away the parts that you want to see more of. by treating us like a child, those of us who are more competent than that will eventually get fed up and hide away. ugh

edit: brooooo what the hell they just decided w/ no warning that i had to leave the house to pay off screen time now

edit 2: and now they decided that i have to be done paying off screen time debt before 8pm??? because they didnt like that i stayed at my friends house for like 24 hours straight

i should make a timeline of these bullshit changes

[plurapony]

what if we just started treating fakeclaimers like creepy old men. how about that.

like helloooo why are you trying to figure out if bad things happened to me as a child??? why do you want to know about the results of how my childhood affected me???? ummmm that's kinda weird ngl.

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

2 new brain guys added to the cast. still not sure what the gender of one of em is

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

+1

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

+1

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

+1

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

my system situation is like. if i/we were one stained glass art piece but each piece of glass is another stained glass art piece

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

headmates that are defined just enough for me to think i can count them but not defined enough for me to be correct 😔

[battle-for-dyke-island]

being a polyfragmented system is basically just being someone’s fucked up tomodachi life save. except you can have as many “miis” (members) as you want . and you can be gay

[polyfrag-culture-is]

polyfrag culture is trying for years to keep everyone documented so you can have an exact count because the idea of forgetting something so important causes meltdowns.

then, you discover a few places you were not privy to, but that have running headcounts, with an extra population of unknown headmates and fragments that is comparatively small in theory. okay, add the running headcounts, it's okay we don't know them, just keep A Number, and we can mentally handwave that small population and they'll all turn up eventually, surely.

... then discovering a new place (the structure of itself being its own headmate, so everyone inside the structure is living inside a headmate, but that's a whole other story) that's been growing in population since some indeterminate time in preschool, and is still gaining new people. there could be hundreds down there. there is no headcount, the headcount is functionally infinite because of the circumstances.

and, at last, sighing and going "fuck it, you only get added if you have a minimum of two of the following: a distinct name, a distinct form, a distinct voice, and/or a distinct desire to engage in our internal communities necessitating notation for others' reference."

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[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

current consensus: probably have osdd-1[]. because it aint 1a or 1b but whatever it is it sure is 1

well. i also havent done enough research on how polyfrag did is like. so it may be that or something like that. its really all wobbly in my head, not a lot of stuff makes much sense. blehhh

can osdd be polyfrag? because i have. a very large quantity of fragments. and also probably osdd. so like. idk

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

i wish system tracking things worked for us. maybe with a whiteboard and unfaltering dedication i can figure out just What The Hell Is Going On Here

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

my parents took away my switch like a week ago for bullshit reasons, now i can't add us to tomodachi life :(

worse bc there are like 4 new guys to add so like wtf do i do about that

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

im still switchless this is hell. also theres like 6 new guys or more actually

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

more fellas have occurred and yet i remain switchless

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

2 new brain guys added to the cast. still not sure what the gender of one of em is

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

+1

[20clownsinatrenchcoat]

+1