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Finished Way of Kings and like. Are we just expected to forget about the chapter where Shallan's brother is killing crabs? Sanderson really went "actually yeah he has serial killer tendencies but we're just gonna move on from that" and then didn't bring it up for the rest of the book? Really hoping I see more about that plot in the rest of the series, but yeah, I honestly had to do a double take when I read that part.

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Just added Greek as a language on my iPad for the only purpose of putting the deltas in the title of my project hail mary Pinterest board

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I was wondering why Project Hail Mary was making me feel so many things, then I realized that it was because Grace is so clearly aroace. As an aroace person, I've just never seen representation like that before, and I loved it. His relationship with Rocky is pretty much what I want with someone that I care about, the same why I assume others want marrige. It just made me think that maybe one day I'll have a happy ending without a romantic relationship.

Edit: I've actually thought about this a lot more and decided that the reason it's making me feel So Much isn't just the representation, it's how accurate it is. Like, Grace's life is seen as less valuable because he doesn't have typical relationships. Stratt thinks that he'd be perfectly willing to go on a sucide mission because, like she said, he doesn't even have a dog. But that's not the point, because he has love in his life, for his job and his students and the whole world. But that doesn't matter in the face of a marrige-less life. And he does get his happy ending. He finds a friend that he loves more than anything, and he lives on a planet where he's taken care of and gets to keep doing what he loves. But at what cost? He might never get to see another human again. He might never get a hug again, or eat real food again. To me it represents the fact that like him, we might get a happy ending one day, but it will never be seen as fulfilling by so many people. I might get to be happy, but there will always be a cost.

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I watched the Good Omens finale and then went to see Project Hail Mary like two days later and let me tell you. That was Not a good idea.

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They ended. In THEIR garden. I'm gonna cry

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I honestly can't decide if that was good or bad.

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It's such a surreal experience working on Hadestown, especially when you're on crew, because every single night during rehearsal and show nights you hear Hermes say "we're going to sing it again" and then you come back the next day and hear them sing it again. And every single run through, part of you wants to believe that it will turn out this time.

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Not sure if it's been said before, but Heathens by 21 pilots is the most wylan core song ever.

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A friend of mine recently told me that she could never tell if I was faking anger, or actually angry. As I began to explain to her the differences of the two, how my voice got more dramatic when faking and only changed slightly when not, I had three realizations.

I was feeling something vaguely uncomfortable, but not entirely unpleasant.

That feeling was trust.

The conversation I was having in that moment was the meaning of trust. Being able to look someone in the eye and say, " I will willingly tell you myself. This is what this means. When I do this, I mean this," is trust. It is saying I will give you everything that makes me me. I will give you my mannerisms, my tells, my very heart and soul. It is putting the knife in their hand and trusting them to not drive it into your heart.

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Love how the metaphor for Hardison and Parker's relationship is pretzels, something that famously has three holes. Almost like. Their relationship. Is built on threes. Almost like it. Needs three.

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Mother Dear

I always thought that if my mother and I met in a different world, I would hate her

Because we are so very different from each other.

My mother laughs too easily and cries at commercials, and she’s guilable and soft 

And so proud of all of it all

She would never pretend to be someone else.

I, on the other hand, don’t laugh very often

At least not genuinely

I’m cold and I have a different personality for every person I know

I am, at root, a liar

I am not easy to love, but my mother loves me so much.

But the more I think about it, the more I think I wouldn’t hate her

Instead, I would simply be indifferent.

In another life, we would pass each other in the grocery store

Her dragging a different daughter behind her

My hand in a different mother’s

There would be no recognition

No pull of fate to get us to stop

No desire in either of our hearts to talk to each other

We would simply pass by, our faces never even registering.

And if by some small chance, we did talk

We would both leave the encounter having no real impression of each other

I would think she was a bit ditzy

And she would think I was a bit pretentious

We would leave, and we would forget in 

A week, a day, an hour, a minute

We would not even register.

And I think that indifference is worse than hate

Because what do you mean that the most impactful person in my life

Would have no impact on me at all in a different universe?

My mother

The person who spent hours in pain to give me a life worth living

Who has sacrificed everything for me

would just be another face in the crowd.

She always said that if me or my brothers had never been born

She would feel like something was missing from her

And I always laugh at that.

Because by marrying my father, she didn’t marry someone else

By having me, she forsook a different daughter

For each of my brothers, there are thousands of unborn versions of them

But instead, it is them who were born

Instead, it is me

And nothing is missing from her now.

She could even have passed one of those faces

and would have felt nothing but indifference

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I just found out about a feature on apple devices wear it'll let you play different relaxing sounds on top of other audios, and I put on a random playlist on top of rain noises. The live version of champagne super nova (acoustic) came on, and at the end the applause of the audience blended in perfectly to the rain. It might have been the most peaceful moment of my life.

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So a while back I saw a post somewhere about a Disney princess who couldn't sing at all, and the later is the movie we find out she has insane rapping skills, but what if. WHAT IF. What if she had a girlfriend who can sing supper well and in the final battle they do a sick rap/song duet and the music also ties in to that world's magic system so you get these cool bolts of energy that ebb and flow with the song. Like. Is a lesbian rapper disney princess too much to ask?

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Hey can someone remind me who Maeve is? I've been seeing a lot of 911 posts about her but I completely forgot who she is. Is it just a different spelling of May?

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Can they please tell us how chimney got his nickname in season 9? Pretty please? Pretty please with a cherry on top?

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Sometimes knowing spoilers for shows is more fun cause u get to spend the show being like how the fuck does that even end up happening ..

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if the new Ted lasso season doesn't have an episode were two of the women on the team are getting married after a super important game (that they win obviously) and of course all of the other teammates are the bridesmaids so they're all in the locker room changing into dresses and styling each other's hair and Ted's running the whole thing like a military operation and then it's revealed that Roy actually has insane hair styling skills (from Phoebe of course) so the team is lined up to have theirs done by him and at the end they use the team bus to get to venue and they're this close to being late but they get there in the nick of time and end up having the best wedding in the history of weddings. Then what's even the point.