How do you find emotional fulfillment? I’m surrounded by people who never understand the way I feel, either because they have a superficial perception of emotions or don’t have any strong emotional connection at all...
You must seek it within your own self first otherwise it’s just no good at all. I completely understand your need to communicate your heart and find fullfilment in the sharing but:
a) true emotional fullfilment is found in the source itself, the source of your own mind and heart, and sometimes this alone is enough and it should feel more than enough. sometimes sharing is just not possible because there’s no right “audience” for that particular kind of depth and raw communication or when you, yourself aren’t ready, for this or that reason, to share what your heart is about with people you love and trust .
b) trust and love are all a prerequisite for understanding, the sort of understanding that doesn’t magically vanish the next day or when situations and circumstances change.
c) when “people” aren’t people who naturally bring the sharing out of you and are worthy of your soul’s monologue then they are simply not the right people. you cannot insist on wanting to share something, even if that very something is incredibly valuable to you, in case there’s no people around who plainly speak to your heart and you feel them to be your “equals” emotional language wise. it’s just doomed to remain empty wishful thinking on your part tbh. i think you must go slow with this and not focus on the absence of others’ “depth”, but try to remain quietly in the truth of your own feelings. and shelter that truth. and get rid of some of your need to indulge in external criticism. and proceed into thinking of the “sharing” process in more personal and valid terms.
