Fighting For Recovery

They/them TW: 4na & $h vent blog Block don’t report 🙏 In recovery but need a place to vent Old acc: stuckwithana

[4n4ismyen3my]

Pro-Recovery!!

Hi!! This is my 4n4 and sh vent blog!!! Block don’t report!!

They/them

Previously: stuckwithana

I’m not trying to encourage anyone or push them into an ED, I just need a place to vent without worrying my friends. The last thing I would want is encouraging someone into this terrible illness that takes your life away. I’ve been stuck with this disease for five years of my life and had issues with it for longer. I am very very pro recovery!!!!

My last account got taken down and I wasn’t gonna make another but I needed it to be out of me. Please please please block don’t report 🙏

Take care of yourself, hydrate and eat. You deserve it <3

[4n4ismyen3my]

I know I can’t end it and there are people who do love me and need me but god it feels impossible to feel like I should even exist when it feels like I can’t do anything right and something as simple and little as this makes me spiral and lose my fucking shit

[4n4ismyen3my]

Coming back to Nessa Barrett’s music like a drug that’s meant to kill me but heals me too

[petit-secret555]

my ed has lowkey fucked me up cause i don’t even know what my body actually looks like

[4n4ismyen3my]

I wish there was more I could do to help her but I just am not equipped and I don’t know what’s the right move to make when it comes to bpd

[wildnickk]

[angelslovess]

[4n4ismyen3my]

Yearning for something more toxic as if we aren’t already borderline toxic

[4n4ismyen3my]

I’m so upset and I’m being basically scolded and I know it’s supposed to be helpful and being reasoned with and being real but I just feel so angry because if I try to do the same thing in the same situation everything would blow up in my face and I can’t be honest because it would just make things worse

[kosmogrl]

[4n4ismyen3my]

Wtv I’ll just sit up while you caress my sleeping girlfriend’s face OVER MY BODY putting me in an uncomfortable upright position so I have to move away from her so you can keep touching her. No whatever it’s fine. I don’t care. Yeah go ahead.

[4n4ismyen3my]

I’m so stupidly jealous all the fucking time and it’s so frustrating because I know there’s nothing going on between them and I know they’re close friends and that’s all it is but I just feel so fucking guilty for being so jealous and annoyed at it

[eitherwayilose]

Eating makes me feel awful,not eating makes me feel awful

I can never win

[4n4ismyen3my]

Disgusted with myself because of how much calmer and clearer my head is after I cvt and it’s so stupid because is ⭐️ing myself even worth it if im just gonna be covered in ugly scars when I wear a bikini

[4n4ismyen3my]

Letting myself roast in this hot black interior car sitting in the sun because I fucking deserve it

[4n4ismyen3my]

I’m so frustrated because I can’t do anything right and nothing is right and I’m a terrible person for being frustrated with people for things they can’t really control. Good for you that you didn’t have to lie to survive growing up but now you get me in trouble just shut your fucking mouth that’s why I didn’t wanna tell you that stuff in the first place because now you made me look bad where is your fucking common sense. I’m so selfish and self centered but I’m so sick of everything and I just want to be alone and never see anyone again because then there’s no one to bother just myself to blame for everything because that’s already what it’s like anyway I just want everyone to leave me alone I’m selfish and conceited.

[4n4ismyen3my]

Personally I think if everyone around me is allowed to self destruct then I’m gonna too