laika - she/her

fan of primarily watcher, half man, & phm ✷ she/her ✷ rpfer

[kreechurthecrazykat]

Im probably aroace but im being sent into space to die alone so idrc about that rn

[assaultmystic-archive]

the self is a guy you made up to get mad at

[maxxie-or-smth]

every 5 minutes i go wow i NEED to kill myself and then i ignore it because i have things to do

[carrymelikeimcute]

Taking someone's cigarette out of their mouth: Multiple meanings - used a lot in media to convey control, power play, very masculine, I'm your boss and this is mine now, get over it. Mildly flirty, look at me, all in your space and shit, seductive. You're not allowed to smoke, because I say so.

Putting the cigarette back in their mouth afterwards: Ground-breaking. Would be less erotic to just fuck honestly. Who does this?

[productofaritual]

Love character relationships that can only be described as "whatever the fuck these two have going on"

[4ulaika]

the soap dispenser in the bathrroom wasn’t working and in frustration i uttered ‘bitch :(‘ and a beautiful angel girl came out of nowhere said ‘ugh ikr’ and ripped the dispenser off the wall to pour the last vestiges of soap into my hands. i felt like a disciple waiting for jesus to pour wine into my cupped hands. a religious experience…

[rocktheholygrail]

[noknowshame]

resurrected dead wife watching her own montage: wow I looked so hot in that

[velvetys]

Everything used to be 20 dollars and now that I finally have 20 dollars everything is now 200 dollars

[girlbossvicvega]

s5 lamb and river dynamic gives me much to think about. I don’t think lamb pities river or is particularly self-introspective, but I do have to think s4 threw him for a loop subconsciously or more than he lets on. imagine being in his shoes for a second like okay I have been trying to get my delusional shithead employee to leave for forever, I never wanted him to join my workplace, I wish he would just fuck off. he’s an annoying nepo baby who I only still have to deal with because of his grandfather, and I hate his fucking grandfather. what’s that. oh you said if my stupid employee didn’t end up in this job where he works for me he would’ve been raised a child soldier in a death cult led by his father. oh and now im hearing his grandfather went against the best interests of the service, the only time I have ever heard of his grandfather doing something like this, and it was to buy him and his mother from his father. but his mother didn’t want him or might’ve brought him back to his cult leader father she was groomed by so his grandfather got him instead. that’s why his grandfather could fill his head with all that bullshit about what we do. my stupid idiot employee i’ve hated for being a nepo baby was essentially groomed into this life I willingly entered and grew to despise. okay. cool. and now his grandfather, this man who controlled me and made me do awful things I regret is losing his mind so I’ll never be able to get any kind of resolution from him. and I can’t even hurt him anymore even though I have the upper hand now because he won’t even fucking understand it anyway. however, i must not forget the most important thing here: my stupid idiot employee still fucking sucks at his job. a paint pot you say

[7dmom]

I can't wait to be redeemed

[4ulaika]

suddenly stops in the middle of a brwakdown)) is this…. an intrusive thought…? (a sunlit meadow materializes around me) am i not a bad person…? hahh aha! but. freezeframe. what if it’s not an intrusive thought 😀

[4ulaika]

i think it’s a probelem that the only thing that really brings me joy is to pretend to buy tjjngs. like at some point it was dopamine from blorbos keeping me going but it’s been waning for a while and the only thing i’m supplementing it with is purchases which is really bad for me. like it’s not even summer (ren faire) yet and i promised myself i would save up and not spend for a while up till then. and like people are dying kim this is objectively evil.

[4ulaika]

listen. did i “thrift” a shirt for 60 dollars pause. pause pause pause after promising myself i wouldn’t make another purchase for the next few weeks . listennnn and did i buy other things too maybe waittttt wait wwit. do o not have a jobb & spend other ppls money haaahhh (suddenly somber) i am a disgusting thing

[vendetta06]

the sluttiest thing a man could do is be covered in blood and grip his wounded side in agony

[4ulaika]

i’m lying in a patch of sunlight i dont wannaaa go to school i dont wannaaaaa

[kiefbowl]

the most important virtues for the young woman are as follows: time theft, selfishness, orgasms, irreverence to authority, sacrilegious behavior, a questioning mind, and eating regular meals.