It's a hard knock life™

Susan|Seattle|FHS twitter: @SUSVNN instagram: @5usan ✌

[throwyadiamonds]

[5usan]

Theres really no point updating this anymore..... lol. i only log on once in while to look back at things. then, maybe a post here and there.

just been keepin my thoughts to myself.

[5usan]

I hate how im your fallback friend.. you go days. weeks. sometimes months without talking to me and when you do, you act like its all good. act like nothing changed. expect me to be nice and shit to you. like no nigga thats not okay. i know were like really good friends (or used to be), however that doesnt mean you can pull that fucked up shit on me. i hate how when we talk its not even for long, so its like, the fuck is the point of even ME hitting YOU up? fuck that. when were together in person its fucking awkward cus i dont know what the fuck to say to you anymore. or i dont even care to hold a converstion with. whats the point?!?!?!?!?!?!?? you changed and for a certain reason that i saw coming. it happens to everyone when theyre in a damn relationship. i was praying YOU wouldnt be one of those people though. maybe thats why i dont pray; its a bunch of bullshit to give you false hope.

i miss you a lot, real talk. it doesnt matter though because this friendship is almost nonexistent. 

[5usan]

Even though we've been over for a long time, I still find you attractive is fuck lol

[gifsmovieseries]

[nathanqgue]

This movie is insane!

[5usan]

Gross movie... But really good.

[lord-yeezus-blog]

sweet baby Yeezus, Amen

[5usan]

Fuck the dress code! Can't wear shorts or whatever, and these next few days are gonna be scorchingly hot!!

[5usan]

People say I drink a lot or too much. And in reality, I really don't.

[belizean-fashionista]

Happy Birthday to the King of Pop

[amareli]

[sylph215-deactivated20181118]

[sieair]

[ohhfucktheresclowns]

[5usan]

*took this from mark*. My nephew seriously has more and better shoes than me lol. (Taken with Instagram)

[5usan]

I could handle it... I'm sure.. At first we saw eye-to-eye with this, now honestly I think my perspective has altered a bit..

[5usan]

When sophomore year comes I swear I will be on top of my shit from there on out. Shit only gets real from here on out. Last year I did satisfactory tasks, however I admit i did slack and didn't attempt to push myself(not doing honors, doing mediocre work, not reading lol, etc). I was a lazy, careless fuck. I contemplated a lot this summer about who I want to be and where I want to get in life. I really desire a good future, and trying to make the best out of whatever education I get. I want to go to college; I don't want flip burgers nor have a career that pays good but I dont enjoy. And I can only get somewhere if I make the steps to and push myself. I'm a bit undecided about what job I would like to pursue... But I'll figure it out.

[5usan]

Always gotta tell myself to calm down whenever I get aggravated with my mom. I know she loves me.