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im back

since im on a journaling kick and building all these daily habits why not.

for context, he’s really home. he came back jan 1st, 2019. everytime i thought maybe we would get better, we were getting better, i would uncover his multitude of a mistake. but we are here, we made it out.

he worked today, i did chores and hung out with my girls. i came home to watching an anime together, lots of cuddling, and kisses. so many kisses. on my lips, on my back, on my neck, on my ear. sometimes i just want to drown in his arms and his lips.

#190811

Oct 6

I don’t think I knew what I was waiting for. But you’re becoming a man before my eyes. We don’t have any serious fights anymore, we’re still volitile but we figure it out. You are my biggest support and I am yours. Waking up to you is such a blessing.

#181006 #1:02pm

he’s home

#180901 #11:23pm

remnant-thoughts

I find a home in a home that is not mine.

“Is it bad if I said it’s even more of a home than what I’ve ever known to call a home?” remnant-thoughts

Time will tell love.

#170530 #1:42am

Reflection: Cancun

I fell in love with Cancun. The beach. The smell. The energy in the air. The palm trees. The life. What a memory. It's bittersweet because I will lose him when we come home. How ironic. I will lose my home all over again when I go home. But we needed this. We have both grown so much over this past month, I can't even imagine what's in store. And if what we had is only a taste of what is in my future, then I am excited.

#170525 #1:23am

Day 593

I give up my control God. I love you. More than you will ever know. I'll constantly be praying about you.

#170422 #3:35am

Day 592

I like to make messes sometimes and sometimes you like to make a mess with me. But we always clean up together. I love you.

#170421 #3:30am

Day 591

Why is it that I still feel so uneasy?

I love you.

#170420 #1:06am

Day 590