What Is The Maddest Thing A Man Can Do?

Let himself die.

[79shenanigans]

Today is such a hard day. You should be celebrating a birthday. You should be 40. You aren't here and the you shaped hole left in my heart aches. I miss you. I mourn you. I wish you were here. #teamRAD

[empty-and-lonely]

[justletmedieimready]

[justletmedieimready]

[79shenanigans]

How do I know I'm not doing well again.

I'm on Tumblr because I can't talk to anyone else about the darkness in my head.

[thoughtkick]

“I don’t think there’s anything sadder than when two people are meant to be together and something intervenes.”

—

Walter Bishop

(via quotefeeling)

[gupylo]

Yes.

[79shenanigans]

#TeamRAD always wondering what could have been.

[just-a-lost-soul-in-wonderland]

[79shenanigans]

[79shenanigans]

#LifeAtYourOwnSpeed #ItsNeverTooLate #ThingsIRemindMyselfConstantly

[79shenanigans]

[79shenanigans]

It has been a real long hard..... Life. Yeah I'm going with life.

[79shenanigans]

That, but also being surrounded by people and feeling utterly alone. I've not been able to get outside of my own head lately. I feel that I'm seeing things clearer and that I am truly alone. Involved with someone that doesn't really love me and who is in love with someone else. Children all growing up and moving away. Relocated to a city where I don't know anyone and still can't get out to meet anyone. I. Am. All. Alone.

[thegoodvybe]

[79shenanigans]

I need to figure out how to remedy this.

[79shenanigans]

[79shenanigans]

Maybe moving was a good idea. I do see progress. Not as much as I'd have liked by now, but I still see it.

[79shenanigans]

Made some important realizations yesterday. Going to start making some changes. Hoping for a brighter tomorrow.

[79shenanigans]

I never knew how bad losing someone you loved with your whole being would hurt until I saw you today and you went out of your way to not speak to me or even make eye contact. You are slowly killing me.