Jump, fly, Let your feet leave the ground

Multi fandom blog, Mainly Take That when they are active, but also Sherlock, Doctor Who, Horses and what ever else flotes my boat

[a-carnival-inside-my-head]

Mental health ramblings incoming, will put it under a read more for people who might struggle

I am feeling so shit right now, I am really really struggling, I have been having anxiety attacks most days, every email ping, every phone call, every time my manager has a meeting that I don't know what it is about I think I'm going to get fired, we are going to get taken to court.

I feel so low, I don't know where I want to be, I don't feel happy anywhere, I just feel lost.

Things have got so bad that I have started self harming again, after 9 years, but even that feels harder as I then feel like I have to hide it from my fiance, and that makes me feel worse.

I felt so bad at work the other day I went for a walk at lunch sat down in the woods and started self harming and lost track of time as I couldn't face going back, I gave everyone a scare when I was over an hour late back especially my boss as I had told him about wanting to self harm, they ended up sending out a search party.

I am having therapy, but it is hard work, it was really hard to hear that you are in the very severe range for both depression and anxiety and that you need extra help as you are a risk.

Not really sure where I am going with this but feel like I need to get it out!

I am toying with the idea of being put on the waiting list for an autism diagnosis, some people say that now I am out of education what's that point and what is it going to achieve, but in my head I feel like it might help me understand why I struggled so much as school and why I still struggle now with

[autiebiographical]

I wish anxiety didn't share symptoms with other, much more dangerous afflictions. It always stresses me out and makes me even more anxious.

[becherdireinen]

it’s so exhausting acting like you are okay all day just to come home and be miserable all night. and knowing you have to do it all again tomorrow.

[autiebiographical]

I hate how random panic attacks can be. Day going fine? Panic attack! Nice and relaxed? Panic attack! Trying to sleep? Panic attack!

[autiebiographical]

Depression is more than just being sad. Anxiety is more than just being worried. They're complex, and affect every part of a person's life.

[becherdireinen]

sorry i never responded to your text, i've been busy being paralyzed by my own inability to do basic tasks that are piling up.

[becherdireinen]

nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between "things will get better" and "i can't handle this anymore." it's like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day.

[cow-inthe-closet]

i think one of the worst parts of having an anxiety disorder is you can know your anxiety is fundamentally unreasonable and does not make any sense. but it doesn't help

[deepinthelight]

Take That performing on the Coronation Concert

[deepinthelight]

Everybody wants to know, what should we do, then?

[mcufam]

DAREDEVIL (1.13) | “DAREDEVIL”

[alphonseelriic]

Wait a minute. I remember you. I remember telling you that I was building my pool where your house was, and then you got mad at me. Oh! And you turned me into a llama!

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HAWKEYE 1.02 • Hide and Seek

[heartcansing]

Can we just like expand the Land of Dreams era indefinitely? Tbh I’d prefer it to more TT3.

[heartcansing]

[pulledacross]

“No need to ask who you are. The famous Martha Jones.“

[dwgif]

Every cube is behaving individually. There’s no meaningful pattern.

DOCTOR WHO (2005-) “The Power of Three” (7.04)