A.KANE

Just another sad boi

[a-kane88]

Keep dreaming for better days

[a-kane88]

Sometimes I just come up with random things, I’m not even sure what this was.

[a-kane88]

Everyday I have to remind myself, there’s still alot that I need to do.

[extramadness]

[extramadness]

[a-kane88]

Ouch this one kinda stung

[a-kane88]

The little bit of magic she had quickly faded, her spell barely affecting me. I walk away as usual and think to myself.

There’s only one person whose magic still lingers and no one has been able to lift it from my soul.

I may not be able to lift it but maybe someday someone will cast a greater spell and finally set me free from your chains.

Until then I’ll continue to be amazed and disappointed.

[a-kane88]

I like sad things cause I am also sad

[a-kane88]

Warui Yume

I had a dream, yes a dream about you again. I can’t call it a nightmare because for a brief moment I was happy, then the dream ended.

[a-kane88]

Lying

I wish I was better at this, but I’m not. Why am I unable to move on from you? I’m lying next to another girl tonight but the thought of you continues to haunt me. The thoughts in my head questioning myself: “what if we never ended, I wouldn’t feel this way”. I came to the realization I’ve been doing this to myself and I know how to stop it.

But I don’t. I don’t want to. So I won’t.

[remanence-of-love]

[a-kane88]

Restart

After 5 long years, 5 grueling years of anguish and monotonous trials it’s finally here. My chance to start over from scratch, to bring back the me that I lost long ago.

I’m been picking up the shattered pieces for so long that during the journey I started becoming even more warped. Finally I’ve reassembled the image and the puzzle is now complete. I can finally move forward with my life and soon I will discard this current life and restart my old self.

I’m glad I persevered and endured everything, I’m not truly happy but I know this is the first few steps to getting it back. I can run free again, to pursue my starry eyed dreams.

[a-kane88]

I want to be sober from drugs, but intoxicated by you.

I want to stop thinking about you, so I drown myself in drugs.

[a-kane88]

Sunflower

A simple hello,

She embodied the color yellow.

I loved her like no other,

More than my own mother.

She meant everything to me,

Until she decided to flee.

I loved her so I let go,

My world turned white like snow.

She deserved someone more,

Because at times I was a whore.

I broke her and dragged her down,

I'm the reason she drowned.

But now she's free to fly,

A sunflower flowing in the sky.

[a-kane88]

Me in a nutshell

[a-kane88]

I need to reinstall.

I'm thinking about going full on sober and focusing on myself. The vices are fun but I need to be more disciplined and determined.

I'm gonna be more productive with my weekends, I'm going to do shows sober, I'm going to reorganize my thoughts. I want to read and be productive, I want to learn, I want to continue progressing myself.

I love the chaos, but I also love control.

I don't live in the black or the white, I live in the grey.

[a-kane88]

Black lotus

Two people in different lives,

A simple event waiting to arrive.

The chronological time line

While you were temporarily mine.

This is the black lotus of the past,

Something that wasn't meant to last.

I chose to escape her cage,

Just so I could enter a new stage.

When I was set free,

I was able to find me.

A tragic event that was required

A relationship that was retired.

In the end,

We were two people in different lives,

A simple event that was meant to arrive.

[a-kane88]

Unrequited

A few years ago she wasn't that pretty to me, I actually though she was unattractive. Perspective is truly a frightening thing. One moment was all it took to throw me off and see her in a different light. In many ways we were so similar yet still different, we were both superficial but with different viewpoints. What caught my eye wasn't her looks, no. It was the change in her, how much she grew and matured into a beautiful woman. It scares me, even til today because I feel like I'm diving deeper into her ocean, and soon I won't be able to escape and drown in her entirety. I've thrown my pride and asked around for advice, they all told me to take the leap and drown. But I'm a coward and I think I'll be fine letting this one be truly unrequited. edit* Glad I let it die, that would have been a train wreck waiting to happen.