the punchline is im gay

brittany + she/they + 25 ————————————————— hi hi i'm brit, i'm gay and i like girls and i wanted a blog to highlight the fact that i'm gay and like girls. this is a pseudo-personal blog so it's kind of going to suit my interests but my interests are girls so. ps trans women are women and i do not tolerate transmisogynists. ————————————————— about + inbox

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also hi it's been forever but i'm doing really good overall. all those shitty friendships and groups i was in have been thrown The Fuck out and im just immeasurably happy with all the people in my life currently :) also my anxiety disorder is way way way under control and even tho i have a confirmed autoimmune disease i'm just. a lot happier.

also sorry about all the men hating posts. i had some really insufferable men in my life at the time but i want to say i've grown a lot past the desire to blame manhood or maleness for why someone so sucks. men of all kinds have the capacity to be wonderful people, just as non-men have the capacity to suck forever, and the last few years has taught me that in spades.

i'm still gay and occasionally too shy to post about it on main but we out here. also i'm 28 now. wtf.

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top surgery scars on lesbians……🤤🤤🤤🥵🥵🥵🥵🤤🤤🤤🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

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there is exactly one girl on the planet who i am 99.7% over a long term crush on, who is PROBABLY never going to like me back, who if she so decided to reach out at literally any moment, including 80 years from now, i would totally drop everything to be her girlfriend

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look i know words are fake and everything is stupid hard when we’re lgbt/q/etc but i am begging u to please look at every time in history cishets & non-lesbians and even well-meaning lesbians fell for the whole shtick where lesbians can TECHNICALLY be attracted to and want relationships w men. pls consider how many times this has already happened and stop making me listen to the latest rebranding of it sometimes feet need to be put down ok im not gonna sit here n start describing myself as a gay lesbian or w/e when we HAVE A WORD that conveys EXACTLY WHAT ITS SUPPOSED TO and u ppl are trying to muddle and fuzz it up, AGAIN,

and just remember if ur a transphobe ur an idiot and missing the point bye

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(disclaimer transphobes can jump in a lake!)

somebody: i’m a b1 l3sbian bc im mostly attracted to women/nb but also men a lil

lesbians: thats bi with a preference??

somebody: im a b1 l3sbian bc im attracted to men but only interested in pursuing romantic/sexual relationships w women/nb

lesbians: thats a lesbian

weirdos: stop oppressing lesbians who are attracted to men??

lesbians: thats LITERALLY NOT WHAT A LESBIAN IS THOUGH

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(pre disclaimer transmisogynists get the fuck off my nonbinary content)

non-lesbians (and, circumstantially, also lesbians) have this really bad habit of completely undermining lesbianism by trying to make the word ‘lesbian’ mean things it just fucking doesnt and it’s so? goddamn exhausting dude. like i am sick to death of having to find out over and over again that ppl i care about are just gonna keep falling for the latest “actually, lesbians can be attracted to men a little, as a treat” stunt??

i don’t even want to fight about it anymore i’m just so goddamn exhausted. lesbophobes and general shitlords are just gonna keep making shit up and eventually even the good intentioned ppl are gonna fall for it and that’s just life i guess! it’s not like we can have just one goddamn word for ourselves that specifically and intentionally excludes men in no uncertain terms! and again if you’re a transmisogynist reading this get the fuck off my post

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i was ALMOST willing to let lgbt+ men have opinions about lesbians as a pass but then some shit went sideways and i’m just! fuckin sad lmfao

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i give up i’m just gonna depression sleep today away im not feeling it

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i was ALMOST willing to let lgbt+ men have opinions about lesbians as a pass but then some shit went sideways and i’m just! fuckin sad lmfao

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the stress of realizing friends of the person u used to love w all ur heart before she made it abundantly clear that her disagreement in your very personhood’s belonging was in fact the same exact part of her heart that vehemently hated a part of you is still following u is a Lot

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WHOLE lot of emotional whiplashing the last month or so. quit my rp guild and REALLY REALLY missed it and even made steps towards maybe coming back. ironically one of the officers i was trying to talk out some perimeters with (since we both REALLY grated on each other) kind of just. never replied, or was too anxious to or etc, but it gave me enough additional time to be all... fuck man i don’t wanna go back after all lmao my brain just missed the structure

but like, the more i think about it the more i just know it stresses me the hell out to be there. i still don’t think anything was really inherently bad? but it’s bad for me. i spend all my time feeling scared and defensive and honestly?? sometimes it feels like ppl assume the worst in you. i have crazy bad anxiety and rsd so i’m SURE that exacerbated it, but like, there were a frustrating number of occasions where i’d say something and someone would immediately twist it to its worst iteration. i dunno. ppl are really protective and on edge over there and i get why, it just. isn’t safe for me at all. i’m glad i got the extra time to get over the ‘rebound’ stage lmao

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things i did not expect i would need to do but in retrospect should have: mute old guild keywords bc seeing the posts makes me sad lmfao

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me: sure i have guy friends!

guy friends: all lgbt and have a strict older brother dynamic going on

me: :)

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on one hand i feel like i am setting myself up for trouble later if i don’t just cut my losses and quit this guild now, but, i ALSO feel like if i can just unstick myself from the gooey trap i have fallen into i can keep the good stuff that makes me happy and distance myself from the stuff that stresses me out

i think to do that though i will need to take a Big Actual Break from guild stuff, which!!! sucks because i was JUST feeling like things were gonna be okay. but they obviously are not and i CANNOT figure out what is causing it, how much of it is my fault and how much of it is something else—but!!! it kind of doesn’t matter bc the result is still the result and if i can’t find the Exact Cause then i just need to start trying shit until something works

so!!! probably!!! no more guild for me this year. that seems like the only thing i know for SURE is going to help. the rest??? can be figured out later

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anyway i took another stab at amara’s route and i don’t know what was wrong with me the first time bc she’s BIG AND COMPASSIONATE AND TRAGIC and i am just. a simple lesbian. i see a big compassionate tragic woman and i get down on one knee,

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things that are popular:

magpies

the alias ‘kur@i’

things that stress me the Fuck Out lately

:)

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SCREAMS

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also hello it’s loving altea bellerose hours

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LOOK AT HER

LOOK AT HER