A Moonchilds Heart

A wild heartbroken lover’s midnight thoughts.

[megairea]

“We might meet again, someday between dreams at dawn.”

— Shuntarō Tanikawa, from Catch You Later (tr. by William Elliott & Kazuo Kawamura)

[a-moonchilds-heart]

I spoke to your friend today praying that he’d mention it to you. He told me that you were doing good in college but you drink a bit to much and smoke more often. I wonder if it’s the stress of college or if you might actually miss me? lord knows I pray the cigarette pressed to my lips was your lips instead.

I’m a little heart hurt.

[kilg0]

“Days are passing but it’s all blurry to me. I don’t know if it’s 3am or 3pm. Whether it’s a Tuesday or a Thursday. It’s all passing, sometimes quickly and other times painfully slowly. No one has figured it out yet. How numb and empty I am. I wonder if they see me at all... or do they see me like how I see the days passing? Blurry.”

Me Tillie (Kilg0).

[s-unberry]

“I thought I was finally over you, And then you came back. I thought I finally had a chance with you, And then you left again.”

— You only come when you need me. (via meaningless–poetry)

[0nly-an-illusi0n]

“I am destroying myself so other people can’t,“ she said, ” and it’s the worst kind of control but it’s the only form I know.”

— S.Z (Poems of 2017)

[a-moonchilds-heart]

It’s finally time for me to give up, this life is not worth the pain, I’m so sorry to everyone that I couldn’t have been better. I am sorry that made everything terrible.

[a-moonchilds-heart]

This is not how I thought my flame would go out, alone and crying. I always hoped it would end beautiful and momentous, guess my life should end how it was; dissapointing and lonely.

[thoughtkick]

“I understood myself only after I destroyed myself. And only in the process of fixing myself did I know who I really was.”

— Unknown

[thebookquotes]

We could have been happy. I know that, and it is perhaps the hardest thing to know.

— Ally Condie, Matched

[poetsbloom]

It's so hard to keep living for a future some days i can't even see.

[bnmxfld]

“I used to build dreams about you.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald / Benediction

[thezeroquotes]

Words that come from the heart are never spoken, they get caught in the throat and can only be read in ones's eyes.

— José Saramago

[bnmxfld]

“I am too young and I’ve loved you too much.”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky / The Brothers Karamazov

[a-moonchilds-heart]

What is the fucking point in being alive, when all I do is think about killing myself...

[a-moonchilds-heart]

I never planned on making it this far, so when everyone asks what I’m going to do next, I don’t know.

I didn’t plan on making it past 18, now I’m in university and everyone around me has it figured out.

I was never meant to graduate high school and go to prom, now everyone is getting married and having kids.

I was going to kill myself when I was 16, now everyone is telling me to look for a internship.

How do you tell someone you don’t know what you are going to do, because you aren’t meant to be alive right now...

[a-moonchilds-heart]

I always thought it was poetic that I never said goodbye to you before you left this world.

But it’s been tearing me apart for 10 fucking years, this hollow feeling knowing that I’m never going to see you ever again.

[a-moonchilds-heart]

I broke my own heart along time ago before anyone else ever got the chance.