Lots of Stuff

highly impressive i made it this far

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there’s something gut-wrenching about the way I’ll never be good enough, not even for myself

[a-person-with-hobbies]

today, I was reminded with the fact that my issues do not lie within my having exams.

so, how am I to ever be free?

do I even know the meaning of it?

[a-person-with-hobbies]

I truly both mourn and long for the person I’d have been were I free

[a-person-with-hobbies]

the way I feel is very complicated

I know that everyone feels complicated

but I feel like a pending doom or a ticking bomb is hanging above my head in a way that I just don’t want to go on

so, when does this end

when will I stop being controlled by those with unreasonable authority over me

when do I get to be myself

I truly both mourn and long for the person I’d have been were I free

[unfiltereddddmess]

[a-person-with-hobbies]

I’ve always dreamt of having my own blog and freeing myself from the shackles that bind my wrists and ankles.

I have my own blog.

Shackles still bind my wrists and ankles.

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(am I performative by adding tags?)

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[a-person-with-hobbies]

work, work, work

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why is it so hard to love myself?

why is it so hard to accept myself?

when does this crushing, overwhelming presence ease?

[carolsturka]

[a-person-with-hobbies]

you can’t change a man, whether you’re 10 and it’s your father, or you’re 19 and it’s still your father