A Story So Cold...

Pansexual | I get sad sometimes but I'm doing better overall. I hope I can just be relatable and approachable for all of you who may need help. I play music and sing, and I'm also going to school for Cybersecurity. Follow me if you relate or like nerdy stuff.

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Last year, back when my band was playing and there wasn't any drama. I miss being on stage. But life goes on. I've got a solo project I'm working on, and I guess that's good enough for me.

[let-us-taco-bout-it]

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I need to stop but I cant

[snlgifs]

[cravefoodie]

[justgivemeahappymiddle]

✨🖤✨

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Oh man, want.

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Fill my inbox pls I need to clear my head

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Why do we even bother trying anymore? We've clearly grown apart.

My thoughts when I have a serious conversation with my s/o and less than 8 hours later we're back to the same shit...

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Top 5 favorite anime and GO (in no particular order) 1. Death Note 2. Blood + 3. Soul Eater 4. Yu Yu Hakusho 5. Bleach What are yours? I need suggestions for things to watch while/after the studio ✌🏻️☺️ #anime #souleater #deathnote #bleach #yuyuhakusho #bloodplus #iloveanime #top5 #nerdlife

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how to reassure a friend who has social anxiety that you still enjoy them and their company:

make a point to text them first at least as often as they text you first (if not more often)

initiate conversations at least as often as they initiate them (if not more often)

be the one to invite them places

saying things like “love you” “can’t wait to see you” “this made me think of you” “i miss you” are great

reply to their messages in a timely manner. if something comes up and you can’t keep messaging them, don’t just leave them hanging, say that you’ll talk to them later.

if, after all this, they still occasionally ask things like “do you hate me?” or “am i bothering you?” don’t be offended, tell them that you love them

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Nothing like sitting outside in the dark smoking bowls and bawling

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When you come home from a day of putting up the best front possible and just don't have the energy to fake it anymore.

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I'm feeling really triggered

Time to smoke some weed and forget about the fact that all of my friends made plans with each other and didn't say anything to me. It's petty, but I don't care. It sucks being the one who's ALWAYS left out man.

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Colleen Hoover, Maybe Someday

[hplyrikz]

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I can't think of anything to ask you, but now that I found you I feel like I need to say something.

God dammit I had an entire response typed up to this and then I fucking forgot you can't send super long answers. FML

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I didn't get better. If anything I've gotten worse.

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My life got at least a little bit better when I stopped caring what others would think of me

It's baby steps but it's true: the more you do without inhibition the happier you'll be. I'm just now starting to practice what I preach when it comes to these kinds of things but believe me lovelies, when you can do even just one small thing that normally would have freaked you out, you're doing WONDERS for yourself. So next time you get that little flutter of panic or anxiety, take a few deep breaths and remind yourself that no matter what, you're a fucking awesome individual and even if you mess up it's better than not doing anything at all.

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Okay so here’s something I’ve never confessed to anyone or said out loud. I’m still madly in love with one of my best friends. In fact sometimes I feel like I’m more of a boyfriend to her than her actual boyfriend (another best friend) is. 

this is the ultimate Fuck My Life