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gothalbinorat

this user has an ED but supports and encourages recovery

saltedcaramelatte

Every single person on this planet is so fucking beautiful

deermemoriesarchive-deactivated

I get on tumblr dot com, reblog 100 posts in less then 5 minutes, then i leave

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toofemmetofunction

I really wanna scream. I gained weight. A lot. Over the last year I let myself go. I sunk so deep into my depression that I didn't take care of myself at all.

Now when I look at myself all I want to do is go take a scissor, gram my fat and cut it all away. I wonder over and over again if I would survive it. If a place a call to an ambulance first... and if I could actually go through with it. My urges to hurt myself are at a high but I dint wanna die. No. I wanna live. But I cant handle my emotions or how I look anymore.

Idk if its because I want back control or if its because it's a form of self harm and to discipline myself but... I think a lot of starving myself again. I think if plans how to do it best and how I cant hide it from the ones around me. I think if how I used to do it. How I could do it better this time...

... but I'm weak. I'm disgustingly weak and my will, my discipline is low. Probably I die because of a heart attack because I will gain weight until that kills me before I can starve myself to death.

I'm so angry at myself. I'm so disappoint. So disgusted. And my desperation grows. I wanna live... but whx?

#rant #tw #ed #tw eating things #eating disoder thoughts

panicitsyourperiod

*Laughs in ED*

dollydainty-blog

he-craves-thin

Dainty Thinspo

fat-dxmb

Me seeing someone skinnier than me: oh no

My ed: oh yeah! new competition

slefdestructionismykink

Hnn, I made this and it's really tasty. I put a bit more apple cider vinegar than recommended only because I only had a bit left and it was more than 2 tablespoons.

daintyydreamer

ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ̀ˋ 𝔦𝔪𝔞𝔤𝔦𝔫𝔢 𝔩𝔬𝔬𝔨𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔡𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔱𝔶 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔡𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔢 ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ̀ˋ

sick-four-youuu

them: omg you’ve lost so much weight! what do you eat????

the ed community:

anasbaddie

i thought i was dead

i had a experience today where my body overheated i started to lose focus in my schoolwork my heart started beating so loud and fast and hurting like a mf and i thought “omg this is it this is how i die i am going to die in the middle of art class” then i decided to try to alert someone i tapped my friends thigh my breathing was shaky and loud and my face was red and tried to tell her “get the teacher somethings happening” all that came out was a scrambled mumbled sentence and i thought i was about to faint but she understand and the teacher got her to take me real quick and since she knew i was anorexic she got a proteing bar and made me eat that shit and the second i took a bite everything slowly started to calm down and i have honestly never been more terrified

dont take life for granted as someone with an ed it doesnt matter whether your bmi is high or low your heart can stop at any second

benzosandespresso-deactivated20

This is extreme hypoglycemia!!!!

When you don’t eat, your blood sugar goes DOWN. This causes a variety of symptoms:

-An irregular heart rhythm

-Fatigue

-Pale skin

-Shakiness

-Anxiety

-Sweating

-Hunger

-Irritability

-Tingling sensation around the mouth

-Crying out during sleep

-Confusion, abnormal behavior or both, such as the inability to complete routine tasks

-Visual disturbances, such as blurred vision

-Seizures

-Loss of consciousness

ALWAYS make sure you have a fast acting carbohydrate on you. Orange juice, LifeSavers, (NOT DIET) soda, dried fruits (raisins), bananas, glucose gel/tablets, energy bars, rice cakes, pretzels, other candies.

These will correct your blood sugar (bring it up) in 5-15 minutes!!!!! Eat them when you start to feel faint or right after you pass out. Hydrate yourself as well!!!

Place your head between your knees, this enhances blood flow to your brain. Sit down/remain lying down when you regain consciousness. Get up SLOWLY and when you’re ready. Other options include raising the legs to aid blood flow to the brain as well.

aliceadviceblog

Incredibly important!!

i-want-to-be-thinspirational

Please guys, i was in the shower one day and was about to get out and i suddenly couldn’t lift my arms or do anything, reality felt like it didn’t exist and my heart was so loud and j could HEAR it skipping beats and everything was oscillating between intense rushes of noise and silence and i have massive black splotches in my eyes and i couldn’t see anything and i dont know how i managed to get out of the shower and the first thing i did was collapse in front of a jar of rock candies j found somewhere in the bottom if my room and i bearly managed to get one out, but i did and oh god i felt ALIVE.

I have never been so scared.

I had a BMI of 21 and had only been restricting for a month.

Verdict is- carry something round with you at all costs. It may genuinely save your life.

lovelylemonboythings

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, BE. SAFE!!!

🍋

alotofcoffee23

Always bring an emergency food!!! If fasting and restricting

thin-as-flowers

ok i am gonna go buy some emergency jolly ranchers or some shit tomorrow to carry with me tysm for this

skinnylegendsi

Omg THIS SO FUCKING IMPORTANT

ialsohatemyselfnumber999-deacti

Same thing happened to me and I’m nowhere near underweight! Be careful!

xxlunaticprincess

this is so important!!

canibesmolpls

never not reblogging this

will2beskinny

Reblogging this again because a couple of days ago this happened to me. It was the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced. Bmi of 25, but I felt as though I was dying and my body was rejecting any food I tried to eat. All I could do was lay on my couch in excruciating pain for hours, because I couldn’t stomach the food I ate. Be careful, if you’re dizzy or hungry, eat.