Blog Of Existence

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so, i just spilt boiling hot tea onto my leg and all i said was, "much hot, very ow."

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my mother spent an hour trying to persuade me to have kids when i'm older and move out; she didn't seem to hear me when i said

i

don't

want

them.

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you ever realise your parent just hit the metaphorical mental illness nail on the metaphorical head and then proceeded to handle it in such a Middle Aged White Mum™️ way that it makes you realise how absolutely right you were to never tell them shit

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trigger warning: eating disorder (specifically bulimia)

i said a massive "fuck you" to bulimia today!!!!!! i was hungry and i ate a fucking slice of bread WITH peanut butter without logging the calories, making myself throw up or compensating!!! and it was white bread cause i think it tastes nicer!!!

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if i'm being honest rn, my best friend/little sister is just the absolute light of my life. like, who else is simply as casually awesome as her? nobody. i love that kid.

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physically? i could fight deanna troi. but emotionally? imagine the toll.

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if anybody knows the name of the music that drives councillor troi insane in "the survivors" then please tell me as it's driving ME insane

and i don't have a doctor crushwr

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not to be really morbid on main but i just watched penance (picard 2x02) and elnor was shot and my immediate reaction was "if elnor dies seven and raffi can start a 'my son died in front of me' club"

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i like that the plot of fury is literally "kes is back and she's not happy about it"

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i am four years old. my friends and i play family. my best friend wants me to be the mom. i cry. i want to be the dad. i play the dad. it's the happiest i'd ever felt.

i am six years old. i don't have any friends. all the girls say i am too boyish. all the boys say i am just a girl. one boy, victor, plays with me. his dad tells him he can't. his dad tells him not to play with girls. the words hurt more then not having any friends ever has.

i am ten years old. our classes change. all the girls i am friends with are in a different class, so i play football with the boys. i've never felt so part of something.

i am twelve years old. i finally have the terminology to describe what i've been feeling for my whole life. i steal a pair of my older brother's boxers, jeans and a t-shirt. i put them on in the bathroom with the door locked. this is right. this is who i am.

and yet you still call me dangerous, you still call me a liar. when did happiness become dangerous?

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why the f u c k does tom paris have a b e a r d

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somebody help me pick a name, i'm stuck between janna (pronounced yarner), kessik and nine.

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bitchin'

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ivy's writing this so y'all should be scared af:

HELLO HUMANS I AM GOD. WORSHIP ME I AM YPUR NEW LEADER 😃worship me bitch. lol ANYWAY I AM ALSO VERY GAY SO IF YPU DONT WORSHIP ME UR HOMOPHOBIC

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me: i don't have friends

ivy: *starts ominously leaning on me like the bitch it is* me: you don't count

ivy: *starts breathing into my cheek and making me smell its strawberry chewing gum*

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hey has anyone got any advice for my little sister? she's autistic and has adhd and her special interests are buffy and horses and skulduggery pleasant, just like mine. she's just started secondary school (today actually) and she's really struggling making friends, in her own words because she "is shy and talks at the wrong times." i said that she can obviously hang with me but i feel like she should have friends in her own year or at least people who she can approach if there's an issue and i'm sick or she can't find me.

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just to update y'all on this, she's made loads of friends now from hanging out in the library and in fact has more then me, which she is absolutely fucking ECSTATIC about, thank y'all for your suggestions i love you guys

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i relate to wesley wyndam-pryce because i, too, would die without winifred burkle.