tw; another vent from the obsessive gay idiot landmine; me
my therapist helped me realize that the girl i love makes me feel extra mega confused and obsessed all because she expressed and reassured that she loves me as much as i love her but...she doesnt give me attention like she gives others... if someone says they love you and love you for who you are, wouldnt you feel the same? a little...jealous and needy? thats why im always wanting her attention- she wont explain her silence and i asked way too many times for her to tell me why... :c
shes aware that she has trouble speaking up and that she avoids others cus thats what shes used to...i just want her to be herself around me and not assume that she has to look perfect for me...i want to love her for who she is, not only her similarities with me, but genuinely her as a person...
alzo this is like my first time being gay for anyone- wittewy istg shes just like madoka, perfect and amazing yet likes a lozer like mi like COME ON ISNT THAT THE MOST ROMANTIC AND LOVELY GIRL EVER????? (<- delusional homura puppy speaking >_<)

















