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Mae ☆ 20s ☆ it/She

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Mae ☆ 20s ☆ it/She

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Wincest sideblog

intro in progress and also blog to be named lmao

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[nymphalidaze]

Still so immensely disappointed that they didn't do more with Sam and Dean's post-Hell PTSD.

One of them wakes up sweating with a scream dying in their throat and the other comforts them however they need, usually silent understanding, company, and a distraction. Sometimes they can't bear to be touched, but sometimes they need it desperately and will just hold onto each other for hours. After Sam gets his memories back, Dean doesn't sleep while Sam sleeps because Sam sleeps better knowing Dean is watching over him. They sleep in shifts. Neither can sleep for several hours uninterrupted.

Dean doesn't buy into therapy bullshit but Sam learns grounding exercises and practices them, and eventually Dean lets him teach him and begrudgingly admits that it helps. Dean still prefers to take the repression and ignoring it route but well, if you have PTSD, you know how that goes. Sam tries researching PTSD recovery for torture victims and it just triggers him badly. He considers finding a therapist and pretending he's a vet who survived torture but doesn't like the idea of lying and doesn't think it could really help him, then feels guilty for diminishing what 'regular' torture survivors go through.

The myriad of triggers they might have. The first time Dean sees a disemboweled corpse post-Hell he FEELS his own guts being pulled out of him. Sam can't stand to be near fire and waits at a distance while Dean salts and burns bones. Neither can handle seeing raw meat and avoid butcher shops and the meat section in grocery stores. The rattle of chains makes Dean feel faint. If two people put their hands on Sam at once he freaks out. They both gravitate towards colder states and hate the south and summer.

Completely random flashbacks happening at inopportune times - they get used to telling concerned bystanders that the other is a war vet. It can happen mid-hunt when they're armed and they're in danger of accidentally hurting each other - and sometimes they do which eats them up inside. Worse if it scars and it's a permanent reminder.

They both feel detached from each other and everyone else. Both privately hate themselves for it because if anyone would get it, it's each other, right? The emotional numbness persists regardless.

They both have sudden outbursts of rage and aggression, usually directed at each other. Neither of them deals with it well. They fight a lot, physically and verbally. They feed each other's anger. It's a vicious cycle.

There's so many other ways it could affect them but I've ran out of steam and should sleep now.

[headtraumasam]

sam winchester in caged heat, supernatural 6.10

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"hurt people, hurt people" applies to dean Winchester, and he heard that as a command twice

[novakstogive]

Dean Winchester SUPERNATURAL — 1.02 "Wendigo"

[rotserah]

dean sees the apartment sam has at stanford, with the kind of furniture that comes brand new out of the box, and curtains that don’t smell like smoke. there’s framed photos with straight white teeth smiles, and he hates it. a place that screams “too good for a redneck like you”, and he has to wonder if sam ever enjoyed those long, lonely days they spent in motel rooms and trailers laid out against each other, sweating and moaning the way dean did.

god would have to forgive him that he didn’t give a shit when it burned.

[insidethisblogisincest]

They had their first kiss with each other. They’re like four and eight, give or take. Too young and isolated to really understand what they’re doing or what it means. Baby Sam asked about it and Dean said it was something people do when they love each other. Their little brains conclude that they love each other more than anything so they should kiss. And it becomes something they do when they feel like being affectionate for each other. They’re careful not to do it in front of John, who was always quick to shut down any physical affection between them. It was no different than the cuddles and hand-holding they did when John wasn’t around. And it probably continued later it should’ve, when they were clearly old enough to understand that brothers didn’t kiss. As Dean grew older, his increasing obedience towards John, internalizing a lot of toxic masculinity, and becoming more aware of his confusing feelings for Sam, he stopped touching Sam in anyway, much to Sam’s confusion and dismay.

Just imagine it coming all back to them whenever asked about their first kiss

[dead-dove-do-not-fucking-eat]

I love Sam and Dean as a ship for how fucking messy it is

Sam and Dean are in love. They are freakishly codependent. They are each other's literal family. They are soulmates. They are each other's favorite person. They are each other's weaknesses. They are the most important people in each other's lives and never fully gave up on or let go of each other even at their absolute worst. They have physical fights. They are basically attached at the hip. They are unhealthily obsessed with each other. Their dynamic is inherently not safe or sane or remotely normal. They are happiest together and they are happy together for eternity in heaven by the end of the show. They fuck freaky style in the back of the Impala that is somehow, inexplicably also in heaven (the heaven they fully expected to only see each other in because they are actual literal soulmates btw).

[inter-state80]

no one has ever made a good post about supernatural

[cyclone-sam]

what i love about wincest is that they could do anything, just a chaste, gentle kiss on the mouth, and by nature it's still completely, unforgivably obscene.

[yourthirdparent]

i think the reason sam fucks like a freight train is because he wants to gaud his partner into doing the same. in his ideal world he picks the girl up and throws her on the bed and pins her down and she flips them over and bites and scratches at him and shoves and then he can roll them right back over and do the same. he likes when the sex is just mauling each other. key thing is that if there's mauling then He Has To Maul. he prefers when it's mutual but it's fine if his partner doesn't wanna do the same, he can run right over her and it's fine as long as they both get off. but if his partner wants to push then he has to push back. #trauma, you understand. he doesn't do well with being pinned or restrained.

dean on the other hand is a sadist but when he actually engages in sadism he gets Serious about it. it doesn't matter that he's having fun having sex, if he's engaging in sadism he goes full torturer mode. additionally, he immediately snaps into it when he feels threatened and it's hard to shake him out of it. this means that if sam pushes, dean pins, and that means that sam is utterly terrified and will push harder to try and free himself, which means dean pins harder until sam feels entirely helpless and stops trying to escape. and then it's not really sex anymore.

[samwinsexy]

[mylittleimpala]

this is why they don’t kiss

[beetusthatyeetus]

John’s voicemail: If this is an emergency, call my son.

Sam’s voicemail: If this is an emergency, call my brother.

Dean’s voicemail: If this is an emergency, leave a message or try my other phone.

Bro is his own emergency contact on top of being everyone else’s I’m going to throw myself under a jet ski

[winchesterlesbian]

"Toxic yaoi" "cannibalism as eroticism" "be gay do crimes" internet users when the morally questionable fictional relationship involves incest:

[nymphalidaze]

I love isolated, no boundaries wincest.

Dean who hit puberty way before Sam and just jerked off when he felt like it because there is no privacy in a motel room. Sam watching out of curiosity and asking questions, Dean learning that he doesn't just not care about the audience, he likes it.

Dean teaching Sam how to make himself feel good. Demonstrating his favourite techniques on himself and Sam copying. Dean teaching Sam how to stave off his orgasm until he's begging Dean to let him come. He never even told him he needed permission, that just developed organically, and it makes Dean lose his mind.

One of them had a wet dream so they lie practically on top of each other on the dry side of the bed.

Dean being a creep and watching porn in front of Sam, sometimes not even to jerk off, but just because he's bored. Watching porn together and jerking off side by side. It progresses to jerking each other off because it's no big deal, they're basically just one person at this point. What's the big deal about helping your brother out?

Brotherly bickering over who blows who first, once they cross that line. Dean always throws scissors and lets Sam decide anyway.

Competitions for who can make the other come first, using all the tricks they learnt on each other - they know what gets each other off.

They don't even see it the same way as sex with other people. It's just something they do. Dean, being older, understands how screwed up it is first but doesn't say anything to Sam; he doesn't want to stop.