❁

[aainaanasha]

I’ve wondered why I always got upset over the littlest of things sometimes. Was I just overreacting? Was I just too emotional about the situation? Or was I just complicating everything with my overthinking? I guess I have worked out the whole equation.

 Maybe it’s because of my clinginess. Maybe it’s because of my emotional attachment to people. Maybe I just depend too much on other people. And what hurts is that they don’t need me as much as I need them. I guess that’s where the disappointment comes from. 

When you start getting close to someone or a certain group of people, you tend to become attached to them. They become important to you. You tend to look out for their best interest in things. At some point, your attachment to them makes you need them. But sometimes, that person or those people don’t actually need you. They just entertain you to keep themselves occupied. Once you are out of their sight, you become worthless to them. A mere unimportant existent.  

And I guess the best way to avoid that painful stab of hurt is to stop caring. And to stop getting yourself attached to people who are uncertain of their presence in your life. Cause getting hurt because of people who don’t care or don’t know what’s going on is just not worth it. Attach yourself to someone you know is gonna stay and is gonna make you feel important and loved. Don’t go wasting your time on those who only give you heartache and start giving your attention to those who deserve it. 

Goodnight. 

[aainaanasha]

Thoughts

There are so many successful and thriving moneymaking people nowadays. These people are the ones that many of us look up to. Not only are they successful, a large number of them are also pretty or good looking, have a great looking family and basically living the life everyone dreams of. 

‘Omg, I so want her/his life,’ ‘Gosh, I want a husband like hers,’ ‘I wish I had a cute family like ...,’ Goals, that’s what people call it present-days. Life goals, relationship goals, marriage goals, family goals.

However, sometimes I think that this whole obsessed-with-goals or being so engrossed in emulating a certain persona’s lifestyle gets a tad bit out of hand. Which makes me wonder, why get so obsessed with someone when you can also work up the ladder and be someone even more successful and acknowledged by others. Become someone else’s idol or role model. Set a good example for them. Motivate them to be better and exceptional in what they do. That’s the real goal we should actually chase, from my point of view. Be better than those people we look up to.

No, it’s not wrong to look up to them and make them your role model because everyone has a way of motivating themselves, but let’s make a small change. Don’t aim to be like them, aim a little higher than that. Aim to be better than them. Aim to become more successful than them. That’s the actual goal we should be after.

Goodnight.

[aainaanasha]

Five years

Wanna know what’s the saddest part of being in a boarding school? No, it’s not being away from your parents and family. Or the no-freedom-for-five-years thing. Or the same food menu that you eventually memorise. The saddest part of being in a boarding school is that after five years of living and studying and playing with the same people, we will all sooner or later have to go our separate paths. 

Yes, everything comes to an end after some time. But a bond made between the individuals who have shared laughter and tears and sweat for five years is one of those things that will never break. And you wanna know when you actually realise that those people were such an important part of your life? When high school ends and you enroll into college, where you have to meet and get to know new people and try to fit in with a new crowd and adapt to the new environment, without those familiar faces who meant so much.

 I swear, being in a place with little or no familiar faces is a pretty scary thing, cause you don’t know how these new people will react to your attitude or how they think about things or their perspective on certain issues. Sometimes, I wish I could stay with those same group of people throughout the years of my life just so that nothing had to change. Appreciate your friends while you still have them close to you, cause time will take them away in the end.

[aainaanasha]

Distance

Distance sucks. It just sucks so much. Being far away from someone you care about sucks. Not being able to see them often sucks. Not being able to spend time with them sucks. 

 I want to go out with you. I want to go for walks with you. I want to have breakfast or lunch or dinner with you. I want to have ice cream with you. I want to take silly pictures with you. I want to walk in malls with you. I want to ask you which lipstick suits me. I want to choose a cool t-shirt for you. I want to go crazy over sneakers with you. I want to sit and drink iced coffee and just chat with you. I want to do all these stuff with you. 

 But you're all the way over there and I'm here. We're just so far apart. And it hurts that I have no idea when I can see you and do all these things with you. 

[aainaanasha]

The future scares the hell out of me.

[aainaanasha]

You

I haven’t known you for that long. We started of as complete strangers and a whirlwind of friendship and so much more happened within this short period of time. But one thing I know is that you’ve left quite an impact in my life. And I know that if you were to leave, you would definitely leave a massive empty hole in my life. 

You play so many roles in my life. A friend, a teacher, a brother, a paramour. 

When I stumbled and fell, you said all the right words to get me back on my feet. When I was lost and clueless, you pointed the right from the wrong. When I was unsure of my decisions and choices, you elucidated the pros from the cons to make me see things in a better and wider perspective. When I just needed a listening ear, you attentively came and listened without any judgments. 

I won’t lie, I am one big aggravating clutter. I overthink about the littlest of things. I am annoying as hell (ask my friends, they’ll say the same thing). I put too much hope and expectations on things (which usually ends up in a heartbreaking disappointment). I am sensitive. I have a hard time trusting people. I get jealous easily. An easier way of putting it, I am your typical girl. I never expected you to stay. Probably because no one ever did. But you did. And I am just so grateful for that. I know how hard it is being with me and putting up with my irritating demeanor (I still wonder how my friends do it though). Even after revealing how I really am to you, you never hesitated about staying. And I can never thank you enough for that. 

All in all, I thank Him constantly for crossing our paths, despite the bumps and stumbles we’ve been through. You have explicitly brought sunshine and rainbows and a little rain to my days and I am so indebted to you for that. I have no idea how long He has planned for you to be in my life but I always hope that it would be a really long time. 

xx

[aainaanasha]

My fear of trusting you is caused by my fear of getting hurt.

[rowantaylor]

date someone who will tap your butt playfully and do the dishes with you after dinner.

date someone who knows the power of running their hands through your hair.

date someone who wants you to succeed as much as they want their own success.  

date someone who knows how you take your coffee and what cheers you up.

date someone who you can be independent from but still look forward to reuniting with.

[buthoneyidontknow]

that last one.

[ellekatee]

[fivesource]

[aainaanasha]

We always say it's personality that catches the eye, but in the end, all we care about is looks.

[aainaanasha]

When your hormones are causing your appetite to rage. 🍔🍕🍗🍙🍛🍜🍝🍟🍤🍪🍩🍨🍧🍫🍰🍱🍳🍵🍴

[490tx]

[hallelujahweddings]

[aainaanasha]

Don't do things you don't want your partner to do. If you don't want them to flirt with others, then you don't flirt with others. Simple as that.

[vinstage]

[aainaanasha]

Trust

Sometimes, it's not that you do not want to trust someone. It's because you are hesitant and afraid to trust them. Everyone has been lied to and betrayed at least once in their life, and we know how painful that was. You want to trust them but you know there's that possibility that they might betray your trust, and that would hurt like hell when it happens. You may like them or love them or care about them, but without trust, all that does not mean a thing. A relationship based on no trust is like a house with no walls, meaningless and pointless. In the end, it's a matter of your willingness to take the risk of putting your trust in them, with hopes that they will not break it. If it's a risk worth taking, go for it. Whatever the outcome, experiences are the best life teachers.