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hey dwyer
abaskervillehound replied to your post: â heya
youâve killed me noot
well you and ryan have both killed me so actually weâre unevenÂ
umm? tadashi and you have killed me so weâre even? what is th
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jamesfalt replied to your post: â jam ;0
i. love ryan
please reconsider i beg of you
â whoopsie
ââŠTo tell you the truth (wow, surprising!), I⊠was kind of hurt you didnât at least tell me that you killed Aiâ if you didnât want to get executed, then I would have⊠I would⊠well, you probably know what I would have done. I mean, you arenât getting executed now, but what if we got it wrong? What if you did get executed.Â
Then what?Â
Were you just going to accept it? Would I have to watch you die like all the others? Would I have to laugh it off and pretend that it hadnât hurt as much as it did to prove that karma really didnât exist? Did you really think I wouldnât feel anything if you just went off and get yourself executed? That Iâd just shrug it off?
Laughing at things can only get me so far, even if this is all⊠fake.â
âLook, Iâm a selfish, hypocritical prick who demands things from others without giving back, and this time isnât different, but I want you to promise me something.
Iâm not a stable person, to admit this, and I shouldnât have gotten close to peopleâ but Iâm a hypocrite and I did. Yâknow, the whole âyour executionâ thing it kind of⊠yâknow.Â
Scared me.Â
Which isnât something that happens often, mind you, but I got scared, yâknow? Nervous. Afraid. And Iâm not supposed to get scared for other peopleâ I never became afraid for my partner when I was still active in the yakuza. I donât know what would happen next. Iâve never been honest, really. And you know that.
So donât do that againâ you better outlive me at least, asshole.â
before we can even dive to what the fuck is ryanâs opinion on tadashi, letâs talk about ryanâs  ~trust issues~. theyâve got those, and itâs probably the biggest reason why theyâre not actually close with too many peopleâ thereâs only like three that i can remember at the moment, and thatâs already at a surprising number.
ryanâs kind of an asshole if you think about this long and hard, but they trust ppl theyâre close to so much that they silently (which is⊠yknow.) demand the same amount of trust from the other as it is so fucking HARD to get them to trust someone (despite their energetic persona)â so when tadashi was revealed that he was the killer, and that he had accomplices, it kind of⊠well, they were jittery after that. to them, it felt that tadashi actually didnât trust them as much as they trusted him.
so it kind of made them
really nervous. basically the reason why they started acting really weirdly in the trial.
keeping that in mind, ryan still is very fond of tadashi! theyâll need just a bit of time to get a goddamn grip on their emotions and be like âokay so like, iâm NOT being fooledâ, but theyâre willing to talk things out and go back to being good friends with him.
they find him to be interesting since his reaction to their pranks is⊠well, something that they enjoy. who doesnât love a good reaction? example: snow motive. ryan chuckles over that all the time honestly. surprising tadashi while praetis was just snow hell was honestly a fav of theirs. plus, playing games afterwards? absolutely fun.
not to mention that tadashi was⊠well, himself around them. of course in the beginning it wasnât rly all that way, and it was honestly surprising that tadashi went up to them, knowing about what they did, but he was⊠interested in talking to them. theyâve met a few true crime fans, but combined with the whole mutual killing it, it was honestly bizarre to them.Â
but he kind of started acting natural around them, and they appreciated that. they really did appreciate that a lot. people being genuine around them is something that they silently appreciate. to them, if you act more natural around them, then theyâll find more enjoyment in pestering you as they donât really care for all of that âpersonaâ stuff.
(even though they do it. fucking nerd)
they really didnât notice how much fun they were having around tadashi until they started to realize it after seeing that tadashi was the one that they texted to the most out of the entire class. honestly at that point they were kind of weirded out with themself since they automatically assume, oh, im the only one who considers the two of us to be good friends. the trial where they pretty much declared that they were friends was the icing on the cake, and it made?? ryan really relaxed and honestly thrilled that yes itâs confirmed that they are⊠indeed Friends.
tadashi, to them, has been kind of?? just someone who if he disappeared, theyâd feel really out of place? like him being gone would just have them feel really fucking weird and uncomfortable. in a sense, his existence makes them comfortable since theyâre? attached, i guess.
ryan wouldnât like to call themself as protective, but theyâd totally fight someone to protect him at this point. kind of like a guard dog. fucking furry
i donât want this to be longer that it is so here
summary: ryan⊠finds tadashi to be a comforting existence. they might regret forming bonds because of the whole âi donât want to feel painâ thing theyâve got going on, but they surely donât regret meeting tadashi. heâs important to them, and if he were to just⊠be out of their life, theyâd feel really uncomfortably weirded out. heâs that important to them.Â
even if theyâre just a little bit shaken up, theyâd still want to stay in contact. theyâd even go home if it means that they could easily be more in contact with him. heâs a good friend, and theyâre glad that heâs⊠well, heâs there. and heâs their friend. it means a lot to them.
(it really does.)
heâs probably the only person (aside from their sibling, they guess) that theyâd probably cry over too so uh
yâknow.
â ;0 ?
âHeyy, itâs you! I still think that itâs real funny that I got your secret still. Sometimes I chuckle to myself about it! Itâs real funny-- I donât think you know why, but hey, itâs got to stay somewhat of a secret, huh? Right, Ayato âexperiment helperâ Akiyama?
Well, I donât really have much to say. Itâs not like weâre that close enough to meet again.â
ryan... honestly doesnât have much of an opinion of ayato, really. itâs true that they found ayato amusing only one when they were basically interrogating him on his secret, but other than that? if ayato was trying to reach background character levels, then he sure as hell got it with ryan.Â
honestly they wouldnât mind talking to ayato again, but would probably feel weird about it as they werenât close? like at this point theyâre going to treat everyone from the mutual killing who they werenât somewhat close to as like. former classmates that you donât ever want to meet again.
awkwardly, ryan did suspect ayato as the mastermind as some point, but theyâd probably stay silent about that since it was obviously... well, wrong. no one needs to know about the great ryan roe  making silly mistakes. well, they donât really count it as a genuine suspicion, really. o well.
summary: aside from one thing that caught their attention in the past, ryan doesnât have much to say about ayato. heâs very neutral in their book and they donât really give that much of a shit about him. they do find his secret to be really funny though for their own personal reasons-- not much the person, but the concept.
â hey its me the other white-haired asshole
âHey, itâs you! That other white-haired asshole. We could have totally bonded over how much of an asshole we both are, yâknow? Hell, I could jokingly almost run you over with my bike. But though, well, look. While youâre cool in my book, I have to say this: I might be one hell of a douche, but at least Iâm not a kinky douche. Enjoy that fetish that you have!â
honestly despite masashi being the other white-haired person in the entirety of the class, ever since they found out masashiâs fetish (thanks holly), all interest in meeting him kind of... dropped? of course they wouldnât mind talking to him if they bumped into him, but willingly?
not really.
fetishes donât really freak them out, to be honest, but itâs the idea that this person could be enjoying the current situation in a really......... not so good way that made them really âehâ about him. like theyâre laughing about the situation, and theyâre questionably finding this all funny, but not... yâknow. though they donât think of masashi negatively since heâs close to holly from what theyâve heard so heâs got that.
other than that, they really donât have anything else to say about masashi. they wouldnât find him all that interesting, actually. kind of boring. hes the type to them that theyâd forget about after a week even if theyâve known the guy for like, a while because of the mutual killing. to them, masashiâs just another face in the crowd who only speaks up a few times just to be an asshole-- and they can appreciate that, but really, he seems like a background character to them.
summary: they donât have any significant thoughts about masashi other than being âehâ about his fetish? itâs mostly just a âi knew this person but i donât really care about them so like, whateverâ thing. sorry masashi but the fetish thing just really wasnât all that interesting to ryan
â jam ;0
âOh, Ghostie! Well, I didnât really get to bond with you or whatever, but I think your talent is quite snazzy. Keep doing what you do! Though I personally thought you were kind of mundane in the glimpses I got to talk or see you. Nyahaha! Though the last part of the trial? I could see just a little bit of something there.â
final thoughts: ryanâs thoughts are very convoluted, but itâs safe to say that they donât⊠really have much to say about jamie. verbally, theyâd pass it off as him being boring, but they just donât really know what to say. to them, he was kind of just there in the class, as the shsl ghostwriter.
they do remember when jamieâs talent was talked about as if it were illegal (ryan: ummm its morally wrong not illegal get it right), but other than that? theyâre really neutral about him. no negative thoughts, just total neutrality.
separating their personal opinion, they do have to admire one thing: his talent. his talent is actually something that theyâre extremely familiar with, as their cousin does the same exact kind of work that jamie does! so heâs somewhat on ryanâs good side, but uh.
their thoughts on jamie? unfortunately nonexistent 8(
summary:Â either way, ryan is very neutral about jamie and doesnât really have anything to say about him? heâs really just someone they knew in the class
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Ryan votes for Yuji as the Parel mastermind and Chou for the Tora mastermind.
woof woof i want to sleep || ryan || mm trial || re: tadashi, aliani, ppl who want the journal deets || attn: everyone
Thereâs tension that builds up within as Michiko doesnât even take a moment to at least considerâ god, fuck youâ quieting down for a second, and it only seems to increase when Tadashi starts speaking, apologizing to them. What did they say! They didnât want anyoneâs apologies. If they werenât going to accept EBULLIENCEâs apologies, then certainlyâ
certainlyâ
âŠ
To admit, there was something that stirred within Ryanâ but they squashed it down out of pure fear that it could grow to something that they didnât like. Something that made them actually uncomfortable. Something painful, to say the least. Pain? God, theyâre not a fan of that, no way. Anything that could remotely cause them pain is a big no-no in their book.
ââŠâ
They give a casual, but clearly uncaring shrug, with their palms up in respond to Tadashi.
(whatâs the phrase that people always say? oh, rightâ fake it until you make it. thatâs probably a good idea. especially sinceâ)
âWell, apology accepted, Tadashi!â They say, as if theyâre just fine (great). Â
âItâs not like Iâm that shaken up about something like this. Things like this are super duper commonplace in my lifestyle anyways! No biggy, no biggy. Death happens and like, whatever, you do you.â
Their voice falters slightly.
ââŠYou do youâŠâ
Either way, they quickly dismiss the entire thing with a hand, and lets the pages flip back to the first one as they wait for a time to metaphorically wiggle their grimy little criminal hands into the trial so that they could finally get to say stuff about the book. Screaming wasnât going to work since there were some individuals who were⊠well, too stupid to realize theyâre just being a nuisance.
So they just wait for an opprotunityâ and it comes around.
(Of course, they do spare some patience to stand and listen to people start throwing suspects up in the air, with arguments pointedly towards Yuji. There was one thingâ or rather, when someone spoke upâ that they couldnât resist the urge to justâ)
âYou know, Aliani, the way that you present your argument fondly reminds me of when you outright accused me of being the mastermind while trying to seem âcoolâ about it. Just thought it was funny that youâre doing it again.â
Back to the topic.
âAh, well, you guys sure can read the journal, but like, Iâd like to read this out loud so that everyone gets a whiff of what this mastermind was writing so secretively with this glitch pen. After all, Iâm clear, and Iâm totally a credible source. Plus, Iâve been meaning to try out some new voices Iâve been trying to mimic this entire time for the hell of it.â
And so, they begin to read.
At least they're trying to make this fun to listen to. Of course, they donât stop, and anyone who tries to talk, theyâre just going to keep going. Itâs fine if people donât listen. It's fine.
After that, they close up the book with a hum, and justâ
âSooo, weâre voting on Yuji, right? After all, this behavior that the mastermind shows⊠well, itâs just giving her too much credit for something that really isnât there in her personality! I mean, whereâs the arrogance? Whereâs the shitty bias? Her? Having to learn how to write detached? Pu-lease, thatâs so funny. And like, weâre discussed the other options too, so like, how âbout it?â
fgghjfhf
trust issues: the trilogy || ryan || mm trial || re: jamie (barely), ebull, what are yall doing
When Jamie came around to give them the notebook, they wordlessly accept it without even giving the guy a glance. Hell, they donât even say anything at all after thatâ though when someone mentions the t word (note: trust), Ryan simply gives a roll of their eyes as they slowly input the password.
(trust? trust? wow, whatâs that??? lol)
At the sound of EBULLIENCEâs voice, they pause momentarily as if theyâre listening, following it up with a raise of their head.
(âŠ
âŠmmm.
thereâs a dull twinge of something, but theyâre ignoring it. itâll all be over soon.)
Thereâs little to no energy with their next set of words. Itâs replaced with a very bitter, but most certainly apathetic tone that just screams that theyâre truly done with all of this. And theyâve got the right.
âI donât want your apologies, EBULLIEâ ah, well, Miss Tomikoâ or anyone elseâs,â they flatly respond as they open the notebook with a satisfying click. It seems theyâre also done with saying EBULLIENCE like theyâve always done.
âIf I was asking for one, I would have said so. Iâm just bored of this entire thing already. Iâd honestly rather do a million sudoku puzzles than hearing that.â
snip that one away
Thereâs a slight tremble of their hands, but as usual, it goes away as they rummage through their pocket with a hand, taking out what seems to be a white pen.
Though when people (note: sasaki and michiko) bicker about topics that they really just donât care about, their almost unbreakable patience starts to wear down at an exponential rate. It get to the point where thereâs something that just snaps in Ryan, and they raise their voiceâ with every word reaching a high octave than the restâ
âGOD! SHUT! THE! FUCK! UP!â
And as if they didnât just scream for people to shut up, they put on one of their classic smiles.
âActually, you guys can just fight it out. Iâll stay here and just reread this mastermind journal while you guys do your own thing. Awfully rude of me to just interrupt such an important thing.â
and they do, because farren gotta snooze like a little shit
and i worried about you || ryan || monothea || re: results || attn: the murder trio, jamie
There was something that seemed to stir within the fabricator as the trial came to a close. Something⊠that they couldnât put their finger on. Ryan Roe might have been an expert of impersonations, but they were certainly new to this âemotionâ business. What was an emotion? God, who even knew!
They certainty didnât.Â
Especially now!
A lot of questions danced on the tip of their tongue at the revealâ and now that it was confirmed that Tadashi had been the culpritâ there was a lot more that threatened to spill out of their mouth. But they kept silent for onceâ unusually silent.
('why didnât you tell me anything?â 'i worried about youâ and youâre just going to die just at the end? and i have to watch?â 'you could have at least warned me that this could happen!â 'iââ)
ââ â â á”á”á¶«á” Êžá”á” á”á” á¶°á”á” á”á” á”ʰá”á” á”á”á”á¶Šá¶°â â
It was barely even above a whisper as they looked at all the involved parties with their usual wide, ryan-like grin. When it came to Tadashi, the ends of their mouth twitches just a bit, but thereâs virtually no change.
Because they didn't care!
Oh no, they truly didnât care about this at all, huh?
(ignore it while you can, ryan, but really, you just donât want your emotions taking you by the reins)
âI see!â
They clap their hands together and laughsâ though thereâs something missing. If you squint, thereâs a slight tremble in their hands that threatens to grow by the second, but alas, it disappears just as that strange expression
âWell. Wasnât that just a ride. We got it right in the end, so congratulations to us! Youâve bested us, Michiko and Miko! Oh, and Tadashi too. No more mysteries now, eh? Itâs the end of things, and weâre all going to try and get a chance of going home!â
Thereâs a pause after their congratulations as they blink a few times, their expression faltering for just a second. The ends of their mouth twitch down as they eyes trail down to the ground, a glossy look appearing before they snap back to their usual look. It would suck to show emotion this late in the game, huh?
Ryan whistles, and casuallyâ of course itâs not casually, but what else could they do but to pretendâ knocks down their shades to cover their eyes, before folding their hands behind their neck. At least this way, theyâll just be a little bit more⊠well.
Just like themself.
(dammitâ i donât want to see you die at the endâ)
âLetâs just get this mastermind trial rolling, m'kay? So we can get out and forget all about this! All about this!â
Aw, theyâre just like a kicked puppy! An amused laugh escapes them, though their loud and obnoxious tone goes quiet as they talk in a voice far different from their 'usualâ one.
ââŠthe notebook. Fenn, could I have the notebook. Iâll open it if you want.â
zzzz || ryan || trial || re: everythign, tadashi, yuji
There wasnât really much Ryan could do â or really, react.
Especially since they were greeted with the sight of their friend hanging upside down from a vine, with blood (his bloodâ) dripping down to the ground. It wasnât really something that they prepared themself for, so when their eyes met that, theyâ
Theyâ
They blanked.
(âŠ)
They remembered yelling something before finding themself now in the trial room, standing in their respectful place. The investigation was all a blurâÂ
But hey, they were here now. And the narrator needs to sleep soon.
âCredit to me, of course! Iâm the one who did most of the stuff to get the password, y'know~? If anyoneâs going to open the notebook during this trial, I totally have the right. I mean, come onnn, I went through hell and back to get that infoooo.â
Oh my god shut up,Ryan.
âAh but to go back to the trail thing from tree boyâ Iâve got no idea what youâre talking about. Whatever path that was, if it seems fresh, it wasnât made by me. I wasnât really roaming around around the time of⊠well, everything. â
âBut hmmm, since it sounds like the culpritâs injured, why donât we go with the classic checks that we used to be a fan of waaaaaay back in the beginning. Iâm not a fan, but like, if weâre serious about catching the culprit, then like, it might be a good idea.â
fuck bye
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(creator note: I recommend 3-10 sentences but go for a longer piece if you really feel it! Replace pronouns as needed for the character / point of view)
donât leaveÂ
this was a mistake
[I] trusted [you]
one chance
help
illusion
silent fury
sunbathing
falling
righteous
drastic
candles
too loud
overgrown
trembling hands
in dreams
empty
flinders
sea change
alone, finally
collapse
nap
sated
tender
senseless
how dare [you]
hide
something about [them]
sweat
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breeze
dust motes
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england is my city || ryan + kyousuke + eisuke || (ab)normal days || game time
shslryouseibai:
âNothing too bad. I mean, people are off yer back now, arenât they?â
It was mostly rhetorical. Regardless, his eyes widen a little at the suggestion of a game. He holds up a hand to signal for them to wait. After a while, the two can see in his hands he has retrieved a colorful board game. He seems a tad embarrassed judging by the flush in his cheeks to be holding such a⊠childish and bright box.
âY-You better not complain! I just grabbed the first thing I saw in the room, OK? Your fault if you two think itâs lame or anythingâŠâ
âYou know how to play, right?â
Ryan stares at the box in Kyousukeâs hands with utter delight, almost akin to a child. Though that delight was soon suppressed as quickly as it had arisen, and they slowly look up with a inquisitive expression.
âHmmmm? Now why would I think that? This looks fun to me! Is it fun? I sure hope it is. Either way, I vaguely remember how to play this game. Though a refresher would be nice.â
They turned back to Eisuke.
âAnnnd youâre joining, riiiight?"
england is my city || ryan + kyousuke + eisuke || (ab)normal days || game time
shslryouseibai:
shslhanami:
As Ryan continue to walk off, behind them was Eisuke being dragged along against his will. Although, the look in his eyes seemed to indicate more annoyance than fear or anger. Nor did he really seem to be struggling against Ryan. More like he was just mildly inconvenience by the whole thing.
In his arms he held his plush bear, MonoBear, tightly.
âUgh⊠Please donât tell me you actually brought me along with you to come see that loser.â
He didnât seem to thrilled to be reunited with his brother.
A flicker of vitality flashed through the hebocon competitorâs eyes as he materialized as the hologram and saw Ryan. His expression was the most boyish it had been in weeks, but it fell a bit when he realized yet another familiar face behind them.
âNice to see ya too, brother. Still lugginâ âround that cursed stuffed bear?â
He was well aware of this fact, yet he felt compelled to voice it anyway.
ââŠNoisy. Turns out pushing up daisies donât shut you up much. I see living life ainât being very hospitable to you either considerinâ last trial, heh. So what'cha want? Doubtful Eisukeâs here for any good reason.â
âYou guessed right, lilâ demon bear holder! I mean, that wasnât initially what I planned to do, but it happened regardless!â
They laugh, as they turn back to Kyousuke.
âOhoho! Personally, IÂ would say that the noisy aspect is a good thing. Better than constant silence, yâknow? Hehehe, but I guess everyone did see that last trial, huh? Kind of embarrassing, really. Heh heh.â
âAnyways, Iâm here because Iâm bored and I wanted to talk to you again! I kind of picked up your brother along the way and that wasnât planned, but he can join, right? Moreâs the merrier, after all! Got any dead realm games or something you can summon?â