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I haven’t been here in awhile..

Realistically since my laptop has been gone I haven’t really been able to get on here as much as I would like to, or the reason I have it. Which is to vent and to write. Man, life is super weird right now. Honestly, this is one of the weirdest/coolest times in my life. I feel like I’m doing things kind of late, but I’m doing them at my pace and everything is happening the way it’s meant to. Now there are times when that really sucks, and it feels that way more often than not. But, honestly, right now..things are okay. I honestly realized this last night. I got to hang out with my best friend and really just talk through life a little bit. The whole conversation wasn’t great, there were things that made my heart hurt, but it was so refreshing to hear perspective from someone I respect the hell out of. I talked to her about where my life was at a year ago and goddamn, what a drastic change, but somethings are the exact same, ha. As horrible and cliche it sounds but I feel so free. I literally have the ability to do what ever I want, and that’s not a bad thing. I can’t say this is the most responsible time in my life, but with my control issues it doesn’t ever go too far. It’s all an adventure. I do not owe any one anything, other than myself and the only thing I owe myself? Enjoy life as much as possible as you can. A year ago, I was in such an unhappy place and I absolutely was oblivious to how miserable I was. My anxiety has been so high with how my life is right now, but after talking with my best she helped put me at ease that I’m doing okay, and that I just got to take everything one day at a time, and if something is too much already, it will only get harder in the future, so minimize the stress I allow in my life. She also reminded me that I can’t be afraid of the good things that scare me, because no matter what happens, it’s an experience. There’s something you can always learn, and you never know, it might be something pretty great. Enjoy my time and where I’m at and with what I’ve got. I’ve really only started to make a dent into putting my life back together after my break-up and my awakening ten months ago. So, because of that, after all the stress I’ve been under recently it’s been difficult to be able to take any sort of vacation or getaway. One of my other favorite women in my life, Virginia, took a weekend getaway to Denver with some friends of ours and left the keys to her little one bedroom apartment. Let me tell you, this is like staying in a hotel but better. Her bed, my god, there are absolutely no words to describe this thing. Okay, realistically it’s not even the bed, it’s the fucking blanket, It’s a down comforter with a slip cover that is faux fur. Okay, so Virg lives in a house turned apartments and she lives in the basement (slightly sketchy) and so it’s cold as balls down here pretty much all the time, but underneath this blanket literally feels like you’re being just lightly hugged all around but clouds. I will be really sad to leave this bed, haha. This is a small getaway from my life without actually having to interrupt that real world bullshit, but I can escape to this little paradise in a basement. Like I said, I know, sketchy. It’s a lot of fucking fun though, let me tell you.

Life is hard, and it stresses me the hell out but it’s pretty okay, and it’s kind of a lot of fun. For now, at least.

cineraria

nicolegendary

#ME TOO CAT

wayward-saints-blog

this is the single greatest thing i will ever reblog during my stay here on tumblr.

thorinss

Fangirl Challenge [6/10 tv shows] Scrubs "Are you insane?" "No. I’m a pirate."

damagaladriel-deactivated201405

versacegay-deactivated20150222

Me reblogging this is my contribution to earth day

http://mgjmp.com/inv/x6mbhwcdjr5ipkug

anyone got a link to watch dance moms? plz~

#dance moms #presenting my new team #4x16

itsagilmorething

Maybe if you drank a little less coffee, you’d make a little less lists.

study-nsp-main

The Devil Wears Prada (2006), dir. David Frankel.

"You have no idea how many legends have walked these halls. And what’s worse, you don’t care. Because this place, where so many people would die to work you only deign to work. And you want to know why she doesn’t kiss you on the forehead and give you a gold star on your homework at the end of the day. Wake up, sweetheart."

wofew

I like storms. They let me know that even the sky screams too.

(via wofew)

#right now #way too accurate

luciusmafoy-deactivated20140324

I think it’d be rather exciting to meet a pirate.

inkystars

#pirates of the caribbean was kind of a formative influence #and nothing about these movies so much as her—snarling selfish sea-hungry pirate king #sometimes I rewatch the first movie and laugh to myself about how little it understood her and will; how it tried to convince us #that will was the pirate because he was chasing after her; and pirates are obsessed with treasure #when elizabeth spends the first movie chasing freedom and the next two chasing him; chasing her freedom; chasing war; chasing the world #her wedding was interrupted and she held the man responsible at gunpoint until he gave her letters of pardon #she was mistaken for a sea goddess and accepted it without question; she led an army to war as though it were her due #and she did it all without ever apologizing for the lives she takes or the lies she tells and when she betrays sparrow with a kiss #he hisses ”pirate” because what else could she be

onlyhimym-deactivated20170606

Kids, I’m going to tell you an incredible story…

looking for the link to the new dance moms episode! can anyone help?

#it's my guilty pleasure show #decisions decisions #dance moms

emlary

sincerelyyoursxthebreakfastclub

30 years ago today, The Breakfast Club met for detention.

magicfolk

star-shine

CHECK OUT your differences in wand technique here and how fluidly and casually Ron throws a curse in comparison to Harry and Hermione Hermione has done the reading and is technically perfect of course Elbow straight; wrist bent Wand tip aligned with left sightline left arm held loosely behind her for balance Harry hasn’t ever done the reading Grip too tight; elbow locked Shoulders raised Left elbow cranked in awkwardly against his body Kids’ll imitate his awful technique and Junior Aurors it’ll make their parents nuts; don’t twist your neck like that I don’t care what Auror Potter does When you save wizardkind you can hold your wand however you want until then drop your shoulders Ron’s been around wand users since birth practiced with twigs and then his brothers’ wands Look at how the movement flows from his center the way he uses his whole body throws out his opposite hand behind him to counterbalance the movement Harry and Hermione get their wands into position and then throw the curse Ron’s spell starts mid-motion because he knows his wand will be in position in time (helenish)

Mmmmmmm, yes.

stephiecarcar

There will be a day when I see this and I will scroll past.

Today is not that day

melodyrae14

Plus Ron is casting his curse non-verbally. That’s very difficult and it requires training and practice to successfully cast a nonverbal spell. It’s success is determined by the amount of concentration and mental discipline of the witch or wizard. But this is Ron Weasley he likely didn’t put training and practice into casting non-verbal spells, this advanced magic comes to him naturally. The only other time we see him cast a non-verbal spell is when he accidentally made it snow in the great hall, and that was only because Lavender was glaring him down after he said Hermione’s name while he was unconscious in the hospital wing. He felt crappy and his emotions were so intense he unknowingly made it snow. Here he’s trapped in a muggle cafe, with his best friend and the girl he loves. He’s probably scared, and angry but most of all protective. He wants to defeat these Death Eaters without anything happening to his team. His emotions are intense again and that allows him to cast a powerful non-verbal spell. No, not even a spell, a curse. We’ve seen Hermione cast non-verbal spells loads of times but even here she says the curse to ensure it’s potency. Ron is concentrated and disciplined enough in this moment to curse a Death Eater without any words at all.