Abby SUCKS

a 300 year old who eats, sleeps, draws, and shits, usually in that order older art can be seen by clicking on any of the below links and simply changing the year in your address bar. i try to be good about tagging art that is mine vs art that i have reblogged, so please mind the tags when viewing. sending me asks sometimes does not show up for hours or days later, so if you need to get a hold of me immediately, please message me directly. PS i am a very bad conversationalist so im sorry in advance for appearing cold/distant/shitty. im working on it I SWEAR DAD

[abbysucks]

Hey, if Noel or Brittany are still around here... I've missed you guys, too.

[abbysucks]

i know i keep saying it

but, the sentiment still comes up every now and then, especially when i'm my most hormonal (go figure).

ill always be sorry for how i treated nick, and ill always be sorry for shutting him out and blaming him for it.

ill always be sorry for the hurt i caused my friends through my own selfish bullshit; self-involvement, self-importance, the like.

and, ill circle this drain of being sorry til the day i die because, thats just how i be.

[abbysucks]

man

just, man. im so tired.

[suppermariobroth]

Mario & Luigi: Brothership contains small decorative lizards that appear in the background in the environment. Due to the game not having any means of freely moving the camera, the lizards cannot be seen up close.

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[catedroguett]

Just girly things 🌸🌸🌸

[abbysucks]

also i cant remember what ive posted where anymore... doesnt matter

[abbysucks]

its not that ive stopped drawing... i just... dont like what ive drawn and hate where im at as an artist and in skill

[abbysucks]

by and large i stopped exercising because it seemed like anytime i was on a good roll, i'd get sick and then get "set back" and the effort to get back on track was stressful.

but i do miss it, a lot. i just dont miss the stress surrounding missing a day, or feeling too tired or sore to exercise that day, or too sore or too tired to push myself harder. exercise shouldn't be mental stress on top of physical stress; it should be stress relief. it stopped being that for me.

then there's also this self-pitying, "woe is me" bullshit going on in the background where i figure the effort is a waste because i'm only getting older, *and*, i've never been attractive to begin with. why draw parallels between exercising to attractiveness? because im not fucking kidding myself, is why. like yeah, i exercise because i want more stamina, to be healthier, etc. but my primary reason is that i want to be that skinny bitch that makes the people i want to be attracted to me, attracted to me. which reminder, is a wasted effort. it doesn't work like that.

and semi-related to the above; i dont want to invite unwanted sexual harassment. a few years ago i dealt with a coworker who had sexually harassed me and its left its stain of shame on how i look, present, and feel. that instance of sexual harassment isnt even the first time ive encountered it, just the first time its ever made me feel fucking disgusted with myself for existing in this body.

i dont really know what i'm talking about here or even getting at. guess im in a mood.

[coelasquid]

The Clip Studio Asset challenge theme going on right now is “chains”, I’d been meaning to make some chain brushes anyway for optimizing Pipeburn so I don’t need to ink every individual link in every panel like I did last time and decided to actually enter for once. I made a set of set-dressing chains with varying levels of detail to be layered through Foreground, middle ground, and background in scenes, as well as some various jewelry and machine chains. They’re all free for whoever wants them, but if you download/like/share you can help increase my chances of winning some Clippy!

[allsadnshit]

Woke up from a weird nap and saw this reel and it's making me feel like I need to get up and walk for like an hour

[abbysucks]

i offer you, my followers, this

[abbysucks]

....I've been playing final fantasy tactics....,

[kosmogrl]

have you guys done that “what kind of reader are you” quiz and if so what did you get

[kosmogrl]

here’s mine

[kosmogrl]

ah here’s the link guys

[windypuddle]

ive already read this. this is nox by anne carson

[morealias]

I bet Yellow Readers are the "Self-Help/Self-Discovery/Self-Journey"Emotional Journey" reader types since I put those books in the lowest category almost every time.

"A novel told entirely through footnotes and deleted Wikipedia entries reconstructs the life of a time traveler who never existed." I NEED TO KNOW WHAT THIS FUCKING BOOK IS AND I NEED TO KNOW RIGHT FUCKING NOW! But in case you want to see what sort of bum buttering you're in for if you take the test:

[abbysucks]

got purple reader as my result and my immediate thought was "so this quiz knows i like vonnegut"

sure enough, book recs at the bottom of the page be vonnegut

[lesserknownwaifus]

Mae, Shining Force

[abbysucks]

May, Shining Force II.

[calico-dan]

Mallorie stole a cheesy hot dog and has been growling over it for 5 minutes now. 

[walk-up-songs]

Bought my uncle a burger and milkshake in exchange for letting me disrupt the holiest day of the week, NFL Sunday Football, so I could install a Pi-hole and free the household of ads...the thing abt the specific boomers I live with is they told me not to trust people on the Internet but they do not understand the algorithm or online advertising and think that Facebook has their best interests at heart. And every time I have tried to explain to them that no, blorbo from my dashboard is not selling my kidneys on the dark web but Google from your capitalism is definitely selling your web searches to every advertising company on the planet, they think I am paranoid. How could their personal friend Mark Zuckerberg want anything bad to happen to them etc. I am fighting battles I did not know existed!!!

[walk-up-songs]

Update I have had Pi-Hole successfully installed for two (2) hours and have since learned that 40% of the web traffic in this household went to advertisements. FORTY FUCKING PERCENT. We live in hell. This is the greatest gift I have ever given my family that they will not understand or acknowledge or feel any gratitude for.

[walk-up-songs]

Update #2: it was rising all night but the number it finally settled on was...60%. 60% of the web traffic in this household went to advertisements. I can't tell if this high number is bc I live in Silicon Valley and probably am subject to the Algorithmic Internet in ways people outside of Silicon Valley are not or it is normal to have 2/3rds of your web traffic be ads, but it did make me set up a recurring donation of the EFF lmfao.

[walk-up-songs]

Okay I have had multiple people ask, so here are the useful websites that me and Beryl used to muddle our way through:

Using Pi-hole and Raspberry Pi (on the Raspberry Pi website, really good overview of what Pi-hole does)

Tumblr-archived Twitter thread about one household's experience with Pi-hole (this is what sold me on it. Also the tweets were published in 2022 and Pi-hole is actively being developed, so I think some of the teething problems he mentioned might have cleared up or are at least being addressed.)

Pi-hole website (gives broad strokes of the software and imho is not actually that helpful, however this proves that I am not making shit up)

Pi-hole documentation (read prerequisites carefully, you do NOT need the newest model of Raspberry Pi to run this thing!! You don't even need a Raspberry Pi at all, you can run it on a bunch of Linux systems however I'm very stupid when it comes to Linux and when my options are install and learn a whole ass new OS or spend $$ on a Raspberry Pi and hook it up to my TV with a wired mouse and keyboard I will unfortunately be spending money)

Privacy International's guide to setting up Pi-hole on a Raspberry Pi (bro this one saved our asses)

You guys can ask me questions if you want but I guarantee I will not know the answers bc I don't know shit about fuck, I just followed the directions and reaped the rewards. It did take us 2 hours to set up bc I'm bad at following directions (and it's kind of complicated if you've been out of the software game for a while like I have), and you do have to be sososo brave about fucking around with your internet provider's configuration. So make sure you eat before you do it!! However it has been so worth it for me so far, given that now all my devices at home are running faster and I'm not seeing any ads while web browsing. We will see what complaints my family comes up with, but I love it so far.

Also!! if you've never heard of Raspberry Pi, which I realize are not all of my followers are lost in the Silicon Valley sauce so you might not have, here's is their website and their page for using Raspberry Pi at home.

(And here is the Electronic Frontier Foundation, a nonprofit that fights for digital privacy, free speech, and innovation, if you, like me, were presented with cold hard data about your personal internet usage and suddenly realized that our internet is fully a dystopia. haha.)

[acquitarte]

After a few months with pi-hole, I recently switched to AdGuard Home. It was recommended/is co-promoted in a pi-hole discord server, and it seems to be blocking a bit more successfully/consistently for me than the pi-hole did.

I also use Blokada on my phone when I'm not home and have the Windscribe browser extension which includes 10GB of free VPN traffic and has uBlock integrated into it. (AdGuard does technically make things that do this but I like those better; ymmv).

It all takes some setup and tinkering, but I highly, highly recommend taking steps to clear out some of the internet garbage and protect your info.

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[flagellant]

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

[coffee-or-hot-cocoa]

i need all the help i can get for finals

[finnglas]

Hey so

the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like. 

So you know. 

This might be the real one, y’all.

[ladyadrasteia666]

Reblogging to spread the luck and the good fortune

[briarscreek]

reblogging cause i hope im getting a raise soon

[honey-on-your-tongue]

Dear gods please help me

[deanimation]

I need an awesome new full-time job asap, PLEASE 😭