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Look at me, I’ve come crawling back like every fucker else because Twitter is even more vile and hellish than usual.
I haven’t posted consistently on here in four or five years. It’s like a little time-capsule of the person I used to be. It’s…. A lot. The drafts alone are… 🫠
But, I don’t know. There’s something exciting about logging in again. I love this site. It’s full of unhinged Stans, aspiring writers and artists. It’s a big bag on Internet weird and I love it.
Goals. 📚👍🏻 #positivity #productive #expandingmymind #reading #bookworm #englishgraduate #hobby #gettingbackintoit #healthymind #mumlife #cantspell
I still haven’t finished this FUCKING challenge.
SIMON Cowell revealed he axed Sir Philip Green and Little Mix to clear toxic people from his business. The X Factor and Britain’s Got Talent mogul decided to speak out after months of being dogged …
The full article. Not much more in here than in the teaser but man oh man does it feel like he is hedging against…..something.
Although there is this little gem: “He said: ‘The only reason I got annoyed was that it’s easy to paint this picture of Syco as this dark, awful place where all we’re trying to do is rip artists off and make them unhappy.’”
It is indeed. Incredibly easy.
hm, i wonder why it’s so “easy to paint this picture of Syco as this dark awful place where all we’re trying to do is rip artists off and make them unhappy.” Let’s take a look at their track record…
Leona Lewis: “In 2013 [Leona Lewis] released Motown-inspired album Christmas, with Love, on which Lewis showed off her classical training with a stunning recording of “Ave Maria”. The album was made on the condition that her next album would be a studio album, but that didn’t happen. Instead, when she said no to a covers album she was left with nothing to work on for about a year.”
Louisa Johnson: XF signed to Syco for three years without getting to release an album, cut loose this summer. (She was shuffled to another Sony label, MOS.)
Alex & Sierra: Dropped from Syco/Columbia without even being given a heads up, Simon Cowell cutting off contact entirely.
Ella Henderson: after releasing a #1 album and completing her sophomore album in 2016, she was strung along for 2 more years before being dropped. [x,x]
Reggie n Bollie: dropped after releasing 2 singles, their promised album never released.
Steve Brookstein: “Within nine months [of winning The X Factor], Brookstein’s “million pound” record deal with Simon Cowell’s label was terminated. He had barely seen his former mentor, hadn’t even released a single, and walked away without a penny.”
Fleur East: Dropped after 1 album and two years of no new releases.
Ben Haenow: Dropped a year after releasing his debut album.
Bea Miller: Had a joint deal with Hollywood Records/Syco - despite that, Syco failed to release her album in the UK and her second album released only via Hollywood records was her first international release. [She remains with Hollywood records and released three EPs and an album with them.]
Chris Rene: Joint Epic/Syco deal–released one EP in 2012 and has gone completely silent since, no trace of him on any Sony site.
Emblem3: dropped after releasing their first album.
Rachel Crow: Joint Syco/Columbia deal, released one EP in 2012, went silent for 5 years before emerging with a single from a different label.
Sam Bailey: released a #1 album and was dropped within the year.
Melanie Amaro: winner of XF US season one: her album was never released and she was dropped.
Ronan Park: Joint Epic/Syco deal, released one album and was dropped less than a year later.
Alexandra Burke: Released one album with Syco, was shuffled onto RCA and dropped after releasing another album with them. “I think no artist should ever be restricted in what they want to do in life, because it’s their music, voice and face going out in the world to promote whatever they want to put out there.” x // “ Fingers crossed for progression and improved efficiency (sic.)” x
Loveable Rogues: Released one single and were subsequently dropped.
Matt Cardle: Joint deal with Columbia/Syco, was de-prioritized by One Direction. “I just wanted to be a priority - at that stage of the game I had to be. If I wasn’t, I would have rotted on Sony and nothing would have happened.“I would just have been left to get on with it while One Direction ruled the planet.”
Cher Lloyd: Joint Epic/Syco deal. Second album was delayed and received no promotional push. She was dropped and she lamented that Simon’s control issues made her time with Syco difficult. (x / x)
Westlife: Split from Syco after 13 years after being de-prioritized. They were shuffled to RCA and released one GH album before disbanding. (They have reunited under a different label.)
Shayne Ward: Dropped from Syco after releasing the album they pushed back for nearly 3 years.
Joe McElderry: Dropped two months after releasing his debut album, which was plagued by bad timing and marketing.
Paul Potts: Dropped from Syco after his second album peaked at #5, seemingly de-prioritized for Susan Boyle, moved to Sony Music.
Escala: released one album in 2009 and re-emerged with an independent album 7 years later.
Bianca Ryan; Signed a 5 record deal with Syco/Sony but was dropped after releasing only one. She also stated she didn’t have a say on what went on her album at all and recorded in 2 weeks as per Syco’s demands [x].
George Sampson: Released one single under Syco and was subsequently dropped, claiming “Things aren’t going so well with me and Simon. I suppose he’s realised he can make more money out of other people.‘But I thought we were tight. I had one of the best-selling DVDs at the start of the year. We sold loads of copies. But I’ve just found out that Simon’s company takes 90 per cent of the revenue. I get 10 per cent, but I have to pay the production costs out of that. So I ended up owing them money. I’m not quite sure how it all works, but that can’t be fair, can it?”
Angelis: A group created by Simon and who released a #2 album and were fired by him shortly after its release.
Leon Jackson: Dropped from Syco after releasing one album, has complained about his XF/Cowell pushed image.
Same Difference: Dropped from Syco after releasing one album.
Rebecca Ferguson: Has spoken out extensively about her experiences in the industry.
so there seems to be a bit of a pattern, doesn’t it? regardless of what mr cowell wants to push.
Holy shit. I didn't realise Syco were so terrible.
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That kind of love that makes you feel like you're sat inside a giant marshmallow, surrounded by kittens, being licked on the cheeks by unicorns and having just watched Star Wars for the first time. But like, all the time. ❤️🖤 #love #couples #couplegoals #bestfriend #mylove #datenight #italianfood #cute #saturday #date #lipstick #nerds #butterflies #truelove #redlips #restaurant https://www.instagram.com/p/BmGxcC7nx3p/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lolgg75hc5tu
Our first photo together popped up. Those happy little faces #😭😭😭😭😍😍😍😍
I have nothing to wear. At least one of these dresses is eight years old. #wardrobe #colourcoordination #organised #fashion #clothes #needmoreblack #colour #floral
Here's to self-improvement. Some charity shop book finds. I've really struggled to get back into reading since I graduated and my daughter was born. I'm challenging myself to start reading consistently again. I'm also hoping it will help me to write consistently as well. #charityshop #literature #reading #selfimprovement #coffee #morning #whatimreading #challangingmyself #graduate #writer #writing
Why is it that the unhealthier version of myself is still more appealing? That dress I'm wearing in both of these pictures is a petite size 6 from Topshop and at the time that photo was taken, it was LOOSE. Fast forward to today and obviously it doesn't really fit anymore (well it kind of does as long as I don't move, breath or speak) I'm healthier and happier. I never had an eating disorder, I just didn't want to eat a lot and misery and anxiety and a bunch of other things made me suddenly thin, like really thin. But what that did to my body has really distorted the way I see myself. Being miserable helped me inadvertently achieve the something close to the body type of all The Beautiful People. By The Beautiful People, I mean the Gigi Hadids and the Kendall Jenners of this world. The willowey angular models and actresses with their impossible cheekbones and delicate upper arms. I don't have that body anymore but I guess my point is, I shouldn't want it, I shouldn't mourn for it. My body now is fine, more than fine, I look good. But even typing that just now, I am lying to myself because fundamentally I just cannot see that - for some reason. We are all our own worst critic and beauty companies, diet companies, magazines, designers, retailers they know this and take full advantage of it. I know steps are being made to use models that demonstrate more diversity in body type and ethnicity but it's just not happening quickly enough. I am just one person, who doesn't have an eating disorder, who is of an ethnicity that - let's face it - is over represented in the media and is between a size 8 and 10... Yet I struggle to see myself as beautiful (despite being told literally every single day by my boyfriend). And my heart breaks for those who cannot find their kind of beautiful in media, who feel the need to starve themselves or bleach their skin or squat till their arse is five times it's original size. I just hope when my daughter becomes a teenager, I have laid a good foundation in order for her to be able to question beauty standards and give her the confidence to know that however she turns out, she will be beautiful.
This was one lazy-ass little flutterby. 🦋🌹🌿 #butterfly #nature #dayout #wheelgatefarm #cute #love #motherdaughter #learning #kidsofinstagram #insects #qualitytime
I hope that as a mother I will always remember to tell E that she's clever, confident, kind, funny, creative, artistic and not just call her pretty all the time... Because girls can and should be admired for more than their looks... But she really is the prettiest girl I've ever seen. #mother #mumsofinsta #kidsofinstagram #pretty #love #happy #empowerment #toddlersofinstagram #cute #parenting
Who got the... POWER? #happy #littlemix #power #empowerment #fangirl #3aaacricketground #love #mixer #redlips #makeup
When you think you're the fifth member of Little Mix... ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 #littlemix #derby #gig #loveislove #mixer #ionlycriedalittlebit #jadethirwall #lgbt #secretlovesong #best #gig #ever
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That Crazy Little Thing Called Love
I wish I could offer out a hug to every single person who no longer finds joy in their relationship, to every person who feels neglected by their partner, who no longer feels respected, encouraged or admired.
Relationshit is hard.
We are taught that loving ourselves is conceited and therefore an ugly trait but if you don’t love yourself – in the immortal words of RuPaul - how in the hell are you going to love somebody else… But further to that, how the hell are you going to know what kind of love you deserve?
I certainly never have.
Maybe I’m unique in a way. It wasn’t until the age of 16 that someone actually asked me out. Admittedly, they weren’t entirely my type and I much preferred them as a friend. But ultimately I said no because I had braces. That’s it. That’s why I didn’t want to be in a relationship at the time. I had never kissed anyone and I was damned if I was going to let someone kiss me for the first time with a shit tonne of metal and glue in my mouth.
I remember during my A-levels a teacher asking us to complete a special homework project in the run-up to Christmas about love. It was supposed to be a creative piece. Basically, something fun for us to do that wasn't geared towards our actual A-level. Well I did not take this project very well. I found the whole thing insensitive and inappropriate. I was hurt and angry. Not only had I not been in a relationship but the first person I truly had a crush on had not long since rejected me (and he was a year below me so I was doubly wounded). So I refused to do it and acted like a total brat in front of my English Literature group.
Literally two weeks after that, I fell in love for the first time. The time we spent together was the first time since being a child that I felt genuinely happy. He taught me that I was worthy of love, he made me believe that there was something worth loving about me, he taught me to be spontaneous, to not be afraid, to live in the moment and let any anxiety go. He taught me about kindness.
He also taught me about hurt. He really hurt me. He broke my heart, twice, then he died. That’s not something every nineteen-year-old goes through. In fact not many young adults at all (unless you’re starring in a channel four drama about young teens or a serial about lesbians).
This turned my world upside down. Mostly because I let it. What do you do when you spent your life trying to be a half decent human, when you barely got drunk, never took drugs, never bunked off school, had about two detentions, worked hard at school, got good grades, liked the teachers, did your best to be a good friend etc etc etc…. Basically I was the quietest, mousiest girl in school and I did not expect to have my heart ripped out, shat on and thrown in the fucking bin by the universe.
And what’s more, one of the kindest, most unique, caring and individualistic people I had ever met was taken at the age of nineteen and I could not fucking compute. So I self-destructed in the most beautiful way and oh my Christ sometimes I still wonder how I still have friends.
By the time I met my daughter’s father I was so done with it all. I was more than confused, I was barely passing university, I was out drinking at EVERY AVAILABLE OPPORTUNITY, I never got up before 11am if I could possibly help it. I hated myself. More than I ever had in school.
Maybe he knew that. Maybe he could see I was vulnerable and so desperate to be loved and to feel safe again. Or maybe he was not capable of love and I thought I could help him. Or maybe he just never understood how to love someone in the right way. Or maybe he was just as broken as me. Either way, by this point I craved anything that made me feel wanted – even if that meant not being respected or loved in the way I deserved. And that is on me.
The thing about relationships is that a lot of people are incapable of actually seeing their relationship for what it is. From an outside perspective. If you’ve ever had a friend in shitty relationship then you probably know this all too well.
You may think you know your partner better than anyone – at least at that particular period of their lives. You may know everything about them, their darkest secrets, their fantasies, the food they like, their favourite film, their earliest memory and the name of their first fucking pet… everything. So you make up excuses for their behaviour, and furthermore, you only know yourself as a lover, as a partner through their eyes.
I came out of that relationship thinking I was the most difficult person to be with, I thought I was selfish, moody, demanding, spoilt and self-destructive. Maybe those things are true about me to a certain extent.
However, being in the relationship I am in now has completely changed my outlook on myself and the kind of partner I am. I knew when I met my current partner that this was it. This was all I wanted and that I never wanted to have to go through another heartbreak again – whether that be by my own hand or by my partner’s. So I resolved to be hyperaware of what I wanted and how I wanted to be treated. Most of all I wanted to treat the other person with the utmost respect love and trust because quite frankly, I thought that I would eventually end up being a burden to him like I had felt in relationships before and I loved him so much `I just never wanted him to feel like that. Like he was stuck with me. But here’s the thing… I don’t think he’ll ever feel that way. He gets annoyed when I apologize, he looks aghast when I put myself down (which I probably do at least once a day). He cooks for me when I’m tired, he takes me to work on a Saturday morning so I get an extra half hour in bed, he watches my favourite films with me and so far his biggest grievance with me is my incapability to shut cupboard doors.
This isn’t me talking shit about the people I’ve loved in the past. This is me simply saying that maybe if love is really, really hard work, like draining the life force out of you and making you hurt so much that all you want to do is curl into a tiny ball and sob your heart out... Then all the hard work in the world isn’t going to make it better. We’re sold this idea that if you love someone then with perseverance and struggle you will live a long, fulfilled and happy life together... Not now, but one day when your phantom kids have flown the nest, you’re retired and all the hard shit in your life is out of the way.
What I’m saying is you, we, I, deserve better. Be with someone who doesn’t make the hard shit harder.
Aubergine, garlic, chilli and chorizo risotto that I made last night. It was way too good. #cooking #food #foodporn #yum #italianstyle #veggies #dinner #evening
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