I'm Depressed, Nothing New

24 yr old trans nb (they/them) diagnosed with mdd and bpd. A (mainly) venting sideblog. cw for blood, drugs, self harm, negative posts, etc. Not a pro-recovery blog but a pro-survival one.

[abpdmess]

Mood of the day lads

[thefirstpunch]

'i don't want to see a man wearing exposing clothing and striking a feminine pose' WELL I DO‼️‼️‼️

[abpdmess]

Why does creating a Spotify blend with someone feel more intimate than fucking them would

[abpdmess]

Relapses are so damn good at making me feel hopeless

[abpdmess]

Bpd is retyping how you say yes to hanging out with someone 20 different times cuz the amount of enthusiasm has to be just right or you will die

[killerquetiapine]

it feels like there’s a mini psych ward inside my brain

[abpdmess]

My feet are itching to get the fuck out of here

[abpdmess]

Me rn after smoking 2 joints and poppin a few addys

[abpdmess]

Pussy so good had him saying I love you lmao

[abpdmess]

Sorry I can't hear you over the fact that I'm god

[vampryn]

Full agoraphobic Losing focus, cover blown A book on getting better Hand-delivered by a drone Total disassociation Fully out your mind Googling “derealisation” Hating what you find That unapparent summer air in early fall The quiet comprehending of the ending of it all bo burnham - inside

[abpdmess]

hunger is an oddly purifying and comforting feeling

[abpdmess]

The russian roulette of brain meds working or actively making you worst is fucking exhausting

[shurington]

when hayley williams said ‘no i don’t need no help i can sabotage me by myself’ my anxiety felt that

[intopermanence]

“If there is a God, I’d like to look him in the face knowing I’d died as I’d lived. In conscious sin.”

— Sarah Kane, from The Complete Plays: “Phaedra’s Love”

[animatedtext]

[exhaustedborderline]