not so temporary

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Intro

[old, this is just going to be for stuff I don't want on main]

vent blog. I'm doing something stupid but want to share things in the meantime. will be shocked if this stays around for long. Side blog, so idk you won't see me many places

comet or ck collectively

Kit Cat Collective

We're a system (mixed origin), still trying to figure shit out. Consciousness is weird and fronting is stranger. We all hold onto front even when we or someone else don't want us to. We don't really have amnesia barriers that I've noticed We lose specific memories of what other folks have done, but generally speaking we know what happened and when. We aren't the best at telling who's in front, but we don't mind being treated as one.

Veyrow - 👁️‍🗨️ - He/Him

Rue -🪻- Any/All [He/It/She/They/Voi/Bun]

Abel - 🪷 - They/She with a preference for feminine terms

(?) Maple - 🪵 - They/She with a preference for feminine terms. More mature instance of Abel (we think. it's also possible Abel just changes/acts different in different scenarios. no internal comms is not helping.)

Comet (only seen for 2 days) - ☄️ - He/It/Voi/They

(?) Fern (Not been seen since maybe December) - 🌿 - She/Her (assumed)

Riley - 🦔 - He/They

Greg - 🎞️ - He/She

Blurry - 🌪️ - Don't know who's fronting

? - ⛓️‍💥 - For new people when we don't know if we're sticking around

I can't spell and it makes me mad sometimes

ill try to tag things correctly

(host/🪻 is a) Jax fictionkin hence the abstraction in the blog name

very bad at hydrating + hypermobile

autistic, I take things at face value a lot (esp people)

comet's rambles - yapping

comet's rants - a vent or complaint (probably mental struggles)

comet's existence - something that's not quite a vent but not happy (likely more physical stuff)

comet's reblogs - reblogs

i don't think I'll need more

y'all are not getting my main but you're welcome to guess

[leathersys]

our thoughts all sound pretty similar so this happens a lot

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have really got to remember I'm plural and the haze is an attempt at switching

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uh oh. I definitely begged Vey to take over at some point and I think I heard him (he back! ippee!) but I don't remember when. I think it was first period but there's a real possibility it was yesterday or something

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i know it's not a choice and I shouldn't be but by god am I jealous of some of my mutuals. Because they're demifamilial. and I'm hyperfamilial.

I meet a new person and I like them? a very good chance my stupid stupid brain auto assigns them a sibling role, or just decides "you're family and I care about your more than I should for someone I have 20 minutes tops of interaction with" and especially when you have afamilial spec friends it's rough. even worse when you combine it with abandonment issues and anxiety so bad the first time I even jokingly called someone my sibling was yesterday. I said hy was my brother now because hy asked if we could trade mom's and I asked if theirs was cool with a touch of kidnapping. Rib's not even the one I've known for the longest.

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know I've never really thought about it before but it's probably really fucking weird if anyone stumbles across my main after one of my mutuals sent me an ask bc once I got "Proud of you :) -GOD" and a few others from them and I only really respond "thanks god" which is probably really really random if you don't know the secret lore found deep in a different mutual's discord server

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hahaha I am back. suckers. I think. I'm making Winnie a labrador because i know why they chose that name. Other than because they wanted Alice but we didn't want awkwardness bc classmate.

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I'll take Winnie I guess oh gods I took a character name again it wasn't intentional this time. uhhh 🌩️ I guess because I might be a flash

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I was gonna pick an story name but the one I thought of initially is one of our classmates and we try not to take names that we know others have. whimsy name ideas from stories anyone?

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fUcKkkkkkkkk Greg is gone I think. but. who am iiiiii. Heather but happy? Abel in a return arc? could be rue if they're weirdly femme but that feels wrong. also the horrors of a new person and needing to pick a name and pronouns and a pfp. Greg got out of that by just using fucking Lestrade.

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Watch me actually end up as a Lestrade fictive. I think I just like his name and the show but it's certainly interesting. Apparently our friend didn't want to hear about Sherlock at 1am.

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Calling myself Greg to piss off my headmates (two characters they like have first name Greg (Lestrade from Sherlock and House from House which are two of our comfort shows)). I don't really want to be here but I guess I am. He/She or something.

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is. is our host a fucking subsystem. is that the issue. because half of us also go by her name. And we keep feeling like them but not exactly them? like we definitely switched but also we were very very close to Rue still. Does it have a subsystem where they're all very similar is that why there are 20000(exaggeration) instances of Rue.

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Me: "Oh yeah, I have accepted that I am a system!"

Also me:

• Is afraid to let others front, despite trying it before and knowing people don't care

• Suppressed out individuality in fear of... something

• Panics when I don't remember something, because "omg, what if I acted weirdly and people are weirded out"

• Is afraid of even being openly plural to myself, since "what if I am making it up?", despite other headmates yelling at me that I am not

• "Oh, I should stop talking to myself."

• "Oh, I should stop being weird."

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the gals and I are going to have to deal with no boobs bc when we're old enough I'm getting top surgery for me and the boys. These suckers are annoying as hell. I'll get us some bra with fake tits if they really need it but I'm pretty sure they'll be fine

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Ok so.

If I am plural.

Did I like change last night before I went to bed and I like changed to this annoyed version of me???

But that doesnt make sense and it could just be a mood swing

Can you have different versions of yourself????

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damn where'd those fuckers go haven't even seen Heather in a few days. Haven't seen vey in agessss i need bro back soon