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To My Birth Mother:

I don’t know where to begin with this. I have no idea how too. I guess I should start with how you ruined my life. From the time I was born it was clear that I was not what you wanted in life. You know you didn’t want a daughter. You wanted the son you already had. I lived an amazing 7 years of my life not knowing you existed. Those were the best 7 years of my life. When I found out who you were I was okay with not being with you. I had all I needed with the amazing people I call parents. Heck I think I have always been okay with not being with you....after all you treat my brother like he is less than human. You don’t understand the pain and suffering you have caused me since then. You act like you want me back so bad but yet you do things to make me suffer. Why is that? Why would you want me back if I messed your life up so bad from the time you took the test? Maybe you wouldn’t have been that way if the drugs hadn’t messed you up, or maybe if you hadn’t spent the bill money on drugs. I mean it got to the point you had an AFFAIR which I was the product of all because my dad gave you your drug fix like you wanted. I often think about what you thought about while you were pregnant with me. Did you think of ways to hurt me...? Have you always wanted me to be messed up? I may never know but I do know one thing...You have caused me so much stress and anxiety that it is actually nuts. I am going to be okay with or without you and that is all that matters. You may have hurt me but you didn’t ruin me and you never will.

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Books Are Better Than People:

From a young age and really for as long as my brain lets me remember I have loved reading or being read to. Obviously as a child books like “If You Give A Mouse A Cookie” or “Junie B. Jones” but as I got older I realized that I enjoyed reading for a much different reason. When I pick up a book I forget the real world even exists. I don’t realize where I am or who I am around. As a child I can remember reading chapter books in Kindergarten. I didn’t have to take a reading class because I was beyond my grade level in advancement. Even at the age of 4 and 5 reading captivated me and took me to places that I couldn’t possibly imagine being. As I got older however I made a realization that I wasn’t just reading for fun anymore...I was reading to escape my mind. Depression and anxiety hit me like an oncoming train going 700mph. I was always told that you “can’t escape your own mind” but I was determined to try. That’s when I realized books helped me do just that. Reading helped me escape the damage that my mind was causing to the rest of me. Reading gave me what I wanted. It gave me a place to go and relax without actually having to pack a suitcase and go anywhere. No strings attached all I had to do was grab a book and leave. As my parents began noticing my anxious behavior and depressive displays they began taking me to a therapist. This is where the title of this post comes in. The therapist made it all seem like it was in my head. She would go on and on about “coping skills” and numbers to call if I felt like killing myself, but I didn’t want those things. I wanted a million dollars and a day in Barnes & Noble. Slowly I began realizing that reading was helping me more than anything or anyone. It’s been almost 5 years since I was officially diagnosed with a list of mental disorders longer that my list of TBR’S and I am still suffering. Books however have helped me so so much. So much more than some random lady in an office could ever begin to imagine. So much more than any person. In conclusion books in my opinion will always be better than people. POINT BLANK. It truly is about finding what makes you happiest and sticking too it. Because believe me....it really does help.

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Source.

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PAR-A-DISE

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If only he could see this....

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What It’s Like Without Him Here.

We all have been through a situation where someone leaves. Maybe its for a few days, or weeks or even months. Whatever the case may be we have all dealt with the pain of someone leaving. But when the person leaving is the love of your life..that shit is way different. People come and go. They pass by like traffic on a busy street, but when the person you love has to leave or chooses to....it’s like you walked into that traffic and every single car hits you and no one stops. When I was told that my boyfriend had no choice but to go back to a state that’s almost 8 hours away I was crushed. Things like that only happen in books and movies. And even though he will be back as soon as his situation allows it was like a train had ran over me and that train had no end, Love is one of the most painful emotions and feelings to ever have. Falling into it is even worse. There are times when I forget he isn’t here and just text him and tell him to come over and hold me, or ask him if we can go to lunch..but he reminds me he isn’t here and I go numb. My whole future rests with a man that is thousands of miles from here.....but no matter what he will hold the key to the lock that is on my heart. Until you get home my love.....I love you. M.A.H

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The Saddest Moments In Life Are Man Made.

What is the saddest thing that has ever happened to you? Think about it. Maybe it was losing a pet or a loved one.  Or maybe it was trying something you never though you’d try and messing up For me these aren’t it at all. For me the saddest moment of my life was learning the person I love was moving 2,000 miles away with no way to stop it. All I could do was sit and watch as he packed his things and went away..again. It had only been 3 days of him being back that he had to pack up and move back to a place that I would have no chance of seeing him ever again. Love is something that no matter where you go or what you do should always travel with you. In this case it will. When someone leaved weather it be by death or just a move it seems gut wrenching. The one person whom I needed most is just gone like a grain of sand blowing away in a hurricane. The thing about it is...time seems to stop. It seems like you’re jumping into an unknown world where everything moves slower. Everything moves so slow it seems like it could stop at any moment in time and never start again. I think love is the most complex thing ever to be in existence. It can make you laugh and cry all at once. Watching this person leave for me was like watching someone walk out of a door and there’s no way to stop it. You can’t stop it because you’re bound at the hands to a chair and they are on a moving path that doesn’t stop until they reach their end destination. So maybe I am over exaggerating or maybe my heart truly is breaking inside....because the saddest moments are in fact man made and there isn’t a damn thing we can do to stop them...

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He Doesn’t Love Me Like He Used To....

Recently I have noticed that someone special in my life has given up trying with me. Now as many people as I have had give up on me you would think it wouldn’t bother me. You would think he too could be brushed off like the bits of eraser that get on your paper after you erase that math problem. Now don’t get me wrong there have been people who I’ve been able to do this with....but not him. I have a tendency to fall hard and REALLY fast. So when he and I met I fell. Like slipping on ice I fell. I knew there were circumstances about falling for this person because his future was already laid out for him and well I don’t think I have one. I was told to prepare for it because he didn’t know if I was gonna be the person in his future due to the reason his was laid out. So I did. I prepared and planned. Found ways to cope and more. But today he got news that broke not only his heart but mine. He wouldn’t talk to me and turned his phone off. Now I understand rules are rules and I understand what's going on will change him but...being without his texts and voice not knowing if he is okay? I felt that in my chest. I felt the pain in my chest when I called and it went straight to voicemail. I knew then that I wasn’t going to hear from him for a VERY long while. He’s gone through the same things I have. He’s broken and so am I. All I wanted was to help fix him but looking back I am pretty sure all I have done was made it worse. Maybe that is all I am good at is making things worse on everyone. Maybe all I am good for is hurting people. I don’t know what God was thinking when he made me but I know the only thing I want is to unmake myself. So here is to the guy that I love more than words can describe........stay strong and I love you.....

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To All The Bullies In The World.

I was requested to do a post about bullying as much as it pains my soul that I would even have to do this I will always do what you guys want to see. 

Bullying is a very close topic to me as I experience it every single day that I show my face at school. While it may seem innocent enough these people have NO IDEA what it does to me emotionally. Emotional and mental pain hurt far worse than any physical pain ever could. Often times you hear people say “oh they are saying it to make themselves feel better” or “ignore it and they will stop because you aren’t reacting.” Little do they understand if you don’t react it causes it to get worse. Bullies seem to not understand the fact that everyone has emotions. Sometimes I like to think they think they are “hard” or “tough” and to prove it they need to be little someone into a teeny grain of sand. The human mind is amazing it can with hold so much information but it can only stand so much trauma. Words are so very powerful weather you realize it or not. It may seem cliché to say but you really never know what some0one is going through and with the wrong choice of words you could possibly give them that final reason they have been looking for to hurt themselves or even end their life. Suicide is the THIRD leading cause of death in teenagers. Most of which have been pushed into thinking the only way to end the verbal abuse is to end the one beautiful gift they have. Life is such a gift and no one should EVER feel like they have to end it. So next time you feel like making fun of someone think about what they could do to themselves. Bullying isn’t cute. It doesn’t make you look cool. It makes you look like a complete asshole and if you feel the need to put someone down for their differences you are an asshole plain and simple. 

Guys I just want you to know you are beautiful/handsome and you are NEVER EVER what the words people say to you. You are worth everything and no matter what happens you are never alone. You are so loved by so many people even if you don’t see it. Suicide and self harm is NEVER the answer. If you are being bullied tell someone. Keep telling them until they believe you and if they don’t tell someone else until they do. 

I LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH!!!!

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If they do not want you as you are, they do not deserve to have you.

Julie Plec (via purplebuddhaquotes)

This is something I will preach until the end of eternity 

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Everything I Have Wanted To Say To The Person Who Broke My Heart.

Many of us if not all of us have been through that one heartbreak that seems IMPOSSIBLE to get over. Maybe because you were with that person for a LONG time or because you were friends before the relationship came to be. \Whatever the case may be let’s just say it didn’t end well. So here is what I have (and maybe even some of you) have wanted to say to the person who broke your heart. 

The day I met you I knew something special was going to become of us. Whether it was just friendship or more. I saw something in your eyes that made me light up inside. The way your laugh made me slime so big or the way you never failed to make me laugh. Our relationship started off so smooth. Like walking on a path of silk. Everything was fairytale like and that made me feel amazing. We did so much together. All the memories are flooding back like a tsunami now. We got to know each other more and your smile didn’t just make me happy it was infectious. Your laugh was my favorite sound. Then one day we started drifting. I didn’t know why but I didn’t want to ask because I figured you had a valid reason for it. Your smile turned into a frown and you didn’t laugh as much anymore. Finally after all those months you said those words that I knew were coming and I thought I had prepared myself enough for. You told me we were “over.” I felt a tightness form in my chest and a numbness in my head, but you walked away like it never even happened. So my question is why...? Why did I put in so much for you to leave like it was nothing another stop on your pathway of life? Was I even worth all the time and effort? Did you really even put effort into what we had? How about when you told me those three little yet powerful words...did you mean those? I loved you with all my heart and you gave me maybe half of yours. It has been a while since we broke it off but some nights I stay up wondering a tear rolling down my cheek. Maybe I just wasn’t what you wanted...but boy you were all I wanted. 

Always remember guys heartbreak isn’t easy and you may not get over it for a LONG time. But there is someone who has plans to make sure your heart never brakes again. Someone out there even though they may not know it is going to fall madly for you and will do everything in their power to keep your heart from breaking. 

REMEBER YOU ARE WORTH IT! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL/HANDSOME AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!

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Her first real word was “no” but she found it harder and harder to say as she grew older.

- Kristen Costello

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Part of my problem is I give to many chances because I feel bad for pushing people out of my life. 

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♡♡ UNISEX GRAPHIC TEES ♡♡

I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR HATE, RACISM TEE

SOME PEOPLE ARE GAY TEE

NO ONE IS BORN HATING TEE

MAKE EMPATHY GREAT AGAIN TEE

RAISE BOYS AND GIRLS THE SAME WAY TEE

F*CK DEFINITION TEE

SMELLS LIKE THE ONLY NIRVANA SONG YOU KNOW TEE

WHY BE RACIST, SEXIST OR HOMOPHOBIC TEE

DON’T KILL MY VIBE TEE

MAY YOUR LIFE BE AS AWESOME TEE

I FORGIVE YOU TEE

GIRL POWER TEE

GOOD GIRLS GO TO HEAVEN TEE

 KEEP DOING WHAT YOU LOVE TEE

LIFE IS SHORT & SO IS YOUR PENIS TEE

GIRLS CAN DO ANYTHING TEE

I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR HATE, RACISM TEE

THE WORLD HAS BIGGER PROBLEMS TEE

MAKEUP HAS NO GENDER TEE

I WORK HARD SO MY CAT CAN HAVE A BETTER LIFE TEE

DAY & NIGHT TEE FOR BESTIES

NO PLACE FOR HOMOPHOBIA TEE

GIRLS SUPPORT GIRLS TEE

BLACK IS MY HAPPY COLOUR TEE

SUPPORT YOUR LOCAL GIRL GANG TEE

IN A WORLD FULL OF TENS BE AN ELEVEN TEE 

MEXICO IS NOT THE ONLY LATIN COUNTRY TEE

ANIMALS ARE FRIENDS NOT FOOD TEE

EAT P*SSY NOT ANIMALS TEE

THE NEIGHBOURHOOD TEE

ART IS A WAY OF SURVIVAL TEE

I DON’T WANT FEELINGS, I WANT NEW CLOTHES TEE

WEAR BLACK OR STAY NAKED TEE

NOT CUTE JUST PSYCHO TEE

BOOBS TEE

SO TIRED TEE

CUSTOMIZE YOUR OWN DESIGN HERE

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Leakey’s Bookstore

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I don’t normally share other people’s pictures but this looks like HEAVEN!!!!!

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One day, whether you are 14, 28 or 65, you will stumble upon someone who will start a fire in you that cannot die. However, the saddest, most awful truth you will ever come to find - is they are not always with whom we spend our lives.

Beau Taplin (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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And one day the girl with the books became the woman writing them.

- Kristen Costello