side blog

adhd, bpd, and a sprinkle of suicidal thoughts

[delusionalanddown-deactivated20]

I don't even live for myself anymore. I only live for others and still they keep on expecting more and more from me. It's exhausting.

[hatin]

via weheartit

[artandchocolate]

Virginia Woolf - Orlando

[nomenu]

[deceptipup]

bad news everyone

i exist

[adhighdefinition]

*gets distracted from falling asleep*

[vanish]

why do i get so attached.. i just end up mentally and emotionally hurting myself

[bpd-is-exhausting-me]

Why?

[silent-surfing]

Is it better now that i’m not around? are you happy now?

6:23pm (via silent-surfing)

[narcissisticprincess]

do you ever just get too tired to keep up the caring, affectionate facade and just stop talking to people for like three days? it takes a lot of energy to adapt to each person i know and reflect what they want to see so they can show me the appreciation i deserve and sometimes i really just can’t be fucked and feel even emptier. 

[bpd-candy]

Ugh. I feel this.

[c-ptsdofficial]

to do list

- cry

- avoid everyone i know

- not answer texts

- cry some more

[undo-my-scars]

I needed my friends. I needed my friends around and they weren’t there. I guess if I really was their best friend, I should have mattered. But I guess I didn’t.

A part from my old suicide letter I found (via undo-my-scars)

[t-otoro]

[adhdeathh]

bpd issue #46

Me: god I'm so sensitive, why do I feel everything x1000

Also, me: tHE ONLY EMOTION I FEEL IS RAGE!!!

Somehow still, also me: I have never felt any emotions ever. I am stone cold. I could watch the world burn and not give one solitary fuck—

[bpdboppityboo]

TBPDFW someone speaks to you in a tone that you perceive as negative and you immediately split.

[loviely]

i hate living

[beetjekutmaarisok-deactivated20]

I knew I was getting bad again when I saw myself falling back into my old habits

Things I will never say (via wrist-scars)