ADHD MAKES ME ME

You better believe it!

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THE PLAN IS UNFLINCHINGLY RIGID

THE PLAN IS UNFLINCHINGLY RIGID

Something something, you gotta keep a schedule man! I tell myself that all the time.

I need a schedule to keep me in check. On a daily basis. No matter what. I need to be holding myself accountable for every minute of everyday, or I will get absolutely nothing done.

When I had a smart phone, it was easier to do this. I would use the calendar, timer, alarms, and other nifty apps to keep my ass in…

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ADHD - The Relationship Problem Child

ADHD – The Relationship Problem Child

I am literally the worst. I pick fights for no reason, or just for the sake of fighting. Then, when my partner says or does one little thing wrong I jump down his throat and call him an asshole, or pick another fight.

I have serious control issues. If everything is not going exactly as I had planned, I LOSE MY MIND ENTIRELY. I can’t handle change when it is someone else pulling the strings. I can…

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Landing a "Real Job" With ADHD - The Struggle is REAL

Landing a “Real Job” With ADHD – The Struggle is REAL

In my experience, ADHD makes me unmarketable. Nobody wants to hire a child in adults clothing. Hyperactivity, impulsiveness, poor decision-making, are not traits HR looks for in a new hire. These traits have lost me EVERY JOB IN MY LIFE. But how do I break the cycle? How do I find the perfect job for me and my ADHD? If not perfect, how do I find ANYTHING that will work in the long-term for…

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Coexisting Balancing Act

ADHD often coexists with many other mental health "disorders." And when I say coexist, I don't mean that these conditions get along and compliment each other.

ADHD often coexists with many other mental health “disorders.” And when I say coexist, I don’t mean that these conditions get along and compliment each other. They coexist, meaning you get them all as a package deal. (according to CHAAD, “More than two-thirds of individuals with ADHD have at least one other coexisting condition”) This is great news for ADHDers! Not only do our brains not work…

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IMPULSIVITY

I am impulsive. Every decision I have ever made has been on a whim. I just go with the flow. I have for as long as I can remember. This impulsivity is somehow a part of me. I identify with it, I own that shit.

I have done so many impulsive things in my life. I’ve applied for that credit card, slept with that person, screwed around with the other. Said things I didn’t mean. Picked up that drug,…

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Thinking About Thoughts

I do this a lot. Where I find myself thinking about the things I’m thinking about. Then before I know it, the thoughts I was thinking multiply into more thoughts about thinking about thoughts about thinking.

I think about thinking, and why I shouldn’t be thinking, and how I should actually be doing. Then I think about doing instead of doing the thing that I’m thinking. On and on this cycle goes…

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I AM ME - A Poem

I AM ME – A Poem

ADHD makes me, me

I have ADHD

but that’s not all there is to me

I have hopes and dreams

and sides of me that no one sees

  Adhd makes me, me

other things do too

like my lack of filter

my trying too hard

my loving too much

my caring too fiercly

  ADHD makes me, me

and there’s also that part of me

that sees the world like no one sees

the inbetweens

the hidden meanings and underlying message of life…

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Social Media Guidelines for Happiness

Social Media Guidelines for Happiness

Social media is a great tool in our day in age. But I know that I need to be VERY CAREFUL, or I will spiral down into depression, not knowing when I will have the strength to pull myself out.

Social media is fun. You take silly pictures using filters, and you share them with the world along with your thoughts. And you get feedback from your people. At its best, social media can bring people…

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Social Anxiety Thoughts

Social Anxiety Thoughts: How am I an outcast among outcasts?

Why did I just say that?

Wait, I don’t get it…. Just play along, yeah.

They don’t think that’s funny, why would you think that’s funny?

YOU ARE SO LOUD

Eye contact is hard, try not to look at your feet so much though.

Yes, the world amazes you, but don’t let that show so much, people think it’s childish…

You are trying way too hard.

Nobody likes you.

Change the subject already!

How am I an…

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Self-Love

Self-love is one of the fundamentally great things we can do for ourselves to improve every aspect of our life.

Self-love is one of the fundamentally great things we can do for ourselves to improve every aspect of our life. I believe the saying holds true; love yourself and you can then love others – or something like that – but you get the idea.

Draft from 2016, posting because I love this little note.

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I AM ME

I am either highly motivated, or so overwhelmed that I get absolutely nothing done. There is no in-between.

I am either moving way too fast, doing a million things at once – but with great gusto! – or so depressed that I lay in bed paralyzed. There is no in-between.

I am either obsessed, or freaking over it. There is no in-between.

I am either hyperactive to the point of annoyance or so quiet…

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Everything Makes Me Anxious

Everything Makes Me Anxious

Thinking about everything I need to do on a daily basis makes me anxious. I’ve got to do this, I’ve got to do that. I’ve got to be there, I got to get this done. I must do all of these things or I WILL DIE! That’s what my brain tells me anyways, my brain tells me that I need to do all of these fucking things or i am not good enough. Negative thoughts flood my subconscious until I am crying and…

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The gears are turning...

The gears are turning…

A draft from about a year ago, sharing, because this rant is important to me. I made a few edits to take out some of the brain vomit parts. 

Website. Blog. Art. Photos. Magick. Make art. Write things too. Put up a website, keep it up, keep putting yourself out there. Clear you head, work on your art, but don’t try too hard. Create things. Destroy other things and put them in your work. Write all…

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Motherhood, A Note

Draft from 2015, posting because Mother’s Day

Is it just me, or do children fuel our “symptoms?” Our children I should say. Do children of ADHD adults just know how to mess with us, push our buttons, and cause a raging fire within our very souls? Edit: all children do this, it’s part of their developmental process to question everything and push EVERY BOUNDARY. 

Because sometimes, my daughter…

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Relationships Are Hard Work

Relationships Are Hard Work

People with ADHD are kind of self-centered. It has something to do with that prefrontal cortex of ours malfunctioning – or not functioning to capacity. This makes relationships of all kinds difficult for ADHDers to navigate. We miss the big picture. We sometimes lack empathy our partner needs. We have a hard time seeing the good stuff. We blame others, and we get bored very easily. These things…

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ADHD makes me feel like a damn crazy person!

ADHD makes me feel like a damn crazy person!

A draft from 2015 – why didn’t I publish this? This is pure ADHD gold! 

ADHD makes me feel like a damn crazy person!

why, or why does it have to be an acronym for Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder??? The words deficit and disorder make us feel like damaged goods, those words make us feel like we don’t belong.

You see, I have had ADHD my whole life, therefore it is a huge part of my life.…

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A Public Announcement

I drafted this post a few years ago. Decided to publish now, because why not? 

Hello Internet,

My name is Cassie Radziewicz, and i am not writing this blog under a pseudonym, because i don’t think i have to. I am living my life, and blogging about it, why should i hide behind a different name? I cant see why that would be a good idea – plus, I’ve already started this blog, and now there is NO…

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