AdinMe

Health, ideas, tools, and resources for a closer me within me that I am

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Inspirational quote of today

You are loved. An angel loves you. Or a bird. A something. A someone. Loves you.

You are loved.

May you be loved today, may you be blessed. May you be carried into your dreams by the subtle movements of life, rising you and wrapping you with all you need, with the flap of a wing.

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I can't be doing more now, can I ?

I think this sense of .. you know, I am doing a lot, but what if I did more.

More. more, more. More for what?

To get results quicker? To get more results quicker.

When we breach beyond the ego-self, the "I do actually, to show to my tribe I can," then we can easily stay stuck in a time-bounded construct.

That one is harder to breach through. I'm sure destiny and sense of purpose plays a part in it, as well as surrendering to God's divine act of grace.. you know, giving us an interconnecting segway of purpose every instant. It's not an easy job !

If things happen for a reason, and if "it was meant to happen" then isn't time the least of our worry ?

Yet we want to force time. We want to make it happy now, and quicker, and sooner, and stronger. We want better results.

That's an interesting thing.

Almost as if it's not good enough.

Almost as if I am not good enough.

Almost as if I, with more, will be good enough.

Productivity, consistency, rhythm, dedication, hard work are all beautiful qualities. Don't get me wrong. But the sense of dissatisfaction, because I could be doing more. This one seems.. off-putting.

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Innovations & consciousness

Watched someone deep fry a piece of watermelon yesterday, imitating a nice slice of tuna tataki. That's innovation.

I was surprised when I saw this, and I saw many inventive ways of working with food.

I remember I thought once, it will be more and more difficult to have creative ideas. BUT no, in reality, it is the same, it's always been.

It's just perhaps expansion of the consciousness.

Creative ideas can never be saturated.

That's the beautiful thought of the day.

Keep dreaming. Keep living. Keep freeing.

C.

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Last night I had a good conversation

1. Men and women.

"I am trying to understand men" she says.

Reference to the book "Men are from Mars, Woman are from Venus." The advice was to stop trying to understand other planet, and simply pay attention to the signs, and our self-guidance, watch out for red flags against what we value as most important. They won't change. It's hard to change, to want to change and to be experienced professionally to help someone through change. Red flags are irrefutable. They can help us safe energy, time and opportunities if we act out of courage and authenticity before things become comfortable and we trick ourselves into believing it's not that important, but in reality it is because it brings daily frustration.

2. Plan A, Plan B vs just Plan A

-> the speech that broke the internet, Arnold Schwarzenegger, Don't make a plan B. "When I want to go to Hollywood, I didn't have a plan B" "When I wanted to be a bodybuilder, I did not have a plan B" Keep at it, until you get it, no matter what happens along the way. Don't have a plan B "my whole life I never had a plan B"

3. Clarity vs the real implications of Clarity (Clarity has consequences)

-> it's not simply about a moment of clarity, clarity comes at a price

Example: Someone decided to stop drinking alcohol. Finally he decides. It's just too much and he wants to stop. It seems clear to him. That's it ! Then, comes the next social event, and the next social event, everyone's drinking beer, and he is "feeling boring" or keeping judging himself, then he starts to drink again.

This is not clarity. This was motivation to stop, strong motivation. But not clarity. Clarity has implications, it means his life transforms and he is OK with that because it makes sense to him to that level. Clarity has consequences. Clarity is not easy.

4. A good place to find yourself, Malaysia.

-> where to explore and grow a new path diving into self

Every place brings a different kind of dynamic. Malaysia seems to be really beautiful for those who seek new meaning, or a new path, or to create something new. It seems it has that chill/relax attitude, that is expansive, if someone were to tap into that. Not just bar hop, beach visit, and be a foodie. Malaysia seems to offer that quality to those who tap into it.

5. "everything happens for a reason"

-> "you only get what you need"

There is a saying, in spirituality, "you know really get what you need". If you call a client, and they reject you. That's what you need.

There is nothing that happens that you don't need, because it didn't need to happen, so it doesn't.

Everything that happens is what you what you need.

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I did not receive enough love this morning

I think the reason why some days I wake up more groggy than others, or with a bit more dis-ease to start my day or to put a smile on my meditative practices, is that at this moment, I need more love.

Some days feel off, right? Like, a just one of these days.

But - what if all it meant is that you were blocking yourself from receiving love.

To build a home, inside ourselves, means doing what it takes to maintain it, and our home runs on fuel - that fuel is love.

When something is out of balance, when we don't feel a higher level of love, well then, we can actually just infuse love.

Focusing on the beauty.

Focusing one of the grateful moments we've had

Listening to a nice piece of music, dancing...

Calling a friend, hugging someone.

When you feel groggy in the morning, call for love my friends.

Call for love.

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Woke up and my beef bone broth was cooked to the end

This is not a metaphor.

I left a huge piece of bone marrow to simmer overnight, turns out the broth was almost completely dried out by the morning, and I could hear splashes of heat.

I was excited to have ~1L of broth to play with for the next few days, good food for healing the guts. Turns out, I have just bout 1/5 of a cup, which is okay, I will enjoy it in due times.

Yes, it's always better to completely cover the pot, so the water doesn't evaporate much (I did not). But did not think in 12 hours it would reduce this much. Good lesson of the day.

I heard about broths from one of my fitness coaches. She recommended:

-beef bones, for guts -chicken bones, for joints -fish bones, for skin, nails, hair (extremities).

Will go and make another broth now, with a bone piece that fits in the pot !

Bon appetit.

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Woke up this morning feeling some of the lightest I have in years

Can't say I didn't notice it. Is it because of the movie detoxifying I have been doing? The good care I've been taking of myself? The daily workouts? The water fast? The evening belly/chest/head massage? ..

Something happened, this morning.

I thought "what if I woke up everyday this way." ..

The thought of it was just so overpowering and delighting.

To feel this light, I definitely had to go through agony, perseverance, persistence, faith, boredom, time, care-fullness, cautiousness - it didn't just happen.

I got a feeling it can be cultivated. Now that I have had a glimpse at it, on the experiential level, I can relate to it and bring it more into my reality.

But still, i felt a lot of grace. I don't think it's possible to have this feeling living a life of debauchery. Though who knows, it might?

I don't think I am obsessed by this feeling, but definitely noticed it on this lovely morning awakening.

Thank you.

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The secret of personal strength

More so than ever, I feel stronger than ever, especially I realize because in the times where I feel like the biggest reason to just give in, I still push up and it's painful but I did it. I feel that this is my own breakthrough, apart from all the habit lifestyle I live, with explorations of side programs and other tools - I can clearly feel it now, and I had this realization before.. though did not implement it - it's WHEN times are hard, that it's the OPPORTUNITY to truly strengthen that muscle that doesn't actually get strengthened because we keep giving in.

Is this what is the secret of "beyond normal" strength?

They say it's perseverance and willpower.

But what if we could narrow it to just one aspect of growth.

Being aware of the time challenging time, the motivation to give in. And from that moment, realize that it's pushing in THEN that will help us build the muscle we so desire to have the dream life we want.

We move away from broad and inaccessible and mystified concepts such as willpower and perseverance, into a real precise moment that we can create just that, every day, bits by bits.

What I personally feel is the anchoring of that realization, which gives me more so confidence that I can do anything in life..

..Because I now understand - which workout will do just that - on an experiential level.

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Tired day today

I think it's day 5 of water fast. I lost track. Decided not to find the exact time it's been - so I would not have a reason to end it..

You know the "it's already been this much time ... might as well push just to that time, and then stop"

Yet, another reason to stop. But is it genuine?

This is what I am finding out.

Time gives us a reason to do things.

So I told myself, only when I genuinely felt hungry, real hunger from my body. Only then will I eat, no matter how miserable or useless I feel.

This is the goal at least.

Act out of genuine reasons. Or genuine needs.

Or genuine intuition.

And stop giving into reasonings / the traps of the mind.

Helping us give up what we want, without feeling bad about it, (yes, that's right. That's why we give in and stay stuck in the illusion), then have guilt and lack of clarity accumulate in a life of automation and non-authenticity.

It seems the key to the true means is beyond reasoning. And into actual raw impulses that are clear and genuine (with perhaps a set of values that anchors them).

Thank you.

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May you be guided

My life transformed ever since I started “listening to my intuition” or simply looking at the beauty or feel of an alternative/decision and choose it.

The sense of beauty enhanced with time, and practice, which made it gave me more and more clarity in the direction I want to take.

Now, this could all me be. About me. Just Me who becomes more clear, because I meditate and experiment with food, and am more aligned as a being.

But what if.. the clearer I become, the clearer I can feel guidance around me. And this is a collective workflow.

We are all part of a greater picture. One that fits in the divine plan.

There is this sense of gratitude for the consequences of life, the lessons I was taught, and the thoughts that pop up in my head at certain moments.

Perhaps there lies the key. The key to becoming free.

Free from our own lack of desire to be guided. To be part of a greater movement. Why does life have to be about me ?

I argue that the tendency to reject guidance goes against the very goal of becoming more clear. As guidance seems to be what clarity reaches.

Sometimes simply making a decision because it feels right can bring us closer to our dream - than making a decision based on self-understood reason.

Life is but a magical journey. The clearer we get, the clearer we can “feel”, and the more connected we are.

The unraveling of the mysteries of life happens, whether we want it or not. Though I tell you, if you want it, go to get it. But don’t think it’s only You shaping your life.

This is how to go beyond and above clarity.

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Let’s talk about evil people

My friend Alice, from Brazil, yesterday told me about 2 of her partners in an Instagram HIV channel, tried to backstab her and quick her out of the program after she had created everything from scratch and helped launch it successfully.

Alice kept telling me “human beings, they are so bad, I don’t think I am ready to go to Switzerland, to go into that work - I need to do therapy first”

Human beings. I tell you, horrible people excused by horrible unfortunate pasts does not change the horrible OUTCOME in the world, it still is.

All we can do, is not play into that energy and not provoke it.

Maintain integrity and stick to our values, but not impose them on others, especially in those terms to those who don’t have the capacity to even grasp them.

There are some evil people out there, sure. But we can remain powerful.

She tells me “I can’t do it, I can’t think like you, I am too emotional. this happens and I just burst out sending so many messages, lashing out on them and attacking them. Because I am honest, I tell the truth”

Two things here: -Too emotional is okay. Some people are more mental, some are more emotional. Each with our strengths and weaknesses. If there is the impulsive emotional reaction that is destructive and not strategic, you can always apologize and learn in the process of living life. There is no need to hide or to stop moving in the direction that you want, because you don’t think “you can handle it.” You can always remedy. That’s what matters. -Telling the truth is great. But being honest is not the most important in life. If I told my best friend, “you can’t have the capacity to listen to me, every time I speak, I don’t feel heard, with you there is no chance of depth.” It might be honest. But it is also unfair and disrespectful. If the person does not have the capacity to understand, shoving it down their face, even though honest, will do nothing constructive.

Honesty is a value by all means, but it is not the holy grail of harmony and constructive patterns. Sometimes, we can take a step back and simply withhold certain information out of respect for the other, not in terms of something we want to hide from them, but in terms of they don’t have the capacity to grasp it, so all it would do it create conflicts and probably make them feel terribly guilty and powerless. The opposite of what we’d want anyone to feel, right? Life is just part of a greater picture of love.

May you be blessed today.

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It’s day 2 of my water fast

I’ve done it few times before. But this time is different.

I felt agonizing pain on my lower back the first day. No mater what position or finger pressure, the pain would be there and it was so strong. It was the first time I felt such pain that no matter what I did, I could not relieve even slightly, and that for about 4-8 hours, living of course every instant of that time.

I did so research and it might have been my appendix detoxifying. The bottom right side of my belly had the tension and also, my kidneys behind. Those were very painful.

I forced myself to go for a long walk, well semi long, but it felt like the most at the time. Feeling extremely weak and uncomfortable to walk through, with the idea that if I manage to activate the lymphatic system by walking, it will help support and purge the toxins. After the walk, I still had pain, but just before going to sleep, it started to feel better.

Today, it feels completely normal. Like I have been for most of the water fasts in my life, which I have done many. I always feel a little tired the first day, the second day is better, day 3 onward no hunger, strong clean energy that sustains.

This time was different.

And I kept on wanting to escape, to watch a movie or something. But I gave myself this productivity rule of not watching movies alone another, only with other people. Yet, there was this voice in my head that kept trying to convince me “during water fasts, it’s okay..” but no I did not give in. I took a book, read it. I listened to an audio book as well. Went for that walk. And slept very early just after massing my stomach and going smiling qi gong exercise.

This is a win.

I realize, it is those times, with “agonizing pain” and the slight temptation that we broke a stronger better or not. It is those times that make up our strength. Not all the excuses I tend to tell myself, as “I’m moving forward anyways”. No. This is experiential proof, I am experiencing agony, and I am sticking through. This is what makes me grow.

If I want it easy without any challenges, then I want it the same without any changes. And this is the life I want. I want expansion, discoveries, and mysteries unraveling along the way, with stronger stability and deep authentic creativity.

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The little voice in the head

It tells me... just do it,,,, don’t worry, you can allow yourself to do it, you deserve it.,.. just do it now, no worries..

THAT”S NOT ME.

The me, under the layers, divine essence and timeless being, journeying through space and time. That being, has a bit of a higher purpose than to give into the mere fragility of the mind.

The problem is the association to the mind, the importance we have of it to make meaning and create safety in our world.

What if we were mindless beings? Would that bring us peace? Emphazis on the sensations, on the feeling, on the energy. The mind just used as a tool to drive energy into focus, not to question whether or not a decision is right or wrong, or best or just okay.

The emphasis on the mind seems to be the biggest luring of our society. We fight to optimize the mind. Yet it is “it” that does it all backward for us.

Yet we cling onto it.

As such as the defeat of humanity towards chaos. The chaos that the mind brings into our realities. The mind is our kid to tame. But the problem is we think it is our God. That is where we draw the line between striving for peace or giving into the temptation of thought.

Most philosophies would argue that through thought becomes the new reality/expansion. “DIDN’T YOU REALIZE?”

Thought is a mere tool for us human beings. And putting it in its right place (you don’t command me. You are my child. You are not my God), that may bring up a new world ahead of us, where the mind is no longer important as its content, or ability to filter, but only as a mere tool to drive and direct focus.

F.R.E.E.D.O.M.

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First Blog post (new daily habit)

I didn’t think it would take long for me to start investing in the love I have for myself. 

It’s been mostly about - skills, and health. and mind clarity, intuition, spiritual strength.

But what about,  love

Love. 

Falling in love with myself.

Learning to fall in love with myself.

To enjoy “my own happening” as one of my life teachers says.

What is happening? Me. Unraveling through time and space. Abecoming. 

This love, this appreciation, this curiosity and profound humility.

I am free.  And the bird is loving its birth and its flight. It’s about love, in the end. Perhaps this is what I was missing. The profond humility and curiosity. 

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