until the very end.

having no regrets is all that she really wants

[11990904]

[neikneik]

bang the doldrums - fall out boy / planet of love - richard siken / the kids aren’t alright - fall out boy / dead poets society / getaway green - all time low / all i want is nothing - frank iero / the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us - sufjan stevens / the goldfinch / ribs - lorde

[kindofsharethat]

and i guess i had this whimsical idea of all the boys sitting on a porch as old men reminiscing about the good old days in the biggest boy band in the world as five terrible dancers with a whole lot of heart, but life is cruel and just doesn’t work out that way sometimes, and it fucking hurts

[alloutshirt]

started thinking about zayn, going on his first tour in less than a week, losing the one he last shared this with ten years ago . then i started thinking about louis, who’s strength and optimism is being pushed once again after losing his mum, sister and now brother. thinking of harry who also lost friends in similar circumstances . and niall, who was the last of the boys to see him, as his friend came to support him and sing the words they sang together back at him . thinking about them together . how they protected each other the best they could from the start . none of them deserves any of this

[fadeintolight]

louis could just be dealing with this on his own like others, which is totally understandable and the normal thing to do. yet here he is, sharing bits and pieces of his own journey with grief because he wants us to know we are in this together. i truly picked one of the most compassionate people to love.

[femstyles]

I expected to see this news when I'm 75 and have a quiet at peace moment with it reminiscing on my childhood.

Instead, it happened when I was 28, and I'm shattered at work pretending like a part of my teenage self didn't just shrivel up inside me.

[kosmogrl]

[didhewinkback]

one direction will always be so so so bittersweet to me like they were such a foundation of my teenage years while at the same time those boys were spending most of their days trapped in hotel rooms or waking up at 2 am to record an album and non stop touring and working so much more than anyone let alone a bunch of teenage boys should work and its always been hard to reconcile those two realities especially on a day like today because god when they were good together, they were so good together.

and i just don't think anything like them will ever happen again. 5 boys from basically working class backgrounds thrust into a level of fame the height of which hadn't been seen for decades, all of them becoming the breadwinners of their families before the age of 18. the immense pressure but also the amount of fun they were. the tragedy and joy of it all intertwined. really impossible to put into words

[liamnews]

"Liam will forever live in our hearts and we'll remember him for his kind, funny and brave soul. We are supporting each other the best we can as a family and ask for privacy and space at this awful time."

- Liam's family issued a statement

[adorelou-28]

louis my god

[pop-punklouis]

vile things have been done. words have been said that can never be taken back. victims have been abused. lives have been altered due to toxic behaviors and addiction. so much hurt has been spread.

but no one should die young. no one should grow up fatherless. no parent should have to bury their own child. no one should be searching for peace for so long after growing up in a system designed for them to fail only to have their life end so tragically in pursuit of that peace. no one.

[icarusofmine]

no matter what we’ll do after this, we’ll never ever beat this

yeah, but isn’t that scary?

[pop-punklouis]

I went to youtube to distract myself but somehow ended up on Liam's page watching his 'im back vid from summer last year bc I must love pain, and he talks about how 'cancel culture' can be good bc people just want you to do better actually (re: logan paul's podcast) and that he will own up to everything shitty he did before and how he is trying to turn over a new leaf and things should only look up from here bc he is looking after himself and so are the boys and fuck,, I just ended up fully sobbing

Like he wasn't the clueless puppy eyed kid from X factor but his way with words and his honesty with himself and us when sober was just...he should have had more times

yeah, it’s just. i keep trying to find another word for it, but it is just heartbreaking.

he deserved life. he deserved time to grow and recover and understand the pain he’s caused others and make amends for all that hurt. he deserved to find purpose that he’d so desperately been trying to find. he deserved to wake up again today and tomorrow and the next day and the next. he deserved time.

[louisandthedagger]

liam and i talking about zayn exactly

[maleksrami]

Liam Payne accepting the British Artist Video BRIT award for 'History’ by One Direction (x)

[userautumn]

liam. oh liam. god. he was the one i worried so much about ever since the band. like, it used to be zayn but when zayn left and grew i thought "ok, he's going to be ok" because you could see after a while that the band was not good for zayn. you could see it. but liam, god. he carried so much weight, all the time. from the band all the way to the present, he was the guy who was supposed to be put together. he was "daddy direction" he was. yeah. he was that guy. and i know it weighed on him. i KNOW it did. the drinking and the fucking spiraling he went through after the band, it was all connected. and i'm not. defending his choices, i'm not. but i'm grieving him and i'm aching for him, and. i just wanted him to be okay. i really really thought that he would be okay. and he's not. and i'm. fucking heartbroken about it.

[alloutshirt]

seeing so many people who haven’t been here for a while . we’re all family and will always be . what we got to experience is rare and precious . hope time will allow us to look back at it with joy and peace again . hugging all of you tight

[eminentzayn]

I always thought the only day i'd come back here is the day they announced their reunion.