Sometimes it's Really Hard to Shut Off Your Mind...
Its been almost three weeks since I’ve been here. Things are not bad here, my roommates are great, and so are my managers and coordinators. Like previously said in my last post, the only thing I could really complain about my job is the hours, and our late shifts, but that is what I get for being at the end of the totem pole, plus it is all college programmers not just me.
Obviously your first few weeks are going to be overwhelming, because you are settling in. I definitely believe I’ve let it get the best of me. I’m very nervous to be so far away from home, and just like my Dad said “You’re growing up.” It’s scary to actually sit down and realize that I am, even though technically I am still living at home, and I am in the adult age group, this year I’m getting rid of the teen years for good. I turn twenty in about a month, and here I am growing up. Twenty is still really young, but my dad is right that I am growing up, I just have to realize that what’s I’ve been doing these pass couple years… But sometimes, I feel like a little kid and that I’m not really growing. It’s like I spread my wings, but as quickly as they spread I’m ready to hit the ground again.
In the grand scheme of things, today things have really hit hard due to countless days of over thinking. I felt like I really need to go home. And when I say need it also comes with a huge really really really want to.You may say oh, you are just homesick, which is some of the reasoning because all of my family is in Arizona, close friends, boyfriend. But, I also have family here, Anthony and Iris. As well as roommates who are becoming close friends. And they are great distractions when missing family, and Aj, and friends. Because soon enough faster then I know, I will be missing these people when it is time to go home. So besides being homesick making me want to go home you may ask?
I am a park greeter, which is great, and I have a job. The only problem I see is that I am a photography major, and seeing that this a college program, I’m not doing anything that deals with my major. There is a job here called, Photo Pass (you go around and take pictures of guests, and parades and etc. around the parks.) that I REALLY want. I believe that doing this job will make my resume look so much better in the long run. Although this program will look good, I still believe that Photo Pass will make it look better through my college career as well as my future. So, to say the least I’m disappointed that I did not end up where I wanted. Call me a cry baby, because it sucks I didn't get what I wanted! I’ve currently asked around about what I can do, and what I was told was that I cannot switch roles (our jobs are called roles because we are cast members of the show Disney holds) until six weeks before my program ends (it ends January 05, 2015) to extend the program till August 2015.
I choose not to extend my program because that would be a year and a half behind in school. Yes, I know I have all the time in life to play with school. I am getting six elective credits for doing this program, so even though I am getting credits it puts me behind a semester working towards my major. And I’m already a semester behind because I lost a semester transferring from NAU. So doing this puts me a year behind technically, but also not really since I do earn credit. It worries me to be a little behind with my photography major. So, this right here shouldn't stress me out because it is okay to take as long as I want with school, plus this program looks really great (according to my advisors) no matter the circumstances. I'm being a baby about not getting what I want. But, I will stick through because like I've said my job is easy and fun so far!
Lastly, after all this ranting, I am going to tell you that I’m trying to stay positive because I can do this. I’m sure you would tell me the same. Though these past couple of thoughts sort of stress me out, there are positive aspects of this, I am still adjusting because this is new to me still so things will get better, it’s only eight months, my job isn’t hard, my managers are cool, new CPs are coming in August(so new friends), money, looks good on resume, great roommates, work on my photography off the clock in the parks, good memories, you get in for FREE, and etc.