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ich selbst, mein gröĂter Kritiker
Die schwierigsten Momente in meinem Leben sind die, in denen ich mit meinen Gedanken allein bin. Ich muss aufhören, mich mit anderen zu vergleichen. Ich bin meine eigene Person. Mein Leben gehört mir und ich weiĂ, ich bin genug und ich werde genug sein. Die Sonne scheint nicht jeden Tag und ich auch nicht. Manchmal verwandeln sich die bewölkten Tage in Monate. Dies ist eine dieser Zeiten in meinem Leben. Aber ich werde es ĂŒberwinden. Ich bin es wert. Ich bin selbst mein gröĂter Kritiker.
donât let me go.
qui sait?
si j'avais juste la moitiĂ© d'une tĂȘte j'entendrais tes appels au secours cette moitiĂ© me suffirait pour savoir ce qui t'a blessĂ© et si j'avais juste la moitiĂ© d'un cĆur je verrais tes cernes au petit jour. cette moitiĂ© me suffirait pour comprendre le mal que je te fais qui sait?âŠ
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I donât write here anymore. But I don't have a journal and I need to just get my thoughts out. So last Sunday one of my former classmates passed away from a sudden heart attack. I was scrolling through Facebook on Monday and all of a sudden I saw all of these âRIPâ posts. I didnât know what to even think. This was the class clown. The guy who was on all of the sports teams. Mr. Popular. The guy who would get the girl I used to like. The guy who was able to change the mood of the entire classroom. The guy who was there for anyone in the class. He would have dropped anything to listen to anyone and help. Growing up, sometimes I think I was jealous of him, or that I just simply admired him and wanted to be more like him. I worked with his mom at my first ever job too. This was just too much for me to read and to process. I stopped working on whatever I was working on, shut my laptop, went home, and took the night to just think about life. Itâs been almost a week now, and Iâm still reflecting life. Iâve lived through so much in the last 10 years since I first moved to Montreal. Iâm 28 now, almost 29. I still feel so lost. I donât have a career. Iâm struggling to finish my Masterâs degree. Iâm getting older and time is just going by way too quickly. I donât know what to think anymore. Am I happy? Have I mad the right decisions? Am I in the right place? Where am I supposed to go? Who actually cares about me? Who do I actually care about? Iâm still figuring things out and I guess thatâs okay. I guess what has happened to me in this last week, and what Iâve been mainly thinking about, is that I need to start just being happy with who I am and I need to make sure that I am just happy in whatever I am doing, and with who I am surrounded by. After all, life is short, and you never know when things will change... so Iâm choosing to step back. I donât need to compare myself to others. I am enough. I can do things at my own pace. Itâs okay that I havenât finished school yet... itâs a process. It is my process, and I am doing things in the way that feels best for me. Iâm learning along the way. I know I will finish. Iâm not sure if I will get a great job after, but that doesn't even matter right now. One thing at a time. Iâm okay right now. I have an affordable cute apartment. My parents love me - I love them. I am closer to my brother than ever before. His wife is amazing too. I have the most wonderful friends I could ever imagine, even if most of them are far away. I know I am loved. And I don't need to accept feeling like shit or feeling like I am not good enough or simply not enough. I AM ENOUGH. I WILL DO MY BEST. I WILL MEET MY GOALS, OR I WILL LEARN THINGS ALONG THE WAY. Long story short, life is just as confusing as ever, but with time I am appreciating life more and more. Zarko, you are gold. You have touched my life and I know you touched the life of everyone who knew you too. You will not be forgotten and I will try to face life with the courage and the love that you showed to everyone around you. RIP Zarko 09.09.1990 - 25.08.2019 Forever in our hearts and in our minds.
Update at 28:
I still donât know where Iâm going or what I am doing in life.
Take me back to 2010. My head is spinning around. The years have passed by so quickly.
This song.
Take me back
Rewind my life back to 2006. I was 15 when I first heard this song.
It changed my life. It kept me dreaming.
I would have never guessed everything that would have happened in my life over the last 11 years. So many happy memories, some sad ones too. It makes me know that no matter what, I need to just keep dreaming and striving forward.. I will achieve anything I put my mind to.
Tonight is kind of a rough night for me. Iâm not always happy here in Bonn. I feel accomplished, but I also donât know where my life is going. I know I will get through it all though, and I will make something of myself. I will help myself, others, and the world.
So, dream on.
Montréal, je t'aime.
Ma petite ville dâamour, je tâaime tellement !
I love my country.
Peter Licht - Sonnendeck (Schallplattenspieler-Fassung) [Ekimas & Proppe Remix]
My summer song, 2017.