39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
He's made it perfectly fucking clear that he never cared about me, or any of us and the sacrifices we made to cover his wannabe-martyr ass. Eeeverrything just had to be about him, sweet little innocent him. Damn all the times my loved ones could've died, HAVE DIED, OR COULD'VE KILLED THEMSELVES ALL CAUSE OF HIM. All he wanted were toys he could play with and discard after he got bored with us, that or me realizing he was never not going to stop obsessing over me and Five and breaking things off myself made him spiral which is even worse because it's fucking disgusting how much emotional depenance he might've been putting into us, into me! WE'RE NOT HIS FUCKING PROPERTY! I wouldn't be surprised if Oliver turns out to be right and he did kill his whore of a baby mama (Brown curly hair, dark eyes, immature brat, oh gee I wonder if there's a connection), and if he did I hope he's on the run from MI6 or some shit, but it seems like you'd need the power of a fucking timelord to kill him!
So. Since he's still around, riddle me this, shitlips.
The only reason you're still alive to this day is cause it was permitted. After all, you had us all wrapped around that bloody little finger of yours between your connections and your remaining family. After all, why would we want to upset your dearest little brother? Or "Crime Daddy's Specialest Princess" Ragsy? Or provoke the wrath of the seemingly unkillable?
You've lost all your possible fallbacks. Not even Lils can save you now, hm?
You and Theo were nothing but parasites, more worthless than the soil upon the earth and the dust upon the wind, and you even less so. You're a failure of a brother and a monster inside and out and I hate myself for not doing my job sooner, not showing myself sooner so I could stop all this and spare everyone their suffering. Five could've fucking died cause of you. Lydia DID die cause of you.
In all the lives I've lived, I don't think I've ever hated someone as much as I've grown hate you. To think I ever cared, much less genuinely fallen for someone as disgusting as you. Don't ever show your face around us again, not even to claim what you think is rightfully yours, or we will finish the job we've failed to do years ago.
And who knows, maybe you'll be reunited with your family in Hell.
