Just A Voice In Your Head

Why hello there! Call me Crimson. I am a 25 year old female and this is the slice of the internet where I let my demons run wild. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and an anxiety disorder this past year. Trigger warnings: death, suicide,...

[bongospasm]

[afigmentofyourmind]

I wish I was as high as my boss was today... >.>

[traumatised-mum]

you ever just sit and realise u can’t remember 80% of your childhood? like … what happened? who am i ..?

[afigmentofyourmind]

I'm not alone!

[afigmentofyourmind]

Being awake is exhausting.

[satanhaus-deactivated20220217]

me, beating my depression with a stick: not today you emo fuck

[mydogknowswhatyoudidinthedark]

[afigmentofyourmind]

Itching to get a new tattoo. One to remember my best friend. My platonic soul mate if you will, who died much too soon. Here's the thing. The "ideal" placement of it is on the arm I used to self harm on. The scars, although smaller and faded are such a big part of who I am. Of my struggle. I guess I'm scared/nervous to cover them up... Anyone else feel this way? Is it normal? I almost feel strange to feel this way, but I can't quite help it. Perhaps I could get it on the other arm? Or further up? Why am I even stressing about this?

[afigmentofyourmind]

I want to die, but I don't necessarily want to kill myself. Ya feel me?

[just-shower-thoughts]

‘As fuck’ is my most used unit of measurement

[galadrielles]

Do you have a message for people who suffer with bipolar disorder?

Oh, yes. You can outlast anything. It’s complicated, it’s a job, but it’s doable. One of the greatest things that happened for me was that psychotic episode. Having survived it, I now know the difference between a problem and an inconvenience. Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It’s a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life. - Carrie Fisher [x]

[just-shower-thoughts]

If my dog could cry real tears, I doubt I’d have the emotional strength to ever leave my house.

[brainweirdkohai]

is this a hallucination or is there a supernatural entity in the room with me

is this paranoia or am I being haunted

[yoquierotaakobell-deactivated20]

Bipolar ask meme

send me some!!

based on these BPD/mental illness ask memes: 1, 2, 3

General:

1. Type 1 or type 2?

2. Self-dx or professional dx?

3. Are you currently hypo/manic, depressed, mixed, stable, or not sure?

4. Do you have any other mental illnesses/disorders?

5. When did you first start having symptoms?

6. When did you realize/learn that you have bipolar?

7. Have you ever received a misdiagnosis?

8. How self-aware are you on a scale of 1-10?

9. How many people know about your bipolar disorder?

10. Are any of your family members bipolar?

11. Name three fictional characters you relate to and/or headcanon as bipolar.

Hypo/mania:

12. When hypo/manic, do you get euphoric, dysphoric, angry, creative, social, or several of the above?

13. What has been your longest hypo/manic episode?

14. Have you ever had a psychotic episode? What symptoms did it include?

15. What kind of impulsive decisions have you made?

16. What’s the most money you’ve spent in a single day while hypo/manic?

17. What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleep?

18. Are you a creative type? Have you ever made a poem/song/other artwork about being bipolar?

Depression:

19. When depressed, do you get suicidal, bored, anxious, guilty, or several of the above?

20. What has been your longest depressive episode?

21. How do you cope with depression?

22. Are you a sleep-all-day depressive or an insomniac depressive? Do you overeat or lose your appetite?

23. When is the last time you cried or had a breakdown?

24. Have you ever self-harmed?

25. Have you had problems with substance abuse?

26. Have you ever attended AA/NA/etc?

27. Have you ever attempted suicide?

28. Have you ever written a suicide note?

Other symptoms and treatment:

29. Do you ever dissociate?

30. Do you ever have hallucinations? If so, what are they?

31. Do you see a therapist? Do you feel like it’s helping?

32. Are you on any medications? Do you feel like they’re helping?

33. Have you ever been hospitalized?

34. Have you ever attended group therapy?

35. Have any of your symptoms gotten worse over the years?

36. Have any of your symptoms gotten better over the years?

37. Do you have a favorite coping method?

38. If you could choose to be neurotypical, would you?

[afigmentofyourmind]

Ask away! I always answer And, I could use the distraction

[dependent-boy]

to anyone enduring a depressive episode: it’s ok. you’re not being lazy or selfish. your productivity doesn’t define or devalue you. you’re coping. you’re doing the best you can, and that’s ok!

[taliabobalia]

when millennials were first heading into high school and college there was a huge trend in news stories about how stressed out our kids are, how their backs are getting messed up from carrying so many books, how they’re sleeping less and doing more school work, and how we should do more to help our kids have the childhoods we had because our kids are falling apart from stress and being forced to be more productive than kids should be. but then once millennials started hitting the workforce all the news was about how millennials are lazy and narcissistic and entitled lmao you were real concerned about us until you found out a 23 year old is more qualified to do your job than you

[quasi-normalcy]

That’s because at some point in the middle we stopped being “their children” and became a bloc of terrifying outsiders with foreign values and little regard for what had been their established cultural norms.

[solarpunkarchivist-deactivated2]

I’d forgotten this but you’re right. I think it started earlier though, it started when we started out performing them on exams. Then suddenly all our schoolwork was easy and we were being rewarded for just showing up.

[mirkokosmos]

[aus10england]

unmute this for the love of god

[ebookfriendly]

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