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sideblog // I write silly pieces and you pretend you didn't see them

[vampantheon]

on the topic of disabled characters, though, i think a LOT of artists give characters mobility aids that their character wouldn't actually benefit from using.

i'm sort of having a mild brain fog moment rn so i can't fully articulate what i'm on about, but i think a lot of able-bodied artists view things like canes and crutches as interchangeable. and they often don't know enough about the wide range of mobility aids to make an informed decision about what their character might actually use based on their disability

i also think that aids like walkers and rollators are sort of viewed as "cringe" on some level, and many people view them to be "just for old people," so many artists will opt for giving a character who has full-body pain and fatigue a cane (which, in many cases, can potentially WORSEN full-body pain) instead. and a lot of people don't realize that most wheelchair users are able to walk, so they don't consider it an option for characters with chronic pain

[vampantheon]

idk it's kind of frustrating. i've genuinely never, ever seen a character that uses a rollator before. not once. i cannot name a single one. i know of multiple ocs who are described to have full-body pain, dizziness, and fatigue that are drawn as cane users and are never shown with wheelchairs or walkers, though

[vampantheon]

it's also sort of sad? i've been diagnosed since i was twelve years old, and i only heard of rollators LAST YEAR. and that was only because i saw one irl and immediately asked what it was. i wonder how many disabled people out there don't even know it's an option solely because they're completely underrepresented online and in media

[vampantheon]

if you're a creative with a disabled oc, PLEASEEE check out this link. it's a very nice and detailed guide for telling which mobility aids suit someone's needs best. it's incredibly important to make the right choice for your character! mobility aids tell you a LOT about someone's lived experience. picking the right one will communicate to your audience #1 what your character goes through #2 that you UNDERSTAND what your character goes through!

[literaryvein-reblogs]

a list of "beautiful" words for august

to try to include in your next poem/story

Abozzo - a rough sketch or draft (as of a picture or a poem)

Agrypnia - insomnia

Bouleversement - reversal; a violent disturbance

Cachaça - a Brazilian liquor distilled from sugarcane

Cantillation - recitation with musical tones

Doloriferous - obsolete: producing pain

Fantasticate - to make fantastic

Graphospasm - writer's cramp (i.e., a painful spasmodic contraction of muscles of the hand or fingers brought on by excessive writing)

Immarcescible - imperishable, indestructible

Kakidrosis - secretion of sweat of a disagreeable odor

Ligneous - of or resembling wood

Metempsychosis - the passing of the soul at death into another body either human or animal

Nemoricole - inhabiting groves

Optative - expressing desire or wish

Pastourelle - a conventional form of poetic pastoral composed in French during the late middle ages and Renaissance and consisting of a love debate between a knight and a shepherdess

Secundines - afterbirth

Tramontane - lying on or coming from the other side of a mountain range

Vatic - prophetic, oracular

Vinca - periwinkle

Wiseacre - one who pretends to knowledge or cleverness

More: Lists of Beautiful Words ⚜ Word Lists ⚜ Writing Resources PDFs

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

dune is so funny it literally opens like

CHAPTER 1

“It sucks that I understand Time Cube and as such cannot avoid becoming a genocidal dictator,” young Paul Atreides said to himself. “For me. Moral complexity is such a burden.”

CHAPTER 2

“Heard any good slurs for poor people lately?” asked the Baron Harkonnen homosexually, knocking back another shot of orphan tears.

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

this post was a lot longer but I forced myself to cut it back because brevity is the soul of wit and I was getting carried away

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

anything for you darling

CHAPTER 1

“The fact that I will commit unspeakable genocide and lead a holy war across the galaxy is very bad,” said young Paul Atreides. “For me.”

“I too feel morally conflicted by my role in a ruthless eugenics program,” admitted his mother, the Lady Jessica. “Does that make me a bad mother? Who can say….”

At that moment the Duke Leto Atreides returned home from a grueling day churning out propaganda to convince his troops that he was worth dying for. His regal face was lined with deep moral complexities. “It’s tough when you’re me and everybody wants to fuck you so so bad,” he said. “But that’s the price I must pay for the future well-being of my ancestral house.” He sighed, deep and melancholy. When was the last time he’d thrown around the old pigskin with his boy? Would he ever get the chance again…?

That’s fully-manual ascetic space feudalism for you, he thought libertarianally.

Paul looked around the room and was struck by the sudden and horrific realization that he was the smartest person to ever live, and that even his own loving mother and father could never hope to understand Time Cube.

But that’s a problem for another day, Paul decided, not for the last time.

CHAPTER 2

“It’s a beautiful day to be grossnasty, don’t you think?” said the Baron Harkonnen homosexually as he surveyed the ravaged landscape beyond the window. Acid rain pelted against the glass and melted the flesh off the shrieking peasants below.

“Sure. Whatever,” said Feyd-Rautha, not looking up from his sketchbook, upon which he had scrawled the words ‘I love killing and maiming’ in large bubble letters.

“A-h-h,” said the Baron. “That was a trick question: every day is a beautiful day for being grossnasty. You must learn this lesson well, nephew, if you ever hope to get anywhere in life. Piter, what are you doing over there with that huge and evil brain of yours?”

The mentat violated the Hays Code six times in the few seconds it took him to reply. “I’m calculating a mathematically perfect slur for orphans,” he said in a gay voice. “Just as you requested.”

“Finally! A productive use of your time,” said the Baron, and flipped him off. Without a word, he snatched the pen from Feyd-Rautha’s hand and wrote ‘and oppressing the populace’ beneath the words the youth had already written. “There,” he said. “Much better.”

[duneheritageposts]

Dune Heritage Post

[kosmogrl]

zlibrary gone... FUCK TIKTOK FUCK BOOKTOK I hope that app burns in hell

[dreamingofseastars]

library genesis is still up (very similar site) and r/freemediaheckyeah and r/piracy have lots of other alternatives. zlib was the GOAT though. fuck tiktok

(originally commented. putting as a reblog as its important)

[kosmogrl]

for anyone that wants to know about other sites, I also didn't know so this is a big help!!! thank you!

[ichornyra]

some sites i use to read online: - https://libgen.li/ - https://www.pdfdrive.com/ - https://libretexts.org/ - https://openlibrary.org/ - https://novel80.com/ - https://www.allfreenovel.com/ - https://bookreadfree.com/ - https://allbookshub.com/ - http://thefreeonlinenovel.com/ - https://www.epub.pub/ - https://www.readingsanctuary.com/ - https://yes-pdf.com/ - https://www.booksfree.org/ if none of the links work if you just search up "(book title) read online free" there's almost always gonna be a pdf link and those are always good to read from too

[lokiinmediasideblog]

This is even more important with the internet archive losing the lawsuit and being forced to remove so many books. Consider donating to the Internet Archive.

[zeemczed]

DOWNLOAD EVERYTHING THAT INTERESTS YOU. Start your own archive. Share with whoever you can.

[unbossed-deactivated20251218]

Piracy is preservation.

[homunculus-argument]

Imagine if you met someone who can't eat watermelon. Not that they're allergic or unable somehow, but they just haven't figured out how to do that. So you're like "what the hell do you mean? it works just like eating anything else, you open your mouth, sink your teeth in, take a bite and chew. If you can bite, chew and swallow, you should be able to eat a watermelon."

And they agree that yes, they do know how to eat, in theory. The problem is the watermelon. Surely, if they figured out where to start, they'd figure out how to do it, but they have no clue how to get started with it.

This goes back and forth. No, it's not an emotional issue, they're not afraid of the watermelon. They can eat any other fruit, other sweet things, and other watery things ("it's watery?" they ask you). Is it the colour? Do they have a problem eating things that are green on the outside and red on the inside?

"It's red on the inside?"

Wait, they've never seen the inside? At this point you have to ask them how, exactly, they eat the watermelon. So to demonstrate, they take a whole, round, uncut watermelon, and try to bite straight into it. Even if they could bite through the crust, there's no way to get human jaws around it.

"Oh, you're supposed to cut it first. You cut the crust open and only chew through the insides."

And they had no idea. All their life this person has had no idea how to eat a watermelon, despite of being told again and again and again that it's easy, it's ridiculous to struggle with something so simple, there's no way that someone just can't eat a watermelon, how can you even mange to be bad at something as fucking simple as eating watermelon.

If someone can't do something after being repeatedly told to "just do it", there might be some key component missing that one side has no idea about, and the other side assumed was so obvious it goes without mention.

[therainstheyaredropping]

Yep.

https://drmaciver.substack.com/p/how-to-do-everything had a nice list of additional examples like this, with (non-)obvious major insights with regard to opening stitched bags, cleaning your bathroom floor, using a search engine, catching a ball, pinging somebody, proving a theorem, playing sudoku, passing as “normal”, improving your writing, generating novel ideas, and solving your problem.

If you’d asked me six months ago how to get better at something, I’d probably have pointed you to how to do hard things. I still think this is a good approach and you should do it, but I now think it’s the wrong starting point and I’ve been undervaluing small insights. [...]

I think my revised belief is that if you are stuck at how to get better at something, spend a little while assuming there’s just some trick to it you’ve missed. You can try to generate the trick yourself, but it’s probably easier to learn it by observing someone else being good at the thing, asking them some questions, and seeing if you have any lightbulb moment.

[hergan416]

My fiance played the clarinet when he was in school. When he was first learning to play, he rented an instrument from the school to learn on. He was the last chair clarinet, had been for years, because he could not make notes that required the register key. For years, they kept making him do embrature exercises and he started to get a few notes, with lots of effort. Eventually he had to get private lessons to stay in band.

Every time he tells me this story, his frustration by this point in the story, years later, is evident. He still sounds frustrated by it, despite all the time that passed. Teachers had been giving him crap for years because he hadn't been making much progress with the instrument.

When he got to the private instructor, she acknowledged his frustration, and asked him to try to play for her. He did, and she saw all he was doing. She then did something no one else had done before. She asked him to put his mouthpiece on a different clarinet and try to play the same notes. Like magic, it worked. She looked at the clarinet he had been using and found that the school's clarinet needed it's pads replaced.

He went from last chair to first chair nearly overnight, having been taught far more techniques than typically taught at that age just to overcome the broken instrument preventing him from making noise.

Sometimes you don't need to brute force a problem. Sometimes your clarinet is just broken.

[nowordsandnotune]

Not quite sure why the clarinet addition got me crying, but here you go people: just in case, let's get you some new pads.

[kawuli]

random PSA, I know a lot of people use duckduckgo as a Google alternative search engine, but it always kind of annoyed me when I was using it because it felt like No Name Brand Google

I have switched to using Startpage.com and vastly prefer it. for one thing, instead of displaying an "AI summary" at the top of the search results (unless you turn it off, yes I know), it displays the first paragraph of the Wikipedia article, with link, whenever it finds one that's relevant.

also a waaayyyyy better sense of design than duckduckgo

also private, European based, least annoying search I've used lately (RIP old "don't be evil" Google)

[yomikoreadsbooks]

Keeping a list of Google alternatives just in case…

[saxifraga-x-urbium]

i have one of those, scraped from multiple different rec posts:

Search Engines

Infinity Search is an alternative search engine with a special focus on privacy

DuckDuckGo is a popular search engine for those who value their privacy and are put off by the thought of their every query being tracked and logged. Uses bangs, ![site] for in-page search (sells your data to microsoft and draws from fucking bing)

WolframAlpha is a privately owned search engine that allows you to “compute expert-level answers using Wolfram’s breakthrough algorithms, knowledgebase, and AI technology.” A data search engine.

Boardreader is a search engine for forums and message boards. It allows you to search forums and then filter down results by date and language.

Based in France, Qwant is a privacy-based search engine that won’t record your searches or use your personal details for advertising. Uses “&” as a bang search.

Another privacy-based search engine is Search Encrypt, which uses local encryption to ensure that users’ identifiable information cannot be tracked. Metasearch across multiple engines. 

Offering unbiased results from several sources, SearX is a metasearch engine that aims to present a free, decentralized view of the internet. Can be self-hosted. 

Gibiru’s tagline is “Unfiltered private search” and that’s exactly what it offers. Requires AnonymoX Firefox add-on for privacy. 

Disconnect allows you to conduct anonymous searches through a search engine of your choice.

Swisscows provides fully encrypted searches to protect your privacy and security. Built-in violence/porn filter cannot be overridden. 

MetaGer offers “Privacy Protected Search & Find” through its anonymised search. A plugin will allow it to be made a default.

Gigablast is a private search engine that indexes millions of websites and servers real-time information without tracking your data, keeping you hidden from marketers and spammers. Variety of filtration and refinement options for searching. 

Oscobo is a search engine that protects your privacy while you search the web. By not using any third-party tools or scripts, your data is protected from hacking and misuse. Has a Chrome extension to allow use in toolbar. 

https://search.marginalia.nu/ an independent DIY search engine that focuses on non-commercial content, and attempts to show you sites you perhaps weren't aware of in favor of the sort of sites you probably already knew existed. Use old-school searching rather than query-based for the best results. 

https://www.mojeek.com/ 

https://wiby.me/ - It’s goal is to index as many personalized websites as possible, and NOT commercial sites. 

https://4get.ca/ it works a lot like SearX, but honestly better. It doesn’t have its own index, but pulls from many others. I think it’s the best for research, since it allows you to search for answers from different indexes, is easy to configure, add free, and avoids censorship as much as it can.

https://www.searchenginemap.com/ for more on how search engines relate to each other.

https://yep.com/ is a crawler

https://www.etools.ch/ retrieves from Google, Mojeek, Bing, and Yandex, like Searx

https://www.dogpile.com/ 

https://searxng.org/ (next gen Searx)

https://luxxle.com/ - possibly conservative?

https://presearch.com/ - good for academic?

https://kagi.com/smallweb - free/randomised Kagi.

Other Searchers

www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.

www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.

https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.

www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.

http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.

www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.

www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free.https://cosine.club/ is an electronic music similarity search engine

[darkaviarymc]

This or That: Whump Trope Edition!

No tagging or being tagged necessary, play at your leisure (though do feel free to tag a friend you think would enjoy it)

Bold the option you like best:

Forced to watch or Separated from the Team? Defiant Whumpee or Conditioned Whumpee? Cold Whumper or Intimate Whumper? Clean Environment or Dirty Environment? Captivity or Domestic Whump? Broken Nose or Split Lip? Broken Ribs or Concussion? Fever or Drugged? Starvation or Dehydration? Hypothermia or Heat Stroke/Exhaustion? Interrogation or Ransom? Last Second Rescue or Found too Late? Scar Reveal or Trauma Confession? Hiding an Injury or Begging for Help? Methodical Torture or No-Holds-Barred Beatdown? Infection or Burns? Ropes or Chains? Blindfolded or Gagged? Stress Positions or Sensory Deprivation?

[ransom-or-rescue]

Some very difficult choices, and quite a few I want to answer with "both/and," but here's my thoughts for today! I think the common trend is that I prefer whichever option will let me write the most anguished dialogue.

Forced to watch or Separated from the Team? Defiant Whumpee or Conditioned Whumpee? Cold Whumper or Intimate Whumper? Clean Environment or Dirty Environment? Captivity or Domestic Whump?* Broken Nose or Split Lip? Broken Ribs or Concussion? Fever or Drugged? Starvation or Dehydration? Hypothermia or Heat Stroke/Exhaustion? Interrogation or Ransom?** Last Second Rescue or Found too Late? Scar Reveal or Trauma Confession? Hiding an Injury or Begging for Help? Methodical Torture or No-Holds-Barred Beatdown? Infection or Burns? Ropes or Chains? Blindfolded or Gagged? Stress Positions or Sensory Deprivation?

*This one's a both/and for me.

**I'm looking at my blog name and sweating.

tagging @starlit-hopes-and-dreams , @i-can-even-burn-salad and @whump-tr0pes if you want to play!

[starlit-hopes-and-dreams]

Thanks for the tag! Ooph, some of these are so hard. Let's see...

Forced to watch or Separated from the Team? (this one isn't hard. forced to watch will win against just about anything its put up against lol) Defiant Whumpee or Conditioned Whumpee? Cold Whumper or Intimate Whumper? (i guess intimate over cold, but i prefer creepy) Clean Environment or Dirty Environment? (either is fine really) Captivity or Domestic Whump? Broken Nose or Split Lip? Broken Ribs or Concussion? Fever or Drugged? (say hello to my newfound love of drugging) Starvation or Dehydration? Hypothermia or Heat Stroke/Exhaustion? Interrogation or Ransom? Last Second Rescue or Found too Late? Scar Reveal or Trauma Confession? (i can't choose!! so both is good lol) Hiding an Injury or Begging for Help? Methodical Torture or No-Holds-Barred Beatdown? (both is good here too, but there's just smth so good about beating the shit out of someone...) Infection or Burns? Ropes or Chains? (i like the sound chains make) Blindfolded or Gagged? Stress Positions or Sensory Deprivation?

No pressure tags for those I think might be interested: @suchprettypieces, @deerslayer14, @adeisinyourcloset (seriously, *no* pressure whatsoever) Anyone else is welcome to jump in if you'd like to play!

[suchprettypieces]

This or That: Whump Trope Edition!

No tagging or being tagged necessary, play at your leisure (though do feel free to tag a friend you think would enjoy it)

Bold the option you like best:

Forced to watch or Separated from the Team? Defiant Whumpee or Conditioned Whumpee? Cold Whumper or Intimate Whumper? (uhhhh, Cold and Creepy Whumper?) Clean Environment or Dirty Environment? (hmmm, actually I don't have a pref for either) Captivity or Domestic Whump? Broken Nose or Split Lip? Broken Ribs or Concussion? (both!) Fever or Drugged? Starvation or Dehydration? Hypothermia or Heat Stroke/Exhaustion? Interrogation or Ransom? Last Second Rescue or Found too Late? Scar Reveal or Trauma Confession? Hiding an Injury or Begging for Help? Methodical Torture or No-Holds-Barred Beatdown? Infection or Burns? Ropes or Chains? Blindfolded or Gagged? Stress Positions or Sensory Deprivation?

Whee! This was fun and quick! Like a whumpy speed quiz! Soft-tagging (absolutely no obligation to play) @penitent-stranger, @stars-hide-our-fires, @maelkirr and @blurryeyeswhump, @there-will-always-be-blood, @twigsofmanyfaces and @isnt-from-around-here @watsonbee

[twigsofmanyfaces]

This or That: Whump trope edition

Bold the option you like best (though color really makes your choice pop.)

Forced to watch or Separated from the Team? Defiant Whumpee or Conditioned Whumpee? Cold Whumper or Intimate Whumper? Clean Environment or Dirty Environment? Captivity or Domestic Whump?* Broken Nose or Split Lip? Broken Ribs or Concussion? Fever or Drugged? Starvation or Dehydration? Hypothermia or Heat Stroke/Exhaustion? Interrogation or Ransom?** Last Second Rescue or Found too Late? Scar Reveal or Trauma Confession? Hiding an Injury or Begging for Help? Methodical Torture or No-Holds-Barred Beatdown? Infection or Burns? Ropes or Chains? Blindfolded or Gagged? Stress Positions or Sensory Deprivation?

Love how quick and easy this one was! Only if you’re up for it: @whump-tr0pes @hcnnibal @acecasinova @rhosavirgoart @coyotehusk @straight-to-the-pain @dying-crying-pining @victimeyez @scarletfish8eta @doomeddestination

[agnesmontague]

you can kinda tell when a writer has spent a lot of time around kids bc they avoid most of the pitfalls that come with writing children. namely, not giving them a too cutesy or twee voice but making them sound more like extremely weird little adults. kids playing pretend will almost never cutely slot into some romantic scenario for the adults' benefit bc the adults are usually too busy cleaning up or wondering what the fuck is wrong with their child. kids also have surprisingly stringent hangups ranging from very petty grievances to downright chauvinist gender roles, more often than not the result of a tragic education but sometimes far surpassing what they were taught in intensity. what im saying is there's nothing inherently wrong with treating fictional kids as stock characters but it's always quite nice to see when they aren't

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

It's extremely common for very young children to suddenly say something extremely cogent and articulate, that's jarringly inconsistent with their normal speech. This is usually something that they heard an adult say recently. A kid will spend ten minutes telling you a story about how they fought a wolf yesterday using simple sentences of fifty cent words, then nibble a snack, wrinkle their nose and say something like "I feel like Mum was overenthusiastic with the salt today, and not for the first time either" before going back to their clumsy story. (They do understand what they're saying when they do this. Kids' communication is usually held back by their vocabulary and pronunciation, not their understanding.)

Young kids are also a lot more socially aware than people give them credit for. Young children are perfectly aware that adults don't take them seriously. They know when their parents don't actually like them. They listen and remember when adults talk about them while they're in the room. Kids will develop basic abilities to charm etc. from babyhood and will begin experimenting with social norms and concepts of deception, appropriate information, and acceptable language and attitudes in toddlerhood. By the time a kid is five or six, they have solid social strategies for relating to adults and separate ones fr relating to their peers, that they'll continue to refine for the rest of their lives. They will also say completely off the wall shit because they don't have the context to know what is and isn't considered super fucked up yet.

By the time a kid is eight or nine, their main difference from adults is in experience, interests, and ability for long-term focus. An eight year old can think as intelligently and coherently as a thirty year old, they just have less experience and information to draw from, and are likely interested in very different things. They're also likely still slightly hamstrung by vocabulary and literacy, though much less so than a younger kid.

Teens will behave like adults who have little power (a teen is often at the mercy of their parents and the state and rarely taken seriously, which is extremely frustrating) and who are high stress and mid-crisis, because they're going through a transitory period where their bodies and moods are changing and are having to constantly learn and adjust; a fourteen year old in a stable situation will act pretty much like a thirty year old with an oppressive boss who's just left a tumultuous relationship.

[metamorphesque]

this is what it means to be human

Everything, Mary Oliver

The Breathing, Denise Levertov

A Prayer by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski

Like a Small Café, That’s Love by Mahmoud Darwish (translated by Mohammad Shaheen)

Having a Coke with You by Frank O’Hara

Eating Together by Li-Young Lee

The Orange by Wendy Cope

The Quiet Machine, Ada Limón

To Go Mad, Paruyr Sevak

Our Beautiful Life When It’s Filled with Shrieks by Christopher Citro

Hammond B3 Organ Cistern, Gabrielle Calvocoressi

Peace XVIII, Khalil Gibran

Your Unripe Love, Paruyr Sevak (from “Anthology of Armenian poetry")

Here and Now by Peter Balakian

Ich finde dich (I find you) by Rainer Maria Rilke

The Thing Is by Ellen Bass

One Art by Elizabeth Bishop

Miss you. Would like to take a walk with you. by Gabrielle Calvocoressi

I Want to Write Something So Simply by Mary Oliver

What's Not to Love by Brendan Constantine

Where does such tenderness come from? by Marina Tsvetaeva

You Are Tired (I Think) by E. E. Cummings

Living With the News by W.S.Merwin

What the Living Do by Marie Howe

[agnostic-truck]

Writing culture taking social studies to expand the worldbuilding

[loving-parasite-moved]

you can always give your blorbos mobility aids btw . you can always make them disabled its always morally correct

[loving-parasite-moved]

Thats what i mean with this now . Fuckign commit violence against that beast until they have your disability we're getting representation the hard way 2night

[vocabulary-altering-posts]

PHRASE ADDED!

"we're getting representation the hard way"

[nondelphic]

you say "that sentence is grammatically incorrect" i say "it sounds like the internal monologue of a man unraveling in a fluorescent-lit hallway and that’s the point"

[nondelphic]

writer brain is like “what if this story was a metaphor for grief”

no babes what if this story was finished first

[theotherjax]

What if the real grief was the writing we didn't do along the way

[3840293843293-deactivated202211]

thinking about her (the wine-dark sea)

[mx-melancholic]

ok no actually i'll never gaf about real life and i'll always just want to write and watch tv i have known myself since i was a little kid. let's not lie to ourselves this will never fulfill me

[agnostic-truck]

oh the crunch of my skull as i hit the water and sink straight for the rocks and just for that moment the water holds me and i am forever one with the icy, burning cold, a thick heat swirling past my ears, as the sea scoops my hair into its palms and cups its hands over me with a soft gurgle. and i am gone forever

[agnostic-truck]

The writing demons possess me again and I hate it here and I wish so often that I could take this part out of me like so what if writing is all I can care about and all I can do with myself? I still hate it