As the eldest I was assigned the role of the father when my dad left (even tho I'm a woman) I moved out for college and first thing I notice when I'm back is my mom has beat my sister so bad she had bruises on her arms, but now I feel guilty because I stopped caring, I used to get the beat ups for my sister, I used to scream at my mom defending her (I never screamed at her for my own issues with her), my sister can be a brat sometimes, but nothing worth of getting beat up, she does normal fuckups for her age like failing a test or not making homework, the last time I went home my sister once again didn't make her homework for the weekend, when my mom started yelling I literally walked out of the door and went for a walk, I feel so guilty because she got bruises from that time, and I chose to not get involved, but I'm so tired, my whole life I've been standing up for her. And I told this to my mom before moving out to at least try, up to that moment she had been relying on me to stop her from going too far, wasting all of her energy in fighting with me so my sis wouldn't get it that bad, I know what she does, she gets stressed at work, gets stressed from her own personal life, her unsolved issues, and then when she gets home she goes nuts if something isn't perfect. I'm tired of getting emotionally and physically abused for my sister, I'm an adult now, I can make the choice to just go somewhere else if I don't want to be home, but also I'm all she's got, she has our uncle that listens to her and tries to talk to my mom, but physically in that house she has nobody, nobody that will fight back at the abuser. I don't fear my mom, or my dad, I stopped fearing them when my sister started getting beat, I resent them for being such a pathetic adults. I don't want to handle everyone else's problems anymore, I want to take care of my own and just my own because I'm so tired.