[ahead-fullofghosts]

world's laziest intro

> bodily adult, physically disabled and brain is fucked.

> system contains Host, Jude, Cloud, Alex, Arrow, Fawn and Blue. mainly just bumbling along all pretending to be Host.

> sideblog. if you know my main or know me irl, no you don't ✌🏻

> i am too tired and traumatised to care about any current discourse about shipping or system stuff. do more self care and spend less time yelling at people on the internet.

[dykesbat]

feeling this lately

[ahead-fullofghosts]

why does shit need to come up when we dont have an upcoming appointment with our therapist?????

[20thcenturywomen2016]

I’m a lover by nature except for when I’m a wretched hater cunt bitch which I also am by nature

[picklemanhasurges]

my mind palace is made out of drywall and it is occupied by an angry 16 year old american boy who keeps punching holes into the wall and that is why i dont remember things

[ahead-fullofghosts]

🎭 What term(s) do you use for alters? (eg. alters, parts, identities, people, headmates, etc.) Feel free to share reasoning!

we kinda switch between different ones, tbh. sometimes different terms feel more "correct" depending on the time and who's fronting, i guess? a lot of the time in therapy i just refer to them as "the brain gang" lmao. blue and fawn are "the kiddos" and these days alex is "that motherfucker (affectionate)".

i think we probably default to "parts" most often, simply because it feels most commonly accurate. we still mask around most people, so if i slip and mention something about "a part of me" it sounds metaphorical rather than having people go "omggg youre a system?????" when im not ready to explain to more people.

and i think also bc (apart from jude and alex) most of us still identify as an actual part of host? like, they're me but stuck frozen in time inside of my brain, if that makes sense????

[opossum-et-al]

DID/OSDD/overall CDD ask game bc i love answering questions and am in a silly mood :))

This is like, half serious stuff, half silly goofy stuff so if ur using this ofc answer questions at ur own discretion. Also the use of the word "you" can be the collective or individual "you"! Answer how you want

👁 Was discovery a sudden or gradual thing for you? (eg. did it feel like everything came to light all at once, or did you slowly but surely notice and piece things together?)

🌕 Did you have any awareness of other alters before discovery? if so, how did you view them (e.g. "moods", ocs, imaginary friends, etc.)

🫧 Who fronts the most in day-to-day life? Do you have a host, a "main cast", everyone switching/fronting equally, etc.?

🍎 Does anyone have any very passionate/specific food/drink preferences (love or hate)?

☂️ Are you more overt or covert? Are there any alters who break this norm (are exceptionally good/bad at masking)?

🎭 What term(s) do you use for alters? (eg. alters, parts, identities, people, headmates, etc.) Feel free to share reasoning!

🎊 Is there a prominent gender among alters? How do you present your gender(s)?

🍃 How frequently do you switch? Is this frequency comfortable/manageable for you?

☁️ Do you have day-to-day amnesia? If yes, what does that feel/look like for you?

🌈 Any happy/"success" stories from opening up to people/reaching out for support you'd like to share?

🎲 Do you have any collective hobbies (activities everybody/almost everybody enjoys doing)?

💥 Do you have any physical symptoms related to dissociation/switching/etc.?

☄️ What symptom/aspect of the disorder is hardest to deal with in day-to-day life/something that's more irritating/difficult/complicated for you?

🌼 What symptom/aspect of this disorder actually doesn't bother you/is actually helpful/you're grateful for?

💡 What's one thing that you do to help ground yourself?

⭐️ Are you usually aware of who's fronting? How do you figure out who's fronting when you don't know/can't tell?

🦉 Is there anything you wish you could make everybody instantly know/understand about CDD's?

👓 Are there any characters you feel really "seen" by (whether they're meant to be a representation of a CDD or not)?

🎸 Are there any songs/albums/artists that you feel "seen" by (whether they're meant to be a representation of a CDD or not)?

note: this ask game is made and intended for those w DID/OSDD/p-DID/etc. please only use this if this applies to you :))

[squaresaw]

[ahead-fullofghosts]

sometimes switching is slow and subtle and other times its exactly like this

[semiplural]

States of Being

We were trying to explain to some friends earlier that saying "this person is in front" and "this person is co-conscious" isn't always the most useful phrasing for us because either of those terms can mean a lot of different things. We have our own words that we like to use to describe where folks can be in relation to our awareness.

The states on this chart are still a bit of a simplification, as we flow between them and it's more of a spectrum than a discrete set, but they're close enough to the actual language that we use to do the job.

[ahead-fullofghosts]

how to beat the shit out of someone in your own head because he wont stop saying you have a founding fathers ponytail

[wolfertinger666]

many versions of me

[wolfertinger666]

this art is Abt my osdd1b, and like, I just constantly experience losing myself because of my alters and dissociation, but I love my headmates dearly, especially Heather (the pink bunny with the tall ears)

I'm being super vulnerable here so yeah. i hope this reaches other plural systems.

[wolfertinger666]

i am constantly fighting denial and shame towards myself because of this, often thinking it's all fake until I'm kicked outta front for a bit.

but I definitely am a system. this art is the feeling of blending in with alters and the confusion and loss of self like I said. it's complicated.

[skylargoesbark]

using "pack" instead of "chat". pack is this real.

[elkpoint]

[dark0nme]

[monachopsis111]

Yes, your friend will "change" if they come out as a system to you. They seem like they're changing because they're trying to unmask around you and let their alters be themselves and not hide amnesia and other aspects of the disorder as much.

I understand it can be hard to realize your friend isn't exactly how you thought they were, but they're still you're friend. It's likely you've met their other alters, they just didn't say who they were.

Please support you friend, even if it's seemed like they've changed.

[kimthemangoguy]

headmates

[permanenteclipse]

A doodle one of us made as a visual aid to help compare with another system how it feels like it works

[cholerascum]

this really helps like, put it into words, in a sense