[aheadache]

basically doing more shopping to kind of overcome this stress and sadness and anxiety and i can go on and on and on

[aheadache]

i'm nervous about tomorrow. so nervous. i feel like everything is gonna go wrong and it'll be my fault and if something happens, i might as well die

[aheadache]

even in a room full of people, my mind somehow just quickly thinks of you... i wonder what you're doing and if you've eaten tonight

[bnwfrenchquotes]

“Entre deux coeurs qui s’aiment, nul besoin de paroles.” - “Two hearts in love need no words.”

—

[chessys]

i dont know what im feeling but there is a lot of it

[lifeinpoetry]

Last night my life was so quiet that my feelings were audible. When the phone rang, I thought it was my heart.

— Ken Chen, from “Taipei Novel,” Juvenilia

[abverlangen]

healing has no time limit

[aheadache]

kind of sad that i buy stuff when i'm sad... like that's gonna make me happy....

[raw-f00tage]

stop judging people because they sin differently from you

[aheadache]

• give us a small background into your childhood - was it good, bad, happy or sad? 

well, i could say it was a bit of both... my mom and dad decided to move from colombia to the us when i was pretty young and eventually my dad didn't like it here so he left my sisters and i at a young age... my teenage years were tough, a lot of suffering. but i was very loved and cared for as a child. things were different when i was a baby up until 9-10 years old. everything changed when i moved to the us.

• what song reminds you most of your teenage years? why?

hmm that's a tough one but there's a funny story behind it: rakata - wisin y yandel

it was the first time i danced with a boy and i thought i was looking very cute with my purple star cut off sleeves hoodie with jeans and boots.... i laugh just thinking about that moment

• what’s something in your life that you’ve had to unlearn?

shit.... i've always been too giving and my sister helped me realize that i need to care about myself, too. i can't always give give give and forget who i am and what i want. it's always been that way and in every aspect of my life, always give but never really give to myself and it's been hard work but i'm still unlearning such an awful habit

• who gave you the best - or worst - advice that you’ve ever received, and what was it?

my sister would always say the fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me... and it's stuck.

• what drew you to your current career path, or where you’re living in the world? are you happy with where you are in your life now?

i'm a college drop out, i have my associates but i didn't finish my bachelors and i needed a good job and this is it! my family moved from miami to la because of work, there was tons of jobs here in the field and my mom has her cleaning company so it all makes sense. plus we have family here. i'm not too happy? i know i could be better? but i'm okay, i'm on my own which is something i've always wanted and i am able to afford my bills and more... but i know i could do better for myself

• if you could turn back in time, what one thing would you choose to change and why, either in your personal life or the world in general, or both?

i'd want the government to acknowledge the fact that global warming was happening back in the 80's and i would want for my dad to still be around.... i haven't talked to him in so long, i sometimes cry just thinking and hoping he's doing okay and that he's happy.... but i'm bitter about the fact that he left because why us? why couldn't he stick around? ahhh, so much.

[soracities]

“I wish I could rub the grief from you as if it were a smudge on the cheek.”

— Sandra Cisneros, from “Eyes of Zapata,” Woman Hollering Creek (via lifeinpoetry)

[dogweeds]