Sayonara Human

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Monthly Writings: Aug. 2017

08/16/2017

The blood in me begins to cry  Hammer striking iron, sparks ignite  Feel the pulse of my forsaken heart  The rush of my molten core 

08/18/2017

Panacea runs through my veins Igniting me in shades of grey Death has a hold on me But I kiss her hand, lend me one more day

08/27/2017

Hesitate Author’s Notes: This is a piece I’d like to come back to and work on. When I wrote this in the AM, I felt like it could be a song of sorts. The concept is good and I especially like the last chunk at the end due to the flow, but I’ll probably leave this one on the backburner until my skill improves in structure and imagery.

And I hesitate I wish I could tell you that i love you I see our lives within our hands How the years would go on by like a blur   And I wish these words would find a way Into your mind, where they should stay But all I can manage is to wait  And I hesitate You tell me that the world is cruel And that you really can't make due With what's around you   But is that honestly the truth Am I just a blinded fool Because all around me is color When I'm with you I can see music, I can hear sounds  Of light and droplets all around And a fish out of water is what I've been But you, oh you, how you made me want to breathe How you made me want to sing That I loved you And that I saw us within years Enraptured by our fears and yet having strength to sing That I loved you, and how you always in my dreams And how those were just seams Of a reality far away And even if you can't hear me today That's okay And even if you don't know me today That's okay Because if you were still around and if you would ask me here and now what I would say Then I'd look right back you And hesitate

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Monthly Writings: May 2017

05/05/2017

Author’s Note: This was written as a lullaby an OC of mine would sing to her child. Heaven’s light, please don’t ask me Why I have turned my cheek For this world has been so rough The wind’s caress I seek  The bluebird’s song, so soft and pure Will guide me on my way And even if I stumble on At least I’ll have my say Heaven’s grace, please don't guide me Don't follow these steps I take I beg, instead, to love my soul And each breath left in wake

05/16/2017

If ugly things bring me comfort, then tell me In your eyes, am I as horrid as they come?

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Monthly Writings: Apr. 2017

04/10/2017

Did you ever scream without opening your mouth How every fiber feels fringed and frayed And how you wish you could open your jaw Slack it open And unleash a kraken of all things discordant All of your emotions Until everything is purged and you feel like yourself again But you can't So you can only breathe and blink and recite to yourself what you need to do Try to keep yourself steady on a balance beam made of broken glass and shards so hapazardly glued down And all without moving a muscle It is a very, very hard thing to do

04/24/2017

strawberry jam and sakura trees breaking rib cages one, two, three

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Monthly Writings: Feb. 2017

02/18/2017

I had so much love to give And yet no way to let it out And so it burned, and thus it burned Passion eating my insides It's no surprise my body felt like a void What with a gaping hole where my heart once was

02/19/2017

Static flowing through my veins In my head there's white noise, black and white singing along These shadows don't look the same What happens when you turn the light this way?

02/21/2017

Author’s Note: I keep wanting to revisit this idea of a caravan with masks of misfortune? It’s a prominent theme that keeps recurring whenever I do freeverse pertaining to karma and misfortune alongside stuff such as “just desserts” and what people deserve. Idk what I’ll do with the concept but this is a small blurb from that tale. Take off my mask, what do you see? That's right, that's right! Every face you've ever seen A caravan filled with misery All bundled up with a satin bow

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Monthly Writings: Jan. 2017

01/10/2017

If I am not honest I can't get what I want But if I'm clear as crystal Then I'll shatter away Oh please! Let me survive For just one more night! Oh please, let today be of no sacrifice! 24 hours scraping by Just bidding my time Sixty reasons, I need just one To keep being alive

01/20/2017

On the night of the 19th, I felt like I was ten again  That the furniture I slept on was new and bigger than me I felt like I just moved into a new house, bigger than me, emptier than me And that tomorrow would be a brand new life in a brand new house that I did not want nor had no say in moving into it  I just hope the neighbors liked me

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Monthly Writings: Dec. 2016

12/10/2016

If you want to give up Then you gotta get going You can always take the punch But don't ever take the fall

12/22/2016

I surround myself with dead things Because it helps me feel alive

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Monthly Writings: Nov. 2016

11/14/2016

Press a knife to my lips Let me kiss its slice Although its love stings and burns The pain has to suffice

11/19/2016

Happy Ending Author’s Note: Intended to be a song. Below is the chorus, and under it would’ve been spoken text. Will look back to this and reuse/continue fleshing out in the future! Hit that Game Over sign Continue? Counting from nine Thumb pressing "RESET" button Reject your ending, redefine Isn't this what you wanted? Isn't this what you asked for? The HAPPY ENDING You picked all the choices You finished all the quests You did it! IT WAS ALL YOUR FAULT

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Monthly Writings: Oct. 2016

10/03/2016

Why am I thinking of the bad ol' days Why do I remember them taking me away Kicking and screaming Bloody nose bleeding Licking sweet nicotine off a syringe Seeing all the colors I never believed in

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Monthly Writings: Sept. 2016

09/23/2016

Carve your name into my skin The only place that isn't temporary Because while my heart beats within My blood comes and goes just like the seasons

A loud splash of monochrome that made the colors complete Black and white absence filling the canvas more than Any kind of hue or shade of pulsing breathing palette

09/27/2016

A pair of forgotten children Misplaced in the colony of Earth Of course they'd eat from hands above them To them, the blood looked candy apple

09/28/2016

A mastermind But not by my design Watch the world fall one step at a time Watch the sky shatter as if frozen in time If regret is a word that comes a bit later Then lets live our lives now with so much taste to savor

Drown me in the sea Deafen me with ivory tides Let my body never be found But my spirit one with my home

09/29/2016

Be sure to ask if the girl in the picture frame is okay Talk to her, ask her how was her day Because memories fill up what was once outlines And it wouldn't be fair to just leave them behind

09/30/2016

Feeling a little bit of a disconnect Sound waves aren't getting through My words once fluid now crackle like feedback But then again, had you ever tuned in?

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Aftermath

"Aftermath" 09/23/2016 I am the aftermath of a siren's song Stricken with grief for my hearts been carved out Fingernails long as the symphony that seduced me Salty hues of ebony seas  Seafoam fills my chest The airy emptiness taking pity upon my flesh And comforting my cavernous chest I am now a shell to live in Vixens of shimmering azure How they drowned me with pursed lips and hushed whispers Sweet lillies pressed against my ear It's all okay here. There is naught to fear. Drunk by my own desires I needed an anchor to pull me back to reality Alas, what a fool I was Mistaking your arms to be my savior Mistakes, a one night stand between good intent and leaps of faith Explosions in your blood and veins, crackling adrenaline But the aftermath, an impulsive consequence Drown your worries in a backalley dumpster Deeper and deeper I fell Oxygen a sublime scent to my starved lungs All I could inhale were lily petals It's all okay here. There is naught to fear. A feast of sapphic sanguine I was bled dry by emotions I didn't wish to wake Ribcage cracked open, an oyster Left to rot My heart that loved to skip beats Found itself beating half the time Until eventually there was no rhythm Sipped dry by pursed lips As my body began to writhe Lily taste replaced by salted sapphire sky A hymn of sweet lies lifted me It's all okay here. There is naught to fear. When I arrived back to shore The sun turned its back on me Eclipsed by my weak heart Or whatever was left of it Sloppy seconds slinked onto the sand Never a scorching sensation so pure A kiss from the hell I was destined to greet Whenever my journey would decide it I am the aftermath of a siren's song Breast hollow of all but seafoam A finger traced the edges, my lips sang a blurb "It's all okay here. There is naught to fear."

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I always said I'd be with you until the end of the line

But as I said that, I failed to notice

The line you were drawing between us