[aintwakingup]

your perception of me is a reflection of you

[aintwakingup]

stuck in repeated cycles, give me a moment

[aintwakingup]

try to see everybody but who tries to see me fr

[aintwakingup]

wanna cut so bad as if the urge never really went

[aintwakingup]

how badly i want to see my skin open

[aintwakingup]

weed, beer, pills and cigarettes

[aintwakingup]

did i manipulate myself into thinking i was happy??????

[aintwakingup]

i just wanna commit suicide

[aintwakingup]

that was not so high functioning addict of me

[aintwakingup]

i will never recover from the fear of men

[aintwakingup]

broke my cycle but wonder if yours still running

[aintwakingup]

expecting emotional depth from people who never learned to sit with themselves

[aintwakingup]

the length that we grief is the length that we love

[aintwakingup]

one year and i still dream about you

[aintwakingup]

end of the day words are just words

[aintwakingup]

i can hold grief without collapsing

[aintwakingup]

i can do it alone