Akinzell

Human artist and reader. This blog is for my art journey and book ramblings. I don’t use AI to generate images - everything here is drawn by me. Buy me a book on Ko-Fi: https://ko-fi.com/akinzell I love fantasy and I’m open to buddy reads. I’ve read The Wheel of Time, the Cosmere, The Murderbot Diaries, The First Law (currently on book 4), The Lord of the Rings, ACOTAR, and plenty more. I play Genshin Impact, Honkai: Star Rail, and Wuthering Waves, and draw fanart from time to time. I have a background in cinematography, which means I get very nerdy about films, shows, and anime - especially cyberpunk.

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You don't want to upset her.

Dungeon crawler Carl fanart by me

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Prince of the Ravens - Matrim Cauthon.

Im rereading "the wheel of time" series and one thing strucked me - I didn't notice how good of a friend Mat is in "the eye of the world" on my first read. Yes, he is adventurous, stupid and does what anyone who ever watched horror movies wouldn't do, but whenever his friends need him - he is there. I am so excited to go on this journey again.😭

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I suffered this piece enough. Finally, I'm letting it see the light of day.

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Into the deep.

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Felt pretty🥹

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Best boy

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“I love you. Thorns and all… unless you decide to be difficult and want to actually be a person - do what you like and speak against me.” - Tamlin, the stupidest Fae male to ever live.

One of the things I liked about ACOTAR is the fact that SJM had the guts to throw the first book’s whole romantic arc out the window and villainize the love interest. And then proceed to strip that same love interest of everything. Feyre even takes away his friend, Lucien - who is, in fact, my favorite character in the whole story.

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One of my childhood obsessions is Avatar: The Last Airbender - I still rewatch it every year. The show is amazing. Because of it, I used to have frequent dreams of waterbending.

I drew this artwork after I found out that the woman I used to live with had died a year earlier. I was overwhelmed by it - I dreamt of her. The guilt of not knowing, of letting routine and the mundane take over and rob me of seeing her ever again - I drew this.

This is sorrow, and a goodbye to the days I lived in ignorance under the roof of a woman who was my best friend and the grandmother figure I never had.

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Yesterday was a difficult day. While we were driving to the city, someone drove straight into our car. I don’t remember the last time I was so shaken. Our car is wrecked—we got a few bruises, but otherwise we’re unharmed.

Some people just aren’t meant for driving. Who drives recklessly in icy conditions, on an uncleared road, speeding over the limit? The fact that this could have been easily avoided if the other driver knew the basic rule of yielding when your lane is blocked - rather than pushing ahead and assuming the car already in the lane would let them through - and then accelerating straight into us… it’s infuriating.

We’re lucky to be alive. My mind can’t quite wrap around how close I was to death. If we’d been driving a little faster, it could have been fatal.

That said, I’m happy to be alive. I’m happy I can write this and live another day - to draw and read, to see and talk to the people I care about.

This is one of my favourite things I’ve ever created. I know it isn’t perfect, but something about the colours and composition feels cozy to me.

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Mona Megistus! I’m going to sleep right now, but I wanted to tell you about the only time I was ever obsessed enough with fictional characters to start writing fanfiction. Truth be told, it was during a period of my life when I had no energy for anything except Genshin.

I wrote about Mona Megistus being manipulated into a deal with Wanderer (who was still evil at that point), but then Wanderer got his reveal and all my headcanons and fantasies crumbled. I was left with a bunch of scenes that didn’t make sense. I never finished it and never will - but I still love Mona.

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Moonkiller - my OC. I am obsessed with moons 😆 I know it’s almost impossible for a habitable planet to have more than one or two moons, but hey, we’re talking fiction!! I’ve always loved celestial themes, and since I read The Broken Earth trilogy by N. K. Jemisin, it’s really stuck with me. I wish I could talk with someone about this trilogy.

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I have a bunch of Mona fanart because she’s my favorite. She likes books and stars and is broke - she’s just like me. Though, to be honest, I have zero talent..

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I drew the Cassiopeia artwork today and decided to clean up my social presence. I went over to Pinterest and found out that all my works were flagged as AI-assisted, even though I never used AI to generate images. I felt filthy - like, why? I don’t think any of my art has the usual AI style, and I’m not even skilled enough to be mistaken for it; my style has been consistent. I just deleted the whole board.

This particular artwork I drew two years ago - made changes to it a dozen of times. I love Lumine - I regret choosing Aether as MC in genshin, especially now that they got new outfits. Ather's outfit looks so much worse than Lumine's.

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A few days ago I finished a book series I didn’t want to read in the first place. I took up a challenge and read it for shits and giggles. I hated some parts, but I generally had fun discussing it with my friend - and now I’m kind of craving more of it???? Like, it was cringe at times. Deus ex machina worked overtime. I hated the majority of the spicy scenes. But the visual part? I mean, the world - even if flimsy and wobbly - I grew to love it. WTF? Now I want to draw some fanart.

Yes, Im talking about ACOTAR

Justice for my boy Lucien

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Cassiopeia. I live in place with minimal light pollution so every night - especially in the winter - I am able to observe stars. Cassiopeia is the constellation I use to find other constellations. Every night I blow her a kiss. Every night I see her, and despite everything, she is one of the few constants in my life. There, among the stars, I have a friend to look upon.