Yep. I'm alive.

Hiya. I'm Aya. she/her. 30. I like reading, laughing, eating, and napping.

[hun-y]

if you were debating whether or not to send me $100 go ahead this is your sign that it is okay to do that.

[gregtom]

[k-simplex-deactivated20241001]

Happy Pride

[auxphono]

Needed a clean graphic for a project, and figured while I was vectoring I would put sex and magic back in.

Happy Pride Month

[auxphono]

Reblogging this yearly for anyone who needs a very clean version <3 Happy Pride.

[the-aro-agenda]

obviously i don't really *get* romance in general but sometimes i hear about dating norms or anxieties people have about it and i'm just like. that sounds exhausting

[ceruleanheaven]

[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over

[kaafii]

1.01 "Pilot", 3.08 "In God We Trust" Zendaya's first and final appearance as Ruby Bennett in Euphoria.

[theflightofapollo]

Doctor Who stays relevant

[nevver]

Last light, Mary Mattingly

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

well maybe you should blearily wake up at 5:08 in the pre-dawn light and find the sleeping soft tiny mammal body of your cat just inches from your head like a miracle too beautiful for speech, and you should rustle one hand out from your blankets to rub fingertip circles across the warm eggshell dome of her little velvet-wrapped skull and on the bristly patches just where the cups of her ears begin, and as she inclines her head into your fingers and purrs without ever opening her little eyes you should feel a love so tender that you understand how that love could have reached out from the fireside into the inky spangled nights long gone to reach her, and then you'll feel better

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

i am at a complete loss as to how to adequately express to you how much this cat throws up yeah

[ofcrystalsandart]

The all white, puritanical christian family being seen as the end all be all of goodness in the world

The nazi surviving and escaping justice, while three black people who are also involved in drug dealing do get killed in the end

The only trans character being isolated from her friends and reduced to an at home sex doll for some rich guy

Ridiculing and mocking the one outspoken atheist character throughout season 3 and making her turn to christianity as some kind of self referential circle jerk that didn't land at all

Not even giving the main character a funeral or even showing her own mother or friend's reactions to her passing

Euphoria could've been so much more if it wasn't made by some self righteous white guy with an extreme exploitation fetish

[kcyars99]

My biggest takeaway about euphoria this season (and overall ) is rue needed Black friends. The only person that ever cared for her truly and understood her fully was Ali, a Black man. Being surrounded by “white allys” only will lead you to death and destruction. I’ll never have a white ally find me

[professorsta]

Genuinely, Sam Levinson is a misogynist and racist. He's awful to women of color. And I don't mean that he wants to bring back segregation. I mean that he does Not have empathy for people of color, especially women of color. It's so apparent in everything he writes. That's why euphoria hit for some people despite reason 3 being shit and predominantly written by Levinson. It's because the season is about persevering in life despite the pain or the grief.... Yeah, minorities definitely understand that story already. We also definitely know what it's like for a white man to set a somber tone and tell minorities that the systems in place are set up against us. Thats why it's so "realistic". It's literally reality. It's a white man in a place of power telling the masses that our lives suck, and he does that by being a Shit to the literal women of color and trans performers he works with. He told the poor actress who played Maddy to tone it down on being latina when auditioning. He had the actress, who played Rues mother, come out and film multiple scenes for the moment Rue calls her on the phone, only for the episode to air and never tell her he cut most if not 95% of her scenes. Labyrinth took all his music back from season 3 and refused to work with him again cus Sam Levinson was being such an asshole to him. He uses Zendayas fame to pilot the first two seasons, and then for the finale completely side lines her and makes her a martyr for men to fight over. It's so disrespectful to people of color, to the real people he works with and the people he's representing through his characters. It's questionable and he's right to receive criticisms for how stereotypical Levinson wrote Alamos and Ali's backstories, but also how he treats the women characters, specifically, of color who are constantly sidelined. Its the fact that he doesn't see women as having any form of agency, and so wrote a story about things happening to a black women but never about her character developing (either negatively or positively) just stayed static with Rues's character.

I don't count her interest in religion as change bc that's a common tactic to recover from drugs. It's Jesus or drugs, as the saying goes. She had to find another outlet for her disease, and religion was acting as that for her. It was like another form of addiction. There are alot of hurt people in the pews of church for a reason. Like Rue said, it gives you a bigger reason than yourself. That doesn't mean Rue was changing or developing, she had a similar mindset when she was in highschool till the end of the third season. We saw glimpses of the possibility of change. Her questioning Alamos intentions and her own accountability, and those possibilities are exactly what sam Levinson used to fuel her Martyr ending. So now Rue doesn't get to be developed, and possibly get her own revenge against Alamo, instead of being killed and her memory being saved by Ali. Bc Sam Levinson doesn't believe in that reality. A reality where a black woman (just like Ali) could develop, get into remission for her disease, and then either work to help young black people in rues position like ali, or go on some kick ass cowboy shoot out. That Rue could have some form of agency. Or her mother, who's grief was not a priority at all, unlike Alamo and Ali having a shoot out. Two men, who we have not followed as intimately or as long as we have with Rue and her mother, were devoted more time in the finale of the whole show. All we got to any form of women having agency was Cassie, and even then so much was happening to her

I also think that a huge reason Cassie got more screen time was because Cassie is white and played by the racist Bezos loving Sidney Sweeney. So again, the only reason a woman got anywhere close to agency was Cassie whos actress is tied to white supremacy. You could argue that Lexi had agency, but she was almost never focused on and consistently sidelined. We could have devoted alot more scenes to her than Alamo or Faye and her boyfriend, but that wasn't Levinson's priority. It literally bleeds into Every Inch of this season. He is racist and sexist, and fuck probably transphobic. He genuinely cannot empathize with any of us.

[zendayaupdates]

ZENDAYA as Rue in HBO's EUPHORIA (2026)

[salvatore---girl]

I dont like this new trend for female main characters who suffered the entire series

[thatsashitplan]

I don’t like this trend in media where struggling characters “have” to die. why aren’t addicts and outcasts allowed to have happy or hopeful endings anymore. I know things are bleak and people die but holy shit. the one grace of media is that you can CHOOSE to live in the best reality possible where EVERYONE can move on with their life and things can get better, not this defeatist nonsense.

[blueribbonbaby]

Fezco and Rue

[hussyknee]

The most basic, intractable fact about mental illnesses is that you simply cannot willpower your way out of them. The only exceptions to this rule are the ones I have, which continue to disable me due to lack of determination and other grave personal flaws