unforgivable

[alcessandralopez]

le0davi​:

Leo couldn’t help, but smile softly at her agreement. It was good to know that the only good part of his childhood wasn’t only in his head. “I am kind of famous… you could have found me.” He said, playfully, unable to keep himself gloating about that achievement. 

He chuckled and shook his head at her explanation. He also stole a glance at the alcohol in his possession. There was no way he was going to explain that. “That sounds like a fun time. I shouldn’t keep you any longer from that sleepover.” He said with a light tap on the cart’s handle. “Wait, did you just say ‘shooting a movie’?” He repeated incredulously. The string of words was so familiar to his ears that he didn’t catch it at first. “Are you telling me you’re an actor now, too?” He questioned with a glint in his eye. Again his interest in her was steadily peaking. But alas this passing setting they were in, did not seem to be a great one to catch up in. “I’ll tell you what. Let’s exchange numbers, and we’ll catch up somewhere else.” 

♡

she smiled softly looking down at her feet chuckling a bit, “i mean i knew that much but at the same time…” she lifted her shoulders a bit as she lifted her eyes to look up at him again. she knew there was always a way to get a hold of him it was just about the right words to say, and the way she could have come off. when she learned that leo had been famous she thought just maybe he didn’t even remember her that there was no point, “at the same time i didn’t want to be considered a stalker.” she shook her head a bit before clearing her throat.

“i mean it’s not for a little bit but yeah i promised i’d be well rested before hand… i should probably go check out.” she smiled looking around the aisle before her head turned back to him nodding a bit, “yeah i was filming.” she clarified, “i mean it’s my first film and it’s a sort of dance film so it stuck with me being a dancer, but i did have to sign with netflix so hopefully more jobs.” she smiled softly really proud of herself in that moment. it was one thing she always aimed for and saying it out loud made it even more real for herself. nodding her head at his suggestion she reached to grab her phone from her back pocket, “yeah we should get together sometime and catch up.” a smile on her face widening as she spoke her eyes glancing down to her phone.

[sofiacarsonsource]

December 8, 2020: via Instagram Stories

[alcessandralopez]

finn-harrington​:

——

“Sounds like it was made for you then,” Finn politely responded, his tone unsure. Thoughts raced, wondering how he could help. As though any good deed he did would make up for what he had done. Firstly, he thought of money, of which he had more than necessary. But he doubted she’d take charity regardless. Second thought was introducing her to Leo, who might have the connections and know-how to help her in the movie business. But the thought of his newly single friend in a 10-mile radius of Ali made his chest tighten. “When does it come out?” he chose to ask instead. 

There was a sense of defeat covering his facial features. “I know. I didn’t want to break up, that wasn’t.. what I was trying to do.” Or at least, it wasn’t the root cause of his infidelity. Maybe he should have explained at the time. Or maybe he shouldn’t have given her a key to his apartment. It wasn’t like he had gone out that night wanting to cheat. But saying ‘it just happened’ was too cliche, even for him. Anything he said about why he had done it would only sound like he was trying to justify it. “It’s better you found out who I am then, rather than letting you think I was a good guy any longer. I ruin everything I touch, always have and always will.” The words his own father had said to him. To think he was anything other than a cad and a cheat, there was no use. Hearing about he only enforced a narrative within her, probably brought on from her adoptive parents, whom she mentioned every once in a while when they were together. Finn knew that shitty parents was something they had in common, and now they shared a dislike of anything that resembled love. “I shouldn’t have brought it up.. but you know, I just wanted to say sorry.”

♡

she lifted her shoulders a bit at his words her fingers now picking at the lid on the cup. looking up from the cup she cleared her throat, “in a couple months. it’s in post production right now and they want to get it out as soon as possible.” she said, “and it all depends on netflix’s schedule.” she added glancing back down at the cup before lifting it up to her lips taking a sip before she set the cup back down her mind trying to focus on the coffee, trying to get her to fully wake up so she could easily hide her feelings and facial expressions more.

she watched the look on his face give up and slowly her shoulders began to fall as she slid down in her seat only just a bit before she pushed herself to sit up straighter, “sure seemed like you did.” she muttered looking away a fraction of her wanting to make an outburst but she began to listen to him, and actually hear his words. her head turned back her eyes meeting his as her brows furrowed, “if you honestly believed that or believe that then why let us go on for a year, finn?” she questioned her eyes blinking as she pushed down her emotions but genuinely wanted to know, “if you honestly thought you broke everything you touched or touch why stay with me for a year? a year finn… if you couldn’t tell that was the last time i was actually happy until recently.. if you break everything you touch why wait a fucking year before you decided to break someone who you knew was already broken?” she questioned taking a deep breath before she closed her eyes her hand coming up to pinch the bridge of her nose as she let out the breath she was holding, “okay… fine. it’s-“ she shook her head, “it’s in the past it’s whatever.”

[alcessandralopez]

le0davi​:

-

Leo’s interest in her kept growing steadily the more she spoke. Jet-lagged? Ten Years? He gaped in his head. More questions kept arising. He would need more than a quick chat in front of the alcohol at a grocery store. His intrigued was clear to see under the brim of his hat. “I wish I knew sooner. I don’t know about you, but you’re a good part of my childhood.” He said casually, trying not to lay on the harsh truth so thickly. He even shrugged. Part of him, a small child sized part of him was bummed. It would have been nice to rekindle in their twenties, but here they were now.

He nodded at her words, accepting her hesitation. He had things himself that he’d never want to elaborate on. It crept in the back of his head though. It was the whole reason why he was wearing a cap indoors, and why his cart looked like he was throwing a frat party. “Well welcome back to L.A.” He said with lifting up his shoulders, it was then he noticed the bottle in her hands. 

♡

she tried to wrap her mind around what was happening right now between the two of them. she had to figure out if it was real or if she was still passed out on her couch back at her apartment and soon would wake up. though she could easily read his expression that there was a part of him that also wanted to catch up but was the middle of the alcohol section really the best place? a small smile had traced her lips as she gave a nod at his words, “i can definitely agree to that as well.. you were a really great part of my childhood.” she looked down at her feet again once again beginning to hate the two people even more for tearing her away from a place she always called home. clearing her throat she shook her head some, “i would have reached out if i knew a way to do so..” she said looking back to him lifting her shoulders some. she had wished sometime that time would have just turned back and made her find a way to reach out to him once she got back into the state again, like she had said she would before she left before. 

letting out a breath she gave a small smile, “thank you, i’m honestly glad to be back.” she said softly her eyes trailing to his cart before following his eyes to the bottle in her hands, “i’m having like a sleepover with one of my friends since i just got back from shooting a movie so its a ‘i got you your favorite wine since i left you for so long’ kind of gift” she explained her brows furrowing at her own words as she explained for some odd reason as to why she had the bottle in the first place. maybe it was because the last time they saw each other they’d both been way under the legal age limit to drink yet here they were both alcohol in their possessions. 

[museinspo]

“I’m a simple person who hides a thousand feelings behind the happiest smile.”

— Unknown (via quotemadness)

[alcessandralopez]

finn-harrington​:

——

“My congratulations stands then.” But instead of a new relationship, it was a career opportunity. He supposed anything she did was worth congratulating. “I didn’t know you wanted to be an actress.” If you took it back a decade, there probably wasn’t a person Finn knew better than her, or at least he thought so. It was the first time he allowed himself to go any deeper with someone, and even then, he kept himself a mystery. Half foot in, half foot out. Now he had no feet in at all. 

He listened to her words, and she was right. They both had pain but she was able to push through it, Finn wasn’t. He couldn’t. It was something missing inside him that no amount of illicit substances or career achievements could fill. “You’re right,” he admitted with an exhale. His hands ran through his stubble. “I didn’t want to break you.” Intention meant nothing, he knew the damage he had done. Letting her believe that what they had was what he wanted, which it was.. until it wasn’t. In truth, it felt like the choice was made for him. A train wreck just waiting to happen. “What do you mean it’s not in the books for you?” He asked without thinking, genuinely perplexed at the words. Had he really irrevocably ruined her? “It wasn’t because you were unlovable, Ali. Come on,” he shook his head. In fact, it was the opposite. “I’m sorry if I made you think that.” 

♡

she gave a small nod as he congratulated her, “thank you.” she said softly looking back at the cup as she gently twirled in between her fingers. she gave a small shrug at his next words, “i didn’t know either until i got the part.” it was the luck of the draw in her mind she truly didn’t expect to have gotten a movie role especially on her first try but she would take it. she loved making the first one she wouldn’t be opposed to starring in more, “it was recommend to me and i just took a shot. i didn’t know i was audition for a movie at first until they had me do a chemistry read. but here i am.” she said looking up again and at him. 

she watched him and part of her told her to just get up because this had been a mistake but the other part of her, the part that was winning, had her stayed right where she was glued to her seat. she gave a small nod at his words, “you know there are less painful ways to break up with someone right?” she questioned now tilting her head a bit as she did so. at the time she didn’t understand it because in the act of it all she was completely blindsided by it. she took a chance with finn, after getting out of a bad relationship and thought everything had been perfect until that very night. she shook her head glancing down at the table her arms coming to cross over her chest now, as if it would protect her from everything, “you didn’t make me think that, that thought had always been in my head long before i met you.” she said before lifting up her shoulder now refusing to meet his gaze, “i took a chance and i now realized love is a stupid feeling, that was never going to come to me. you helped shut it off but you weren’t the one to make me think i was unlovable.” 

[alcessandralopez]

finn-harrington​:

——

A crack in his facial expression came when she mentioned this Lucas having a girlfriend. So, she was testing his reaction and Finn wasn’t a fan of being tested. Only a fan of games when he was the one playing them. His eyebrows furrowed.  “Oh,” was all his said, his mind trying to piece together the slivers of information she’d given him. “Like a movie-movie?” She was a dancer, or had been. He supposed a lot had happened in the ten years. All that happened to him was work or family related, both going in opposite directions. From the time they’d broken up, Finn was only casual. He had tried to keep a relationship with Ali for over a year, and he had failed so spectacularly that he hadn’t wanted to try again. Truly believing that his father was right and that he did ruin everything that he touched. 

He probably shouldn’t have brought it up when things were going so.. well, but as he said, he couldn’t not say it. Just once. There were reasons behind it, a why — but there was something inside him that wanted to dismiss it. “It isn’t,” he replied, knowing that he didn’t want to hear how it took her eight years to stop hating herself for it, he knew that whatever reasons he had wouldn’t make it better. Finn hoped that she’d never stop hating him, in equal measure with the chance that maybe he could be granted some kind of absolution. “It had nothing to do with you, Ali” he tried to assure her sincerely. Obviously she wasn’t to know that, considering they hadn’t spoken a word to each other since it happened. “There was a lot going on that I didn’t tell you, but I suppose that doesn’t matter now.” 

♡

she watched him and just gave a nod when she revealed that lucas had a girlfriend. she watched as the realization came to his face and she sat there looking him over knowing for the first time she played the game where she knew she could hurt him in the tiniest way. nodding again she let out a breath, “yes like a movie movie. it’s a dance movie but still a movie.” she answered briefly eyes wandering away from him before she took a deep breath. the last time they saw each other she was teaching dance at a local studio while also dancing for herself, but as the years went on she wanted to break free of the mold that she felt restrained in and didn’t want to feel trapped anymore before she went out and started doing more auditions taking moments where she really did try to make a name for herself away from the name she was given when she was adopted.

as she continued to stare past his shoulder she forced herself to push back down every single emotion that threaten to break free. all the anger she worked to let go of. all the sadness that she spent years getting rid of. she even held back all the tears that wanted to fall after years of shoving them down. she took a moment longer looking past him before her eyes went to look down at her coffee cup and even the thought of drinking something made her feel ill. “well-” she paused letting out a breath, “that’s all i got right now.” she said softly clearing her throat before taking a breath looking up finally, her eyes looking into his, “you can say that it had nothing to do with me but you don’t know how it felt, finn.” she said looking up before she took another breath, “we both had a lot going on.. the difference between us is my pain i turned to love. yours, you-” she stopped shaking her head closing her eyes for a moment before taking a breath, “yours you decided it was best to break someone instead of opening up.” she looked down, “and i forgave you two years ago because i finally realized love was never in the books for me.”

[alcessandralopez]

finn-harrington​:

——

Finn gave a crooked smile, thinking that maybe if she wasn’t so tired, Ali would never have given him the time of day. It was good to know that luck was on his side in that department. He knew he was on borrowed time, not only for the meeting he had in 45 minutes but also before he said or did something that made the house of cards they were building fall apart. Was she gloating to made him jealous? A part of him would be lying if he said it didn’t bother him. The mention of this movie made him bristle slightly, not sure if she meant kind of vlog or.. something else. “Congratulations,” he tried to sound sincere before clearing his throat, taking his cup back to his lips. “I’m sure you two are very happy.” A part of him wished he could gloat in a similar fashion, but he chose not to. The death of his father was still fresh, a wound he thought long closed had reopened just recently and perhaps that made him long to change things. “I know it’s probably too little, too late but.. I don’t remember if I ever actually apologized for… what happened.” He kept his gaze away, unsure if the words would formulate if he was looking at her. “Regardless, I am sorry.” A normal person would say that they didn’t mean to, or it meant nothing. But what made it worse was that his cheating had done exactly what he wanted it to. Dark hues went back to her face, reading her expressions to his apology. “It probably doesn’t mean much now, but I couldn’t see you and not say it.”

♡

as they two of them stared at one another she wondered what was going through his mind at the little details she was sharing. what was he truly thinking and how in the world was she able to sit right here with him and be so ... calm? she gave a small nod, “thank you.” she said quietly before clearing her throat moving to sit up more, “we’re happy with the movie we made-” she started before looking at the table for a second then looking back over at him, “but luke and his girlfriend are very much happy in their new york apartment, where they both let me stay while we filmed the movie.” she elaborated unable to keep up the charade anymore. there was no point, he was her last relationship and she truly refused to date anymore after what had happened feeling a bit more insecure about herself or trusting another with her heart. looking back at the table she let the silence overcome them in that moment as she revealed the truth before he spoke again and her eyes flicked up and back over to him and she just sat silently letting him speak, letting him apologize for what had happened ten years ago and her mind easily went back to that night. he hadn’t apologized then because she didn’t give him the chance to the moment she walked in and found him she shut down and walked out leaving everything there and unread even if he did reach out she didn’t let it get to her because for a short while she had him completely blocked out it wasn’t until recently where she unblocked him from everything. 

letting out a breath she opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out, it was as though the words were stuck and she didn’t know how to release them. clearing her throat she tried again letting out a breath her hand coming up to pinch the bridge of her nose before she let both hands fall into her lap, “you didn’t apologize then... i don’t think i would have let you if you tried.” she shook her head her eyes stayed on the table as she spoke almost too afraid to look at him. she tried to keep her expression blank but those who knew her could easily see that even then everything played in her mind and she was letting part of herself feel the hurt she blocked out for so long, “i don’t think you’ll ever tell me why you did it but-” she shook her head looking back up now lifting her shoulder some, “thanks for apologizing years later i guess.” she shook her head looking past his shoulder now not able to meet his eyes only to keep her emotions at bay, “i stopped hating myself and you about two years ago so if that’s what you want to hear.” 

[alcessandralopez]

tommyreyes​:

Conversation between them used to be so easy going, as lame as it might sound he could be hisself around her. Now it felt like he was forcing himself to talk to her when in reality he was missing his friend. He sighed with relief since she knew what he meant, “Yeah I guess we can’t.” He smiled at her and in that moment realized he wasn’t going to let this continue. “When do you start promoting?” He asked, hoping she would have some time to spend with him before. “I was hoping we could get together and hopefully talk a bit about…everything.” Tommy looked into her eyes so she would know exactly what he meant. Standing on the sidewalk in front of a coffee shop didn’t exactly feel like the right place for that talk. “There’s probably not that much to say and don’t feel obligated at all, I would understand if you don’t want to.” He would never want her to spend time with him out of pity or just because she felt it was the right thing to do. “I’m a grown man so no need to worry about sparing my feelings, I’ll be okay.” He wanted to assure her just in case that was something she worried about.

♡

she watched him for a moment and that’s when she realized she missed her friend. missed the person she would talk to whenever she felt like she needed to vent because he didn’t judge her and this moment was the moment she felt it the most. looking down at her feet she let out a breath a small smile playing at her lips as she listened to him before nodding. looking back up at his question she twisted her lips in thought, “i have to record some sound but then about a month or two break before promos and interviews start.” she answered as she racks her brain for her schedule, “but i’ll still be in LA for that.” she added soon after looking up at him. when he looked at her as he spoke she gave a small nod and went to speak before he continued and she pinched her lips together. she knew what he meant and she agreed they should talk about it, it sucked that they couldn’t before she left but now that she was back they should just to clear the air and get back onto the same page. they both were at fault for what happened neither of them could have put the blame on the other she just hated what the outcome of it all was. reaching out she placed a hand on his arm gently, “tommy, i’ll be free whenever you want to get together to talk.” she said softly before her hand fell back to her side, “just let me know when you have time and we’ll set something up that isn’t in front of a coffee shop.” 

[alcessandralopez]

le0davi​:

–

Leo’s skeptical look had molded to something more warm and curious. She had grown so much from the memory of her. He remembered her as his first crush ever; the girl with the big eyes. He had memories of blushing around Ali, and taking her on silly adventures during the very short time they had known each other as kids. 

“I’m not at my best.” He answered simply with a shrug; he knew why he was pale, and it wasn’t because she surprised him.  “How long have you been back?” He asked, diverting the attention off of him and onto her. He was intrigued to know more about the woman in front of him. After all they had clicked before, maybe they could be friends again. 

♡

she looked at her feet for a second trying to form the words she wanted to say before she lifted her shoulders looking back at him at his words, “i’m super jet lagged so i can only imagine how i look so.” she lifted her shoulders again her tongue poking out of her mouth to rewet her lips as she let out a breath. what could she say? two days? because technically that wasn’t a lie she had been back for two days, but she knew that wasn’t what he meant so she decided on the fact of it all, “um ten years.” she said glancing down at her feet before she met his gaze again, “then i left for three months for work and got back yesterday.” she added bringing her free hand up to push the hair out of her face. 

as she looked at him she noticed just how much the two of them grew up. how much the two of them grew into their features but still had those distinctive looks that each other could easily notice. she knew not to bring up the topic that had been printed in a gossip magazine, she knew topics were off limits so she stayed away from them but that didn’t stop her from wondering how he was doing. “i finally just walked away from-” she paused shaking her head, “i came back to a home that i was always home.” she lifted her shoulders.

[alcessandralopez]

cara-willixms​:

——

Cara shook her head disapprovingly. “Not if I have anything to do with it,” she said with a small ounce of pride. If it was the last thing she did, Ali was going to know how amazing she was. Cara dedicated a lot of time to making sure her friends were aware of all their successes and positive attributes. Although she wouldn’t shy away when she thought they were doing something stupid or dangerous. “Sounds like a plan,” Cara approved with a nod of her head. “I promise I won’t go out tonight after work so you don’t have to deal with me and my hangover.” Although they both knew that if anyone even mentioned it in Cara’s orbit, she wouldn’t say no. “I hope it’s not too strong, but we do want it to knock you out.” She rested her chin on her hands as she leaned on the bar. “Was your flight back okay? I’m practically busting to hear about New York, you know.” 

♡

the smile on her face stayed before she shook her head just a bit, “i know i know, i’m gorgeous and need to embrace it.” she said waving her hands a bit as she spoke before she let out a breath, “one day i’ll finally see it.” she added before looking over at cara a soft smile on her face. it wasn’t that she was insanely insecure it was every time she thought maybe her insecurities were gone, the words of her adoptive mother rang in her ears and soon she just began to once again believe them. shaking her head again she smiled, “please if you’re invited out go have fun, one of us deserves it.” she laughed, “i’ll be home for the most part and i will always deal with you and your hangover. if you go out i’ll have the best hangover breakfast just for you.” she teased her chin lifting a smile on her face before she lifted the cup up to her lips taking a sip as she shook her head, “no its not that strong, perfect actually will definitely keep me awake for the time being until i really do need to go.” she smiled sitting up straighter, “it was okay, there was a bit of turbulence but it was to be expected, you know?” she spoke, “the only thing i couldn’t stand about new york were the storms. you know me hating any kind of thunder or lightning storm. it was a disaster my love interest in the movie had no idea what to do with me when i would just zone out in a little ball. but over all it was amazing.”  

[alcessandralopez]

jack-arcane​:

“Maybe next time then.” He chuckled as he kept working, trying to keep himself busy until the event started that evening. Hosting something at his place was always stressful but one of his best bartenders had called out that night so he was stepping in to her spot tonight. “Yikes. Been there. Was it a date or just a friend who bailed on you?” Jack had been on his fair share of dates where the woman never showed up or she did and was rude or overbearing. He was probably too picky anyway, his own standards for a relationship worthy person were far too high. “Anytime I agree to host something it’s stressful. It’s nice for the publicity sake but the work that goes into it is rough.”

♡

“let me know and i’ll definitely be here then.” she smiled with a nod before she lifted her cup to finish off her drink setting it back down on the napkin in front of her before shaking her head softly her eyes wandering around the bar before they settled back on the man in front of her, “i don’t really do dating, so it was more of a let’s see how this plays out.” she lifted her shoulder, “guys suck anyways,” she said before eyes widening a bit, “no offense.” she quickly added. leaning forward on her elbows a bit she gave a nod, “i can only imagine, dance recitals get insane when its time to plan and such so i get it a bit but it all pays in the end.” 

[alcessandralopez]

finn-harrington​:

——

“Well, if you are going to dump coffee on my head, I appreciate you waiting until it’s only mildly scalding.” He wouldn’t begrudge her a scene, if that was what she was wanting. Sometimes woman liked to make a big show about how upset or angry there were at them, it usually only infuriated them further when he responded with nothing but logic and harsh truths. But Ali seemed continue to dance around the tense air between them. And ten years hadn’t dulled the calming effect she always had on him. New York, he thought to himself in surprise, only wondering further what made travel east. But then mention of a Lucas made him still, jaw clenched tight. Of course, she’d have a boyfriend. It had been a decade and it would have been naive of him to think she’d still.. he diverted his train of thought away from that. “Summer in New York sounds amazing,” he commented, only the smallest hint of bitterness in his tone. There was a time where he’d wanted to take her to Italy for the summertime, back before his life caved in and he destroyed everything that meant anything to him. All aspects of his life ruined so that he could suffer in solitude, just like he was destined to. “I’m sure you and Lucas had a great time.” Finn managed to say the man’s name without stopping which he considered a triumph, even placing a small smile on his lips for her. If she was happy, then it was all worth it. He just hoped that whoever this Lucas was, that he treated her far better than Finn did. 

♡

“i guess we’ll just have to wait to see how i’m feeling when i fully wake up.” she gave another shrug looking over at him. would she actually dump the coffee on him? probably not now ten years later, if it would have been ten years ago and this little run in happened then, then yes she probably wouldn’t have waited until the coffee cooled down at all. as she did speak she watched him carefully years ago she would have easily been able to read him as much as he allowed her to but once she dropped her costar’s name she saw his facial features twist and there was a small part of her that felt some sort of success that, that tiny bit of information she just shared caused the tiniest reaction that made her feel in control. “new york is amazing. i guess there’s just something about big cities that i love, but with luke being from there it was as though i had my own personal tour guide my entire time” she shrugged before giving a nod turning her head a bit to glance around the coffee shop before her eyes wandered back over to finn, “we did, we even made a movie to show how much fun it was.” she said a smile on her lips but she couldn’t get over how bitter he had sounded and she wondered just why he was? he was the one that ruined it for them, right? even if she wasn’t giving the full story on how she stayed in the guest room of lucas and his girlfriend’s apartment but his girlfriend wouldn’t allow alessandra to simply stay in a hotel for three months, why was finn bitter and why did she care about what he thought.

[alcessandralopez]

finn-harrington​:

——

He let out another laugh — just a small huff. “I’m surprised you don’t,” he replied lowly. Ali would have every right to make him sound as douchey as possible, it wasn’t like it wasn’t true. They both knew what he had done and what he was capable of, and it wasn’t like he had apologised for it. Yet. So the surprise that flashed across his face was genuine when she agreed to sit with him. He glanced at the barista that was still hovering nearby, the body language of not-so-subtle eavesdropping. Finn looked back at Ali with a polite smile, a hand motioning for her to pick a seat. “I’m surprised you didn’t tell me to go fuck myself,” he said cooly, broaching the subject with all the subtly of a freight train. “Although I suppose there’s still time for that.” As they made themselves comfortable in the seating area, Finn focused momentarily on how she’d changed in ten years. He thought that if they’d ever meet again, it would end in bloodshed and tears. Not polite conversation over coffee. Had it always been this easy? “So.. sticking with the weather. How was it.. wherever you just flew in from?” He nudged the conversation back towards where his curiosities lay. What was she doing? Where had she been? Who was she with? The last one gave his stomach a twist at the mere thought, an unsettling feeling he wouldn’t allow himself feel for long. 

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she looked over at his more of a forced smile teased at her lips, “there’s still time.” she said lifting her shoulder just slightly before she glances over at the barista then shook her head as she made way to walk past finn picking a table far enough from the counter that listening baristas couldn’t hear every word they were saying now. if anyone had told ali that she’d come back from filming her first movie only to run into the ex that hurt her the most and have an actual conversation, she would just laugh and call them insane but now that is was actually happening she truly couldn’t tell you what was going on in her mind. it was like everything had shut down and she was mainly working on autopilot. sitting she lifted her shoulder brining the cup to her lips before she said, “perhaps i’m just waiting till the coffee cools down?” she raised a brow before taking another long sip. sitting up straighter in her seat she placed the coffee cup down on the table her eyes meeting the male as he questioned the weather. she gave a small nod, “it was good, it was still summer in new york so it was blistering hot until like night when these terrible storms would happen. god the storms i swear lucas thought i was insane whenever it would storm and i’d sit there in a ball because of it.” she shook her head. had she purposely dropped the name of her costar just to see his reaction? probably but he didn’t have the right to care since he had hurt her. “but overall it was nice until it started to get colder and i couldn’t do it no more i had to come home to feel the heat.” 

[alcessandralopez]

closed starter || @fortii​​ location || alessandra’s apartment 

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“come on kel! stay still you know you look adorable right now don’t try to deny it.” she laughed as she held her camera up. it had been one of the better days she’s had since returning home and knowing she definitely needed to spend time with one of her favorite guys in the city. another laugh escaped her as she reached out to grab ahold his wrist so he would stay still, “i promise this will only be used for birthday posts and your contact photo no one will see it before then.” she tried to say to cover up her laughter. 

[alcessandralopez]

phoebe-adair​:

“Coffee the enemy- there are times when the only thin in my house is coffee, creamer and sugar.” Phoebe nodded towards the street, “Well want company running errands? I’m headed to trader joes myself to try and be responsible and I’m always down for company. We can take my car if you like and, we can get iced coffee next time ya know to save off the first degree burns and while we’re at it you can tell me all about this new fabulous life you’ve been living.”

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she let out a light laugh nodding a bit, “oh yes it is. a terrible enemy but the only enemy that can easily take me over.” she smiled nodding a bit before her eyes met phoebe’s once more, “i would love company, i think i need the company or i will divert from errands and we both know i’m terrible with that.” she laughed with a nod at the ice coffee comment, “ice coffee is a yes and i will gladly tell you all about how filming was without really giving the entire movie away.” she smiled bright

[alcessandralopez]

cara-willixms​:

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“We stan a queen who knows her own beauty,” Cara praised her friend merrily. While she knew that wasn’t always the way with Ali, it was nice to hear that her friend was aware of even a smidgeon of how stunning she was. “Well, I’ll bring food and drinks, I’ll let myself in. We’ll have ourselves a party once you’ve rested, I bet you’re so exhausted.” Sure, it wouldn’t be anything like the pre-filming celebration that Cara had organised for her friend, but just the two of them? Cara could do with some girl time. She hadn’t had a quiet night in some time. “I was brought here against my will, but still the best decision I didn’t make.” She chuckled melodically as she finished off the cocktail, dropping three coffee beans on the top for garnish before handing it over to Ali. “Bottoms up, superstar.” 

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“and we both know this is the last time for a long time that i accept this.” she laughed her chin coming to lean in the palm of her hand as she let out a soft sigh. there was always a part of her that stemmed from her childhood that made her just a bit more insecure about herself than others saw and though most of what she did was an act to divert the issues of her mind away from her closest friends she still couldn’t help to hide all the insecurities and cara was one of the ones closest to her that knew ali wouldn’t always know her self worth. “you’re an angel. really. though i do have to do some shopping and being on east coast time i think i’ll be up before the city is so maybe i’ll just do shopping before you get there and nap until you get there.” she planned for the day before cara would get there to her place because she needed a girls night after spending a whole three months of hanging out with mainly children while filming she needed an actual adult conversation. she chuckled lightly before sitting up taller as the drink was placed in front of her, “oh i so need this. thank you!”