My Mom passed away mid January in 2006. On March 19th I found I was pregnant with our first son. I was truly heart broke that my Mom never met me boys. I was heart broke that I was pregnant without my Mom to be there with me. I felt very alone in a lot of ways.Â
When we where 6.5m pregnant  we found that our son had kidney issues. We where told he would most likely die right after birth. If he did survive it would not be for long. In short he had a short lifespan and he would be in a lot of pain.Â
I went to bed for 3 days I stayed there and sobbed. On the morning of the third day I finally drifted off to sleep. I had a dream that would change everything for me.Â
 The dream went like this:::
I was sitting on the floor in an apartment unpacking. I heard a baby crying so I got up. As I stepped into his door way there standing by his crib looking at him and rubbing his back was my Mom.Â
I was stunned and asked her what she was doing there. Â How was she there.Â
She replied::: ‘Honey I don’t have long but, I cam to tell you he will be fine. Trust me ok? He will be fine.’ She paused and looked down at him. ‘I can’t wait for you to see him. He is beautiful.’ As she vanished she repeated ‘remember he will be fine. I won’t do that to you. I won’t let that happen. He will be fine.’
I woke up strangely calm and said ’Ok Mom.’ I got up with help from a friend I got a shower and got cleaned up.Â
From there every ultrasound Noah seem to stabilize. Â The news was still scary but not as Earth shattering.Â
Noah was born the following November on a stormy night. He was fine. He was big and healthy. No one could explain why or how.Â
When Noah was about 3mo I woke to change him in the middle of the night. He suddenly woke up and started talking saying  ‘Nana’ and laughing at the ceiling.Â
I was told by people that it meant nothing and I was being silly.Â
However, as he got older this behavior still happened. I went to get him out of his crib when he was about 13mo he was sitting up look with his head tipped upward as if he was looking at an adult. He was laughing and chatting up a storm saying ‘oh Nana’ and laughing. I got chills and I came around where he could see me and I asked who he was talking to. Clear as anything he said ‘well my Nana.’ He talked to her often I found it very comforting.Â
Lat year my family moved to Wisconsin. My Husband had rented us a house. When we where dropped off here by family to our rental I turned on all the lights and let the boys run around and check things out.Â
My oldest ran upstairs and went into the room what would be his room. He laughed and said ‘Oh hi Nana! There you are!!’  I had been nervous about this move till that very moment. I knew we would be ok.Â
Noah has always quickly identified my Mom in photos ect. Even younger photos of my Mom.Â
I always said that they met in passing. She was leaving as he was coming. But I never thought that it would leave him with such a definite understanding of who she was.Â