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Solitary Witch

Sometime seeing a solitary witch can be very taxing. I remember when I lived with my parents, by the age of 13, I was practicing with a huge numbered circle/coven. It made everything more interesting. I was the youngest one, so it felt like I had a huge family who was teaching me new things I did not know. They taught me how to look at the world in a new light and at problems in a new way to be solved. When I turned 19 I started my own circle since the last one had began falling part, people moved away and my dear friend who was like my brother passsed away. I started my own circle but many of the people who wanted to be in the circle did not want the traditional witchcraft, not the way we know it, they wanted the Hollywood smoke and mirrors witchcraft. But I will say this, sometimes, being solitary can be very tiring and lonely. Sometimes I wish I could go back the days when celebrating one of the eight Sabbaths was a celebration. Food, dancing, spellwork, celebrating and honoring. Not just ritual and that's it. Hopefully one day I can find another group of people that can be as committed to the craft but is also interested in forming more than just a working circle. Covens and circles are not just for spell working but for helping one another, being there for each other, teaching each either. Where have all the covens disappeared to?

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thecultoflexithewulf

My friends, what was the first spell you casted?

I would love to hear what you have to say my friends.

alecpendragon

The first spell I ever castes was when I was 8 years old. My mother had been in the hospital for a small operation but things began to take an ugly turn, so I had the book of notes (what I called it then) from stuff I learned and was taught by my grandmother and did a healing spell. I remember my dad being so angry with me because I was practicing witchcraft. Even though I just moved to live with them. Anyway, yes, my first spell was to heal my mother.

Attention to detail

I think it's funny how people go about and say "I created a list of (insert items) and their uses" but as you go through it 10 out 20 description is a very vague description, not only that BUT the same description for all.! Seriously?!

Attention to detail

Magic isn’t evil...

There is the belief that magic is evil. I would like to try and keep this short and simple. It is not magic that is evil, it is the way you use it that determines wether something is in agreement with the morals and expectations of others. Magic is a power source, something that we all have access to, but it is what we do with that power that define who we are. Everyone is too afraid of the “karmic law” of the universe, i will say this as a Eclectic and please understand this term to the full meaning “TRADITIONAL” witch, i believe that magic is a tool for our own using. We can use magic for which ever purposes that we need and solemnly want to. Every book that I read now, comes across the first and most important rule “and harm none,” but doesn’t apply to all of us. See in traditional witchcraft such rule did not exist. Witches do as they are pleased, heal, cure, help, curse, hex....it is power, nothing more and nothing else. If someone wishes to acclaim to me that magic is only meant to be good for good, where did you learn that from? Gardner? The Wiccan rede? Let me first say, not all witches are Wiccan! Not all Wiccans are Witches. The word Witch and Wicca may correlate in linguistic structure, but it does not mean the same thing in a religion point of view. Just like this other statement; “not all pagans are witches.” All the rules that you read about 3x3 and the nine fold rule, only applies to those who wish to practice it, for this rules are only but moral guidelines. Judika in her “Encyclopedia of 5,000 Spells” explains about the rule of 3 and 9, but goes to publish hexes and curses in it, yet, while she gives these out to let the newly trained witch babies play with them freely...she goes and says that putting negative into the world begets negative energy back to the sender. I will ask this of all Wiccans,Witches and Pagans, stop thinking that a rede created by a woman in the 1960′s applies to all sects of Paganism, Wiccan lives, and Witchcraft. I am traditional witch, born and raised in that religion, actually traced with a family lineage of practitioners, think what you may like about that statement, but some of us are still thought this kind of stuff in our families, but i digress, the ones who are lucky to be born into the pagan families learn that there is no such boundaries of witchcraft, power, magic, whatever it is you call it...NOT all of use practice that same law, so the next time you are about to tell someone “but what about the 3x3 rule, Karmic law, etc.” think to yourself, does that apply to this person?

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matauryn

“True magic is neither black nor white. It’s both because nature is both, loving and cruel, all at the same time. The only good or bad is in the heart of the witch, life gives a balance of it’s own” - The Craft (1996) http://amzn.to/1wncS44 Image Credit: The Craft

A Year in the Shoes of Boy Witch

January 10th

I am sorry that i have not posted in the last 7 days. For some reason I have been filling super drained. I think it had to do a lot with the fact that i wake up at 4 am to go to work. It could also be the fact that I've been lending charms and little spells to people, along with card readings and other "mystical" things. The past week wasn't so interesting, so really you guys didn't miss much. Aside from the dreams of Matt telling me he needs to talk to me, you know Matt, the guy from work that started dating his friend? Yeah, well I've been having this strange dreams where i am walking out of a dark building in to a desert area and he walks behind me. He pulls my arm as i continue to walk away and tells me he needs to talk to me. I wonder if i should message him or let him come to me...again.

I've had the same dream for 4 nights and am beginning to think it might be urgent or something, but at the same time i don't want to give in and message him first. In other another note, now that i have my Disney Annual Pass back, i get to see my best friend more, which recharges a lot of energy as he is fucking walking battery. I made some new mutual friends that were his friends. The one that i like the most is this girl that works with him named Marisa. She has a certain energy that attracts me to her. I think i might have known her in a past life. Every time i am with her I feel as if i could actually protect her and my sense of humanity kicks back in. I know, I know, it sounds like i am in love with her, but trust me i am not. It's a different kind of attraction.

I haven't been doing any big ritual or spells lately, especially since i been so tired from work. But i think that since Imbolc is coming up, i might do something on my own or with my best friend. I am tired of celebrating the High holidays by myself. It is very depressing being a witch without a coven. I mean its not easy being a male witch, most covens are made up of family, life long friends, a year and a day friends or mostly women. It's very hard being a solitary, it's so much energy that must be used for the rituals. I think I'll cast a spell to attract other Witches to me, its in my Book of Shadows, hopefully it works and the Goddess allows it.

Todays reading, it was strange. I was shuffling my deck, when three cards fell out. Literally they fell in these positions:

The Past: Eight of Cups; turmoil, no chance of rekindling, time to move on.

The Present: Three of Swords; Betrayal, lies, cheating or heartbreak.

The Future: Six of Wands; Victory, Success, rising up from tangles branches. What will i do with my newly found wings.

I decided to only do a reading with the Wild Unknown Tarot, so if you know this tarot look a the imagery of this Deck.

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A Year in the Shoes of Boy Witch

January 3rd

Its Sunday! that's the bad news. Work tomorrow and there is no more holidays that we can get off. I'll make the best of it, specially since he has now fallen in love with another of his friends. Its very comical how sometimes people fall in love so easily. Anyways, thats another story for another day, so never mind.

Today, I decided that being a New year and all, i would cleanse the energy in the room. So i did.! First it was the marvelous adventure of cleaning the room all by myself, which took a good 4 hours. The energy in the clothes began seeping and meshing with that of the rooms which only constraint it more...and if you are a witch, you know how much of a hassle it is to unblock and untie energies. The comical thin was that after I managed to unblock the energies and cleanse them, i began finding things that i believed had been lost. I found bags, missing socks, notes to myself, reminders..you name it. The most peculiar thing was finding a copy of a pin of Astaroth. I have a pin that I had bought in a Pagan Pride festival, but i don't remember ever getting a second one. Just for the record, let me add that, NO! I am not a Satanist, nor do I use Astaroth as any patron for spells. I disposed of the button, but kept the one i cleansed, its looked in small wooden chest buried under a lot of ash and sea salt. Energies like of his cannot be released in the earth so easily, must be purged and destroyed by fire. After that for some reason I felt liberated, now I could only cleanse the room of burning metal and plastic. I tried burning incense, but it didn't seem to work.

Sometimes and the reason I am adding this to this day, is because I want to know, I can't help but to wonder if there are any others out there like me. I know there are other pagans, but are there any other gay males that are witches/wiccan/pagan that are...and i hate to use this word, but a bit more normal? I know, I know, here come the debates and comments and insults or the cliché question "What is normal?" I am not trying to insult anyone, i really am not. I just need to know that there are other, sport liking, art loving, foodies, work out people, gamers, gay, clubkids, that practice and are not the freaks. Again, i am not trying to offend anyone.

Anyone? Are you out there?

Todays Tarot Reading, i didn't pull a one card today in the morning, so i think i'm going to ask a general question about just what i need to know and lets see what they cards tell me.

The Wild Unknown Deck: 3 Card Spread

So, since I pulled 3 cards, i asked it a general question, but since i think my mind deviated to at first to Matt (the guy from work, that i may have a crush on) than to chad (the current boy in my life, sounds bad that i have a crush on someone else, but longs story between me and chad, thats for another time), the cards were telling me that i need to move on. Either the Son of Cups in the past represents me or one of them. The son of cups represents someone who excels in an art, visual art of some kind, which could be Chad since he is going to to be a cook, thats sort of a visual art no? Than the present card, shows the 8 of cups, which tells me that there isn't much left here for me, thats time to move on. "There is no hope of rekindling" but than again, matt and i just had an argument yesterday, so it could be him too...or both? The last card the future shows my least favorite card right now; the 5 of pentacles. This card is the card of sadness, worry and illness. it is the card of hard times, it may come in the form of illness, job loss, financial trouble or rejection. I don't think it will be job loss or financial trouble, because the moth of January said i was going to be good with money. I think the card is telling that if i stay here or if continue to pursue Matt, i will sad with here where i am now or that Matt is just going to continue rejecting me. So in other words the cards telling me that in order to be a good position, i have to move on from both of them.

The Raider Waite Deck

I began asking the same general question to the Raider Waite Deck, and as i shuffled it, The Star card jumps out. So, I'll take that as a sign of that i need to look towards the future and have to look for it in positive manner. Do not limit myself to the truth hope or faith. I need to learn to distinguish reality from illusion. It is a very positive card.

So there it is, i think i need to keep using the Wild Unknown Deck more because it tells me only negative things...or sometimes gibberish. Lets see what happens as i keep using it.

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A Year in the Shoes of Boy Witch

January 2nd

Back to work today. Gods! I hate waking up so early in the morning. Usually I would have to wake up at 6 am, but since I am going to attend my classes in the University at night, i have to start at 6 am, so that means waking up at 4 am.

Today I cannot seem but to feel that most uneasy feeling. Like something is going to happen. Its only Friday, but after having rested for the New Years day, I only want to sleep and just dream. Work like always will be sort of fun, but i know that once my manager gets there it will become more busy than usual. Life during the week isn't much excitement. But for regards of this blog or Book (hopefully) I have add the most boring this, no?

As I was saying earlier, I have the worst feeling. So, hopefully lets see what happens soon, the day will reveal itself....hopefully.

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Work wasn't as bad as I thought. Although I cannot seem to shake off the feeling that my job is the home of some spirits. Stuff has been moving and I have began to hear footsteps upstairs. The feeling that something was going to happen settled down, but not quite disappeared. All through out the day i knew it was lingering, I felt it closer and distant, almost as if it was someone or something. It wasn't till the end of the day, that i realized finally what the feeling was. I was out with my friend, when i saw a post on one of the social media sites of one of the guys I know from work holding hands with another guy. I know, it sounds pathetic that i would be feeling uneasy about it, but knowing things isn't always good, yes it has its advantages but mostly it has brought pain more than anything.

The rest of the night was boring.

The Card of the Day:

I pulled out out the 3 of pentacles from The Wild Unknown Deck. Which meant that i have skills i need to hone. I need to realize that i have potential for great things, but first i must take in effect that I can do good things.

From the Raider Waite Deck I pulled The Sun. Which should have been on my mind all day and should have helped me figure out this weird un easy feeling. The Sun card foretells; Illumination, Clarity, Vitality. I cannot let things get me down. If they get in my way, move them out of the way or find a way around them.

What is more ironic is that I wrote a note to remember The Sun card but i completely forgot.

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A Year in the Shoes of a Boy Witch.

January 1st

I guess like every story written, there has to be an introduction. My name is Edy, that is my given birth name, but I've chosen to call myself Alec, a shorten name of my middle name. Names aren't very important to me, they are useful for business, but if someone wants to know you, they have to get to know the real you. I am 22, work for a company that deals with the sales, fixing and rentals of Trucks, semis to be exact. My job is to return warranties and find them to make sure the company gets money back. It's a stressful job, but it pays okay. Besides these boring things I can say, well rather tell you as to where it won't be a surprise later on, I am gay, a Homosexual. That is one slam on the face out of the way, why? Well because it is really hard to find love in such a small pool of guys, specially when a lot of them are so superficial. The second slam of the face is that I am a Witch. No, not the "Charmed," "Sabrina, The Teenage Witch," kind of witch, these wont be fiction. I can't make things fly or appear or "apparate" like Harry Potter, but i am a Witch.

Now let me disclaim that i am not or nor have ever been an outcast. I am not one of those weird kids that is so fucked up by "life" that they decided to turn to witchcraft as a form of revenge or to "stick it to the man." I was raised a witch, pagan, wiccan, whatever it is you wish to call it. I am a traditional witch and an eclectic. Now before you guys who and start saying "that's not true, you can't be all those." Well, yes you can, because i have been all of those through of my life, and i was also raised Catholic/Christian, I am VERY eclectic. I was raised a witch by great-grandmother and grandmother.

So, by now i am sure that you are asking yourself why i am bothering to tell you all this. Well the it's quite simple. I want to write a book about what it is to be a Gay, young male, 22 going on 23 that is a Witch.

In this book i want to write about my life, in narrative-novel-like style. In a way it will be my journal and tarot journal, but none the less, still will be a book about the life of young male in the 21st century. Who will read this? That I have no clue but maybe someone, one day will.

So, without any more delay, lets begin. As you can see from the date, it is January 1st 2015, I have the day off from work which is amazing as yesterday was the worst day. I am writing while the boyfriend of 7 years takes a shower. Life is semi interesting and I keep busy, with what? well you'll see. My life has a certain why of throwing shit in my face really unexpectedly. For example, today i found out that one of my good friends was raped by one of his co-workers. He works in the "most crowded place on earth," Disneyland. The only thing I can do is support his decision to go and talk to his managers and try and get the asshole apprehended and have the consequences of his actions. I can only do that, as my first choice was to curse the asshole. Yes! Magic exist, not in the way that many of us wish it did with the lightning out of our finger tips, levitation, telekinesis, but it exist. Just like any religion out there, I am not trying to recruit you or "convert" you, but to tell you my story. If you keep reading you'll see what i mean.

Anyways, back to my friend, so I supported his decision and it made me wonder what this year has in store for me. As a Witch, the Tarot is a big part of my life, now i am not saying its a witchcraft tool, but it is a big part of my life and of other witches out there. I have these to set of cards, which i will be posting pics of so to copy right reasons will be naming them. They are made by Kim Krans and called The Wild Unknown Tarot and the Raider Waite Decks.

Lets begin! I will be keeping a journal with my tarot readings and notes through out the day and at the same time write to you guys about the days going by. I will post the reading, meanings and also some pictures of them.

Bare with me.

1st reading: The Year Lay Out

The year layout turned out to be a bad one. The cards told met that his month would be good and that money was going to be in my favor. But what worried me was the worst that came along with the next months. Specially the one were it told me that soon i would become my own ruin and demise. I could loose my job. Hopefully that doest happen, specially since soon i am moving out to my best friend's house. In a way moving out brings another part of my reading in to play, the theme of the year, The Hermit, becoming a semi-recluse so that i can learn to love myself and become more self aware so that i can be of greater help to people. You cannot be a help to people if you do not love yourself and cannot solve your own problems, right?

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thewiccanwondersarchive

Is it okay to study medical science in school and become a doctor while being Wiccan?

So in short anyone, no matter age, gender or job, can be Wiccan.

-A

The word "Witch" has no gender, for anyone can be wise or cunning. Witchcraft, Wicca, Wiccae, is both male and female, both black and white, both light and dark, because the world is, nature is.