Well, i'm doing it again...
I've just finished the very last episode of Dawson's Creek. That's right, Season 6, episode 24. I have never felt so complete yet lost all at once, and surely not over a television series. But of course, i am tied to this series as if it were my ver own life. I have connected with the characters, felt their pain just as much as their happiness, healed in time with their losses, fought through their struggles, loved each of their loves, and well.. you get the point. I have watched and gone through the journey of the four main characters, Joey, Dawson, Pacey, and Jen to see them grow from 15 year old teenagers from Capeside into 25 year olds living out their dreams.
I think my sense of completeness with the late 90's, early 00's television series comes from seeing these character come full circle. I have never been so happy with the ending of a competitive triangle of a relationship than I have with the Joey-Pacey-Dawson love triangle. Episode 24 of Season 6 puts it into full perspective as Joey finally confronts her long time headache of what is known as love. The realization is that she is and has always been destined to be with Pacey. It is then known that Joey never once was supposed to be in a relationship with Dawson. That each time their relationship took an opportunity, it was forced, out of thinking their loves couldn't exist unless acted upon. Truth was, their relationship was way more than any binding of a relationship could announce; it truly was forever. Meaning that both had to first come to terms with realizing that soulmates didn't necessarily need to be together, because no matter what they could never be apart. And that is also why Pacey was the perfect true love for Joey. Pacey knew of and had finally understood Dawson and Joey's relationship. Pacey also brought about every living, risky, yet sensitive and compassionate thread that Joey had to offer. They were alive when together. It certainly was a beautiful thing to watch unfold.
And if i have yet to lose you with my sappiness... I promise, it's only going to get sappier...
Episode 24 of Season 6 not only consisted of happy moments, but also one of the saddest moments in this particular season. The loss of Jen. I won't go into detail of her reasoning of death, but it is safe to say that I never have had that type of a connection with a character so much that I let out the most hurt and dagger-to-the-heart of a cry. After the tearflow, i took the time to reflect... Why in the hell was I crying? THIS IS A CHARACTER. I mean, shedding a few tears is always inevitable with any sort of death, but this was surely a flood of a cry, nothing less. It hit me. Jen was young. Around 25 years young actually. She had died from the inability of the flow of blood to her heart. Jen was only 5 years older than I am now at the time of her death.
I believe what shook the hell out of me was the fact that time is always limited. Jen was completely thrown for a loop when finding out about her sickness. And to take from this, nothing in life is guaranteed. We live this lifestyle thinking we have all the time in the world when in fact thats just complete bullshit. Not a single person living at the moment has all the time in the world. I believe time is truly the most taken for granted thing in life. Thinking about this made me realize possibly one of my biggest fears... I am incredibly scared to die without sharing this crazy, full-of-life love that i know is out there. It's the scariest thing to think about not meeting that guy who is going to make me feel alive like Joey made Pacey feel and vise-versa.
Judge me you may, but don't say I didn't warn ya of sappiness!
PS: If you have not yes seen Dawson's Creek. Then i'm just wondering why n the hell you're still reading my sappy blog post and have yet to make a Netflix account (if you somehow don't already have one) and starting Episode one of Season one...
PSS: Season one and two are a little tough to get through, keep on keepin' on, i promise it'll all be worth it when you're watching Episode 23 & 24 of Season 6!
